THOUGHTS OF A FITNESS FREAK

I want to thank the people who leave me guest/visitor comments.  The page that I view them on locks up while loading often and I can’t write to them all individually.  They can contact me through email though I think.  A woman stopped me in the locker room..she was nervous and at first I thought she was going to ay something BAD because she said "don’t take this the wrong way"……….then she told me she thught I looked great and she’s a mom and gained 30 lbs and just fell apart.  Then she started drinking.  She’s 36 and I told her I started at 37.  Poor thing.see thats what happens to alot of moms.  Life turns into the kids, your body betrays you and you become "just MOM".  Being a Mom is great, don’t get me wrong.  I love my little turds, but there is a line between being a mom and losing yourself and a very thin one at that.  Often we eat last, shower last and if we get the last bite of something and one of the kid sees it………..it becomes theirs. 

Let me say that when my son tells a friend, "my mom is buff….she will take you out", thats a 14 year old compliment.  Ok, Im not taking out a kid and he says it jokingly to his friends.  But he’s not embarrassed by me.  None of them made me drop them off on the corner at school or anything so their friends dont see you.  I’m lucky I guess.

I havent been on here much this weekend, though I did train this weekend.  Friday was bis and abs maybe?? Crap, I forget.  Today was some fast legs.  Only about an hour, no squats because my left erector is being cranky.  Supersets of seated curls and extensions (dropsets) glute isolator, laying curls, leg press 10 45lb plates baby!!!  linear hack press and abbductor /adductor.

I started a new article of figure for BB.com.  I have been doing alot of writing.  have to tweak one and it will be subitted soon.  They liked the draft.  I’m doing a photoshoot next saturday with the honey guy.  I was supposed to do one with John Hill last weekend, but he had to cancel.  And herbiceps.com is backlogged so I havent gotten my photos from my shoot with them from july.  Nothing new to post then.  Besides that I have been eating like a horse, so these new photos may be a little softer.  Im ok with that.  Ok, now Im babbling like an idiot. 

Again, thank you to the visitors.  yes, I too want to quit sometimes…but I don’t.

Nope…….got em without doing a standard situp or floor crunch.  I did them once a week for about an hour and never strained my neck or back in the process.  I can’t say you can do so well at home, but I do know some gym secrets.

Kneeling cable crunches 120-150 lbs.

seated crunches on the bench…….max weight 30lbs dumbbell between the feet.

Cable side bends .cable in each hand 70 each hand.  Not my max….don’t want bigger obliques!!!

Incline situps..no weight now, but my max was a 45lb plate

No hanging leg raises today, but I did do roman chair for erectors.  I used to do a 45lb plate, but they got too thick too, so now I do 3 or 4 sets of 12-15.  this sometimes makes your back contract anfd tighten..so I did some 120 lbs kneeling crunches to "stretch out".

Did a few sets of calves in between sets as well.

For people who cant get to the gym, you can get abs, but probably not too think.  Most people don’t want them so thick anyway.  Do seated crunches with a dumbbell in a chair or do standard laying crunches, knees bent, feert under your sofa and run your hands from hip to knees.  Side bends can be done with dumbbells, but give up the pink 2 lbs dumbbells.  Save a gallon milk jug…….it weighs 8 lbs full and I KNOW you can lift a gallon of milk ladies!!! 

The rest is diet…….revealing what is underneath a layer is a strict diet, won’t happen overnight and sometimes you have to get "too skinny" too see them and the rest of you may look like crap …..so it’s up to you.  I weigh 127 today.  I love my skin and hydration at 127 though and my face looks better to me.  Superlean should only be a "temporary" thing.  I did not know that when I first started.  I thought "why can’t people maintain lean like in their photos?".  I thought they looked like that all year!!!  Its an awesome look…..but I want to live a long time!!! 

I changed my haircolor a bit, I was tired of being super blonde.  I am now an "ash blonde". It’s funky, kinda silvery brown….but I like it.  Frankly super blonde is a pain in the ass as far as maintenance.  Im not a huge maintenance kind of woman.  Who has time for that? 

Hope ya’ll had a great day!!!

It’s funny…i did not want to get up this morning.  I was fighting the cobwebs.  Then thinking about going to the gym after work didnt excite me very much.  But I downed my superpump and it was off to the races.  I think it’s because I pigged out this weekend, but I had the energy of a bull. Ok, maybe energy of a mouse because a bull is strong, but lacks stamina.

I did legs.  Started with leg press and got up to 505lbs

standing cable kickbaks 50-90lbs ( can do heavier if I use the bench, standing puts more stress on the lower back)

aying curls 70, seated curls 85

leg extensions 90…..knee tweaks on this machine sometimes as it is an "open-ended" exercise.

Plie squats with a 45lb db and romanian deadlifts with db’s 30 each hand.

Threw in calf slide 200lbs, chin ups and some incline situps bewtween sets and a little glute isolator.

Time flew!! Hour and 1/2 later I was ready to run a marathon.  Drove home, cleaned my kitchen, cooked some burgers , ate 2 like a pig. I use Arnold whole grain sandwich thins.. Only 100 calories and whole grain! Probably a total of 40 grams of protein or more.not sure with the cheese. 

Thats it.  Im going to go watch TV now

CT is a hot mess. All   humid and nasty.  It has been affecting alot of people.  the gym is a vitual ghost town, no one has energy because they probably don’t feel like eating much.  It is what it is.  

I know people usually appreciate honestly, thats why I am honest with al my stuff here. You want me to be fake, smile like a stepford wife and tell you everything is wonderful, well then you are on the wrong blog.  I remember getting some comments about "so and so" who is never negative, never says a bad word about anything…..blah blah…….thats crap.Ya, and I bet she never farts either….back up cus her head is going to blow off from the back up. The only people who think and act as if everything is "wonderful" drank some poison kool ade back in Jonestown in the early 80’s.  Life is better when people are real and you don’t feel like you are "the only one".  Probably why tabloids sell so well, everyone wants to see what people really look like without make-up and cellulite on their ass and thighs. 

As for who I find inspirational, thats a hard one.  I try to find someone who is "older, has more kids than me and is doing it on her own" and I gotta tell ya, there arent many.  Of course I like Gina Aliottis bod as well as Monica Brants, but can I really look up to them?  Kinda, sorta, but not really. If I was younger and had no kids then probably more so.  BUT I can still try. Its even hard to "look up" to another woman who you know has a husband who pays the bills and she can work out when she wants or be here 24/7 because she doesnt have a job. I guess its the old "you cant know until you walk in my shoes deal". 

I also believe in truth in advertising.  Supplements are aides in working out.  There is no magic pill, even steroids don’t make all men huge. Abs are genetic as to how many you got under there and its mostly diet. I use my supplements as the extra boost I need to get me where Im going.  It doesnt happen overnight.  I do love the superpump because I work all day and go to the gym at night and I am freakin tired and need some energy.  I am moving from 6 am until after 11pm 5 nights a week.  I went out last night and had a huge turkey burger and fries, then had chinese later.  Im not eating lettuce all day and nibbling chicken breast unless I have to.

So stop thinking you are a "loser and you can’t do it" because so and so only eats nuts and berries or birdseed and never, never has fast food.  Be good for a few weeks, then enjoy that bgrease running down your forearm from a double cheeseburger while you try to drive. 

Some days we feel like losers, some days we feel like winners cus we are all human.  No one is perfect, people are photoshopped and we all get a big zit before every big event. 

I have a photoshoot tomorrow, so no legs day yet again. I did shouders, tris and calves this morning.  My face is dry, the heat is making my ankles puffy and I weigh 127lbs…..oh yeah and my roots need a touch up and half my manicure is gone from about 4 or 5 weeks of being there.  But ya……..its how I roll.

Have a great day!!!

I have always had low blood pressure, even while pregnant.  Normal is 120/80.  I usually am 110/70…..or lower.  So 2 days ago I stayed to feel a little faint in the morning, so I decided to check mine on a whim.  I was 99/51 while standing, which might be lower if I had been "resting".  I ate a 1/2 cup of oatmeal and felt a little better.  Researching as I do, I found people who exercise regularly, do have lower blood pressure.  This is because you "workout" your heart and it doesnt need to pump as much like the average Joe…or Jane. The heart is a muscle and apparently my muscle squeezes more blood with one pump as opposed to someone who doesnt exercise.  So if the good Lord or mother nature or Allah pre determined you get umpteen thousand pumps before you are pushing up daisies….you better get your ass in the gym because if your blood pressure is currently HIGH…………you are closer to daisy-land than the gym freaks. 

Its soooooooooo freakin hot here this week.  I have been so drained.  90 plus during the day, 77 this morning, with "my hair looks like a walmart crackhead" humidity. A I need is a plaid shirt with the sleeves cut off or a man’s pocket tee to complete the package.   This week there are but a few gym stragglers.  I thiunk everyone gets out of work, walks in their front door and decides they don’t want to move.  Thats how I have been feeling.  The TV and the fan calls to me.   I did make it a few times, but was pretty drained and my strength was in the crapper.  Not to mention you just don’t feel like eating much this time of year.  The combo is not good.  Better than winter, but not for working out. 

We did back and bi’s I was pretty strong on back but the rest of me was tired.  Chatted a with a couple people, had some verbal sparring about some funny stuff.  It was a fun gym visit though, but not so productive as I would have  liked.

Later I want to talk about a show on E! about female "bodybuilders".  Did you see it?  10% positive 90% bad.  WTF is up with that?  I wont go into it now.  Explain my thoughts later!! 

yes I watch the Real Housewives…they are all about my age and all rage about Botox.  In some recent photos , my squint lines in the middle of my forehead made me self concious so I decided to give it a try.  It was quick and easy and I have a high pain threshold.  About 3 days later I couldnt move my forehead…..well some of it.  A week later I had my first migraine ever, a week after that I started to get a muscle spasm in my eyebrow where it would literally look like I was squinting and one eyebrow would cramp up and be lower than the other.  It happened if something brushed my forehead or if I leaned over.  I was horrified, It made me look like a monster……seriously, one eyebrow pulling down in a muscle cramp!!  You can see my eye closing in my nationals photos thats why I didnt post them.  So about 5 weeks in I was loking in the mirror at work, the spasms had ceased and my Botox was totally gone.  I have full movement of my forehead, so I called my doc and went in for a visit.  She tells me she thinks its because I am lean and have a high metabolism, that I metabolized the Botox.  I was like "are you ****tin me?".  In all fairness, I paid for it and got nothing and th0ought she should try it again for no charge.  This wasn’t the case.  So now I am back to my same old forehead.  Was I being paranoid in trying it?  Of course I was……Im 41, just wanted to try to prevent myself from squinting because I have hyper sensitive eyes, even with sunglasses I can’t take much light.  So if you are thinking about trying it and you are lean, think again.  The assistant told me "If you want to have Botox, guess you need to gain weight!!!!"  She was quite funny.  I have no ‘resting’ lines on my forehead or on my face.  Young peoples eyes crinkle when they smile anyway I tell myself.  I try not to freak out as age creeps in on me.  I just wanted to see what the hype was about and of course I have to be the one in thousands it had no effect on!!!! 

So thats my Botox story.  Yes, I had ‘cosmetic’ work……NO, it didnt work and my face is still 41. 

Keep your money lean ladies.

So after my 5 days off……yah……5 damn days…..shoot me.  Its been 90 degrees out everyday.  Who has energy?  I thought I would have some super ebergy tonight, but I did NOT.  My lifts were not heavy and someone did not turn on the AC at the gym until 20 mins before I got there.  It was like a Louisiana swamp.  I was waitying for some guy named Leeeeerooooooy to jump out and tell me "you got a purdy mouth". (dELIVERANCE MOVIE REFERENCE!!!) But lets move on.

lateral raises with db’s , upright raises on smith, shoulder presses on smith, ‘lawnmower’ rows, military presses……..thats it.

Calves were the standard machines……what else?  I did lots of weight on them though.

Ran into someone I havent seen in 5 months.  Dingdong dumped the gym for 5 months for a WOMAN. Crap, I have been there for a guy, but dumped them as soon as they started bitching about me spending too much time at the gym.  Why would you give up something you love for someone who probably won’t work out anyway?  If they don’t like it when you are first dating, they sure as hell won’t like it later on.  Nip that **** in the bud people!  My guy has to love it as much as me or he’s out the door.  Granted, I know fit people whose spouses are not into it, but they love them enough to know what makes the other happy and don’t make them quit for pete sake.  Ideally I need a spouse I can train with because I am there 5 days a week…….so our time together would be limited…..that isn’t just me being picky ya know.

What else to talk about?  Oh…..I don’t know. Not much has happened really.  Kinda bored.  Tried to lay out on my deck on sunday, but it was too hot.  Even tried a bowl of icewater….sweated balls.  It wasnt pretty.  I have a photoshoot on saturday, other than that I got NOTHING;……………..

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Its wrong of me to bitch, its shallow.  I watched a woman’s story the other night.  Her x shot her in the face and she literally had NO face.  WTF am I doing bitching?  I may not be the biggest, prettiest, smartest woman……..but ****…..i have a face. I also have 2 legs, arms and a good brain.  Ya, I forget where I put stuff alot, but alzheimers hasn’t gotten me yet.  I have a good job when some people have none, I have a decent rental house and none of my kids has done anything terrible and are still willing to be seen in public with me and tell me they love me before they hang up the phone.  I try to remember life could be worse.

I didn’t train today.  I took my youngest to a pow-wow.  yes, a real pow-wow….oh and I bought a beautiful silken scarf dress that goes to my ankles.  I got two compliments in 5 minutes when I wore it to the store.  I guess I have pretty good taste. It was 90 degrees out, so we didn’t stay long.  Walked about 1/2 mile home uphill and seeing as I don’t do cardio..wanted to die.  The lines for water were too long as they were food lines.  What event does not have a bottled water line?  If I’m fit and wanted to drop dead from the heat…….what about people who aren’t so fit?

Tomorrow it’s back to legs day.   I took 3 days off, so I am ready for a good leg killing.  I hope everyone is having a nice weekend!

Not so much a training slump……..just don’t feel like doing much lately.  Maybe it’s the terrible weather? Its humid, its overcast, like living in a place where they store cigars.

I think this happens to me post show quite a bit. My training is fine, back to heaVY,  sore on my entire upper body.

Truth be told, sometimes I want to quit everything.  Not so much training, just the internet stuff. I just feel like Im not making much of a difference for anyone. I wanted to be the underdog who accomplished much by herself.  Yes, I did accomplish much, but despite the photoshoots, no one will put me in a magazine. Its my one goal I will never accomplish and so I feel like a bit of a failure.  I wil probably be over it in a coupe days, but right now….failure.  I have seen other women from this site get magazine exposure and I always wonder "why not me?"  I work my ass off.

Ok, thats it for that. Ill get over it…no more whining

So the other day (sunday?) I decided to go tanning.  I went to the beach once this year so far and am losing my tan.  The gyms beds are weak at best.  Anyway, as soon as I opened thew door…..the SMELL hit me like a ton of bricks off the Empire State building………..MALE piss.  Trust me, I have three boys and I worked in a few bars.  I know the smell.  So I looked around and found someone had pissed in the damn trash can!!!  WTF is up with people? Dude couldnt wait to walk to the locker room so he had to piss in the little trash can? Thats so disgusting.  I took the can up to the desk because obviously I wasn’t going to lay in there with that freakin smell wafting around.  It lingered afterwards but not as bad. 

Thats my horror of the week. Tonight I worked abs and back.  My workouts are all over the board lately. Its fine though because getting back into heavy I just choose to work whatevcer is not still sore fromn a day or two before.   I ewill go back to being structured after the last show of the season. Eating like a beast and lifting like one too. Im going to try to get to 135 this winter, if not 140 lbs.  Last year I peaked at 130 before dropping down.  I will probably end up going into bodybuilding if I can get a little more mass on me.  Like I said, don’t want to go into it with weenie little chicken legs.  Fernie the spider would not be a fun nickname……all skinny like a daddy long leg (which is actually NOT a spider at all…lil trivia tidbit from the blonde…..:).

I just did incline situps, vbench crunches with a 20 lbs db in myt feet and kneeling cable crunches at 140 lbs. For back, lat pressdowns 110, seated rows 110 and lat pulldowns at 120.  Also db rows.  My traps were sore from doing shoulders though, so I avoided some exercises.  Traps are a tough area to decide whaebn to do them.  If they get hit alot during heavy shoulders , like raises…then they pick up alot of the weight, therefore to re-do them on back day seems pointless.  They ARE part of your back though. so I concentrated on back, yet more lat concentrated moves.  Does that make sense? 

Gotta run……I have some tortelli’s calling my name.