THOUGHTS OF A FITNESS FREAK

Finally. back to being me….grunting, blowing air between my teeth…….crazy old me.  It feels so good and I spent 2 solid hours doing legs and would have gone for more if I truly was nuts.  As it is raining, still have to watch my bad knee, but did get to 375 or so on the leg press and about the same on the linear hack press. I wish I could squat more on the smith, but have to keep it moderate as tht seems to be the worst thing for my knee so I stick to about 85.  Dumbbell deadlifts at 30 each hand, cable kickbacks at 70…did some with the bench and some standing, adductor/abductors , leg extensions: dropsets starting at 125, seated curls 85 I think and I didnt do any laying leg curls and I don’t know why.  I didnt do any glute isolator either, brain fart or something.  i did do my modified leg press, so I am hoping for an ass on fire kind of feeling tomorrow.  I really intend to stick to my 2 heavy legs day.  I tell my gym guy friends this and they always say my legs are "fine" "good the way they are", but they dont seem to understand it’s a stage thing.   I lose a good inch on my legs when I am leaner…freakin plucked chicken syndrome! I think they are up to a little over 20 now and I have no idea what my bodyfat is. I don’t check it…so who gives a crap anyway.

I also did my smith leg press and I really missed them.  With all this moving, being unsettled, i just was losing it a little.  Life was too distracting and I never seemed to have enough hours in the day.  Thats probably a good thing though….a little rest.  i didnt stop going, just didnt have as much energy as usual.  I suppose it happens to everyone.

I have about 3-4 months to decide if I am ready to do bodybuilding next year. Its a comfort level thing.  Not with the basic poses as I do them all the time in the gym, side chest , tris , abdominal thigh, back double, etc.  Its the routine.  I can imagine myself so nervous I freeze up or something…that would be BAD….and most embarrasing.  It has been suggested I do it because I’m still pretty feminine and would set a good example as to what female bodybuilders look like…stop the stereotype.  I love the human  form with muscles, have ever since seeing Greek statues as a child……artistic and strong, you know what I mean? 

Anyway, enjoy your day!

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