THOUGHTS OF A FITNESS FREAK

Im a difficult fit, not blessed with a tiny waist but I need shorts that fit me.  I mean really fit like the models in oxygen.  I am thinking a 2 inch inseam and low rise waist.  I have been to several sites and just cant choose.  Oh, and I dont have much money….so they have to be a little cheap or on sale. I love bia brazil type.  Most of the sites that have decent prices only seem to have black in stock and I want color of course.  You know if the shorts are too tight they squish your butt flat, too short of an inseam and someone can be checking out your girl parts while you are working out……….Im no porn star……..my giblets are private thank you very much.  Just think of the UFC fighter length of short that doesnt roll up into you know where, have a crotch seam that screams camel toe or anything of that nature.

Ok, spanks very much.  I ordered the shorts from here, better bodies I think…but those suckers are short!  I can wear them when I am super lean and tiny, but since bringing sexy back (just kidding I mean my butt) too much arse cheek flies free.  I love otomix though and get all my stuff from them right here.

Ok, will do legs later!

Im a difficult fit, not blessed with a tiny waist but I need shorts that fit me.  I mean really fit like the models in oxygen.  I am thinking a 2 inch inseam and low rise waist.  I have been to several sites and just cant choose.  Oh, and I dont have much money….so they have to be a little cheap or on sale. I love bia brazil type.  Most of the sites that have decent prices only seem to have black in stock and I want color of course.  You know if the shorts are too tight they squish your butt flat, too short of an inseam and someone can be checking out your girl parts while you are working out……….Im no porn star……..my giblets are private thank you very much.  Just think of the UFC fighter length of short that doesnt roll up into you know where, have a crotch seam that screams camel toe or anything of that nature.

Ok, spanks very much.  I ordered the shorts from here, better bodies I think…but those suckers are short!  I can wear them when I am super lean and tiny, but since bringing sexy back (just kidding I mean my butt) too much arse cheek flies free.  I love otomix though and get all my stuff from them right here.

Ok, will do legs later!

I stuck to my guns and didnt go.  Of course the next day everyone asked me why, so I told them I had an earache (which I did). I went to the gym and hung out with my real friends.  Its all good!

Last night was my sons 21st birthday and we took him out in the middle of a snowstorm.  Frankly I went because this place had some free food.  I have no idea how my son walk even walking, but he was fine.  You know everyone had to buy him a shot for his birthday. I would have been passed out after the 3rd or 4th one.  Im not much of a drinker.

Im supposed to train with my friend Art today, but its snowing again.  I had a great workout on thursday though, so I am not too worried about making it over there. I did legs and some upper body.  I didnt go really heavy but I did pretty well.  In between legs I did things like curls, lateral raises and some bodyweight exercises.  I think we were supposed to do abs today, but if I cant get out because of this snow I will be mad.

Ill write later, got to finish my coffee.

Here is my dilemma.  We have a Christmas party tonight for work.  Yesterday I had a fight with my manager because apparently the other women are accusing me of things.  I take breaks at my desk when I take them and check my email, as I do on  my lunch.  I also order things from the internet for work and do research on products as well as check office email for x rays, invoices…you get the idea. So, yesterday she tells me people are talking about me spending time on the internet and on my cellphone.  I get one call usually at 11am on my cell from one person and sometimes my daughter calls me or I call her cus we both have verizon and its free.  We talk for about 3 seconds.  Last month I had some issues with my move, so my landlord was calling me, I had to change over my electricity and phone, nothing major and I did it all from my desk around my "breaktime".  I do not sit in the lunchroom (a tiny kitchen) and eat as there are usually piles of junk and candy in there, so I choose to be productive on my breaks. 

Meanwhile these other women are checking their mail, screwing around gossiping, shopping online and I am the one who suddenly is doing everything wrong, so I was pretty pissed off.  Most times I just skip a break because I am so busy and have a quick shake.  From now on, I am taking my shake out to my car and sitting in it for 15 minutes.

My dilemma is really the party.  I chose not to go.  I realized that these women, not all of them of course, pretend to be my friends to my face…..but they are not and I don’t want to spend time with them outside of work.  I don’t really fit in anyway.  They tend to stick together in groups and I dont have a group.  Im fine with that as I have always been a loner anyway.

Tell me……would you go?  Would you feel betrayed knowing some of them were trying their best to badmouth you no matter how nice you were to them?  They need something fixed, I fix it.  They lose xrays in the system, I find them………all kinds of stuff. Not anymore.

Advice please??

Here is my dilemma.  We have a Christmas party tonight for work.  Yesterday I had a fight with my manager because apparently the other women are accusing me of things.  I take breaks at my desk when I take them and check my email, as I do on  my lunch.  I also order things from the internet for work and do research on products as well as check office email for x rays, invoices…you get the idea. So, yesterday she tells me people are talking about me spending time on the internet and on my cellphone.  I get one call usually at 11am on my cell from one person and sometimes my daughter calls me or I call her cus we both have verizon and its free.  We talk for about 3 seconds.  Last month I had some issues with my move, so my landlord was calling me, I had to change over my electricity and phone, nothing major and I did it all from my desk around my "breaktime".  I do not sit in the lunchroom (a tiny kitchen) and eat as there are usually piles of junk and candy in there, so I choose to be productive on my breaks. 

Meanwhile these other women are checking their mail, screwing around gossiping, shopping online and I am the one who suddenly is doing everything wrong, so I was pretty pissed off.  Most times I just skip a break because I am so busy and have a quick shake.  From now on, I am taking my shake out to my car and sitting in it for 15 minutes.

My dilemma is really the party.  I chose not to go.  I realized that these women, not all of them of course, pretend to be my friends to my face…..but they are not and I don’t want to spend time with them outside of work.  I don’t really fit in anyway.  They tend to stick together in groups and I dont have a group.  Im fine with that as I have always been a loner anyway.

Tell me……would you go?  Would you feel betrayed knowing some of them were trying their best to badmouth you no matter how nice you were to them?  They need something fixed, I fix it.  They lose xrays in the system, I find them………all kinds of stuff. Not anymore.

Advice please??

Here is my dilemma.  We have a Christmas party tonight for work.  Yesterday I had a fight with my manager because apparently the other women are accusing me of things.  I take breaks at my desk when I take them and check my email, as I do on  my lunch.  I also order things from the internet for work and do research on products as well as check office email for x rays, invoices…you get the idea. So, yesterday she tells me people are talking about me spending time on the internet and on my cellphone.  I get one call usually at 11am on my cell from one person and sometimes my daughter calls me or I call her cus we both have verizon and its free.  We talk for about 3 seconds.  Last month I had some issues with my move, so my landlord was calling me, I had to change over my electricity and phone, nothing major and I did it all from my desk around my "breaktime".  I do not sit in the lunchroom (a tiny kitchen) and eat as there are usually piles of junk and candy in there, so I choose to be productive on my breaks. 

Meanwhile these other women are checking their mail, screwing around gossiping, shopping online and I am the one who suddenly is doing everything wrong, so I was pretty pissed off.  Most times I just skip a break because I am so busy and have a quick shake.  From now on, I am taking my shake out to my car and sitting in it for 15 minutes.

My dilemma is really the party.  I chose not to go.  I realized that these women, not all of them of course, pretend to be my friends to my face…..but they are not and I don’t want to spend time with them outside of work.  I don’t really fit in anyway.  They tend to stick together in groups and I dont have a group.  Im fine with that as I have always been a loner anyway.

Tell me……would you go?  Would you feel betrayed knowing some of them were trying their best to badmouth you no matter how nice you were to them?  They need something fixed, I fix it.  They lose xrays in the system, I find them………all kinds of stuff. Not anymore.

Advice please??

Felt like a soliciting nerd……..but I did it and here it is………. 

So today we got tons of goody deliveries……..from other dental practices and one assistant made 2 huge platters.  We have

macaroons, cookies, caramel popcorn, hard candy, pumkin squares, rum balls, nuts, peanut brittle, white chocolate with cherries, flavored english muffins, caramels, root beer hard candies, little balls of chocolates….etc etc etc…….I hate the holidays. We do not do this for any other holiday, do we? Fine, I ate some crap.  I wasnt very happy about it though and now I have heartburn and I fully deserve it.  Im sure we will get more all the way up until new years too!  I am running to the grocery store tomorrow to buy something to keep me occupied in a healthier way, like carrots or celery or something.

We have a christmas party on thursday night but that wont be so bad.  Its catered, hopefully not too many sweets. I really cant take anymore. Im actually feeling like I need to do cardio now. Im serious!!!!!

Oh, back to the talent thing.  Im going to go to everyone who is a semifinalist and ask them if  they ahve a talent………….just curious.  I have a couple things in mind, but damn, I am a chickenshit.  Its hard enough to be on stage as it is.  I come from paralyzing shyness, what if I felt the need to vomit?  Maybe I should do a stand up comedy routine.  I am kind of a goofy dipshit, lets see if I can be funny on stage.  That sounds like something I might be able to handle.  We’ll see

Ok, good news and bad…….he likes my look, BUT there are no Oxygen photographers in my area so the ball is in my court and it is up to me to get some editorial shots from a good photographer.  I have several lined up besides the ones who I have already shot with.  I guess I have to do some gym shots as well……see good and bad, but still do-able.  He gave me his phone number as well to contact him when I am ready. 

I go to the site where my photographer contacts are and the site is down for upgrading, doesnt that suck? 

Im waiting to hear from my latest workout partner/victim after legs yesterday.  I think he was walking funny because he hadnt done any workouts in quite some time…you know how hurt you get when you are rusty?  I didnt go too hard on him and he was quite the trooper.

Im at work, will post after training tonight.  I still havent thought of a talent, except that funky thing I can do with my toes…….wanna see?

Ok, gthe model search requires a talent, but I dont think I will get that far anyway…so I will try not to sweat it.  I see its in the rules/requirements section, but lety me tell you, that section is long and I bet one of the kids was bugging me for freakin cereal or something and I jumped over that spot. With my schedule, if I have time to pee alone, the angels come out to sing "hallelujah".  I just wanted to get a little noticed so I could bug Ironman to be in their over 40 edition in the spring.  I didnt expect to get to semifinals. I don’t have the kind of bod they put in mens magazines anyway. 

Today I am training legs with the guy with the rod and pins in his femur.  I do believe it happened a couple years ago in a motorcycle accident, so his healing is complete.  We wil do the same workout, but his might be lighter than mine.  Its sometimes hard training with men because their strengths even when not having trained are pretty good, but their endurance isnt close to mine.  I can go for 2 hours and be like "woo hoo" and they are DONE. I know some people are probably thinking "what is that chick on?".  All I take are my Gaspari supplements, but even before that, the gym was where I came alive.  Even though I like being with my kids at home, they dont need me so much anymore and are usually in their room or in the family room playing video games or outside.  That means I either sit in front of my laptop of watch TV.  TV sucks.  I watch about 5 shows…….Top Chef, Project Runway , Real Housewives and cold case  or Dr G medical examiner. Yes, I have weird TV taste.  Oh, for some reason I am addicted to Charm school rock of love edition this season….its pretty funny. Between the two with the housewives I think I have an interest in how "other women live".  You have the rich women who are catty and miserable and the crazy, trashy chicks….opposite sides of the coin. As for tOP Chef, I love to watch people cook.  I can cook,  I dont do it often.but damn, doesnt the food look good?  Food porn for us.  Cold Case, a great show.  Ilike the characters and I like that they find people who look like the people they show from the past as well as the music from the time period was commited.  I also like the main character Lily and I think we look alike, weird but true. Sometimes the show makes me cry.   Dr G medical examiner is an autopsy show.  I wanted to be a medical examiner for a long time.  Its interesting to me to see what kills people,  often its high blood pressure leading the way to other issues.  I love a good medical mystery.

Ok, enough blabbing about Tv. The whole point I started was that I have talents, just not stage talents.  I chose figure because I have no skills to do a fitness routine.  I can write, got a good brain.what am I going to do on stage……..write an essay?  Im a computer geek sometimes, maybe I could fix a computer?  Just kidding. Oh wait, I can put in eyedrops while driving.  Is that legal?  I have gotten out of  tickets when pulled over, is that a talent? I can tie a cherry stem with my tongue, make my last 2 toes stick up while holding the other 3 down…..seee……all mad skills………..heheee.