THOUGHTS OF A FITNESS FREAK

I was supposed to go to a picnic, but it didnt pan out and its super crappy out anyway….SSOOOOOOOOO, I took some birthday money and did some clothes shopping for myself. Yes, I bought clothes other than gym clothes, bikinis and jeans and tanktops. Clothes shopping tends to suck because like I said before, I cant wear stuff other women wear.  My waist, even at 27 inches isnt much smaller than my hips and my quads are fuller, so often I have jeans that I am jacking up all night cus my ass crack wants to come out and say hello. I also often refuse to wear a bra because they kill my back and lats and ride up alot.  Im always yanking at them and whoever thought to put in an underwire for chicks who don’t need support is an ASSHAT. Yeah, I need a wire digging into my bones….oh soooooooooo comfy. Honestly, pasties are just fine with me. Kind of like a flower shaped bandaid to glue on so no one knows when you are ‘cold’.   I actually picked up about 10 things, tried them on and they all it great.  Must be the birthday gods shining down on me because I also didnt want to kill myself with a clothes hanger after seeing myself in a dressing room mirror!!!!  Whats up with those mirrors?  First of all, you look either yellow or green and you’d swear your legs look like stubby tree trunks……sweeeeet.

I didnt train this morning as you can see.  I had good intentions but was lazy and didnt get out of bed until 11 and the gym closed at 12 due to the holiday. So tomorrow I will have to do some double duty.  Yep, working out on my birthday is my gift to myself.

Also go to www.ironlace.com and submit some pics of yourself if you want to be included on the site.  its for modeling fitness, muscle, whatever you have to offer.  I am the model featured in the headline on the main page!!!  ME a MODEL?  Its so weird.  I was the girl who got picked on ,tortured and called ugly growing up. I was always the last one standing when picking sides in gym class even though I could play sports. I couldnt get a date to save my lifeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!  I guess life has a funny way of evening the score. I’m always suprised when a photographer wants to shoot me.  Life this guy in Florida.  He shoots some of the most gorgeous models and wants to shoot little tomboy me???  I think it’s helping me realize that I do not need to change myself to suits others needs and to stay who I am. Sure, I changed in the past 2 years, but it was into what I wanted to be and not what I thought others wanted me to be. Someone is always going to like or hate the way you look.  Everyones idea of beauty is different of course.

Im babbling, I know….its my inner thoughts.  Anyhooooooooo, hope some of you are picnicing your butts off and downing a few tasty beverages.  I’ll be around channel surfing on my sofa.  Happy 4th!!

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