THOUGHTS OF A FITNESS FREAK

Okay, so I hooked up with a nutritionist (Brandon) who put me on this new diet.  He’s got all the computer programs)Now I am pretty stubborn, so this will be tough.  It’s more carbs than I am used to, so I will add weight.  My NPC is 16 weeks away and he wants this to be my goal show.  I want to do at least one other along the way. I think I want to do 3, but we’ll see.  They key goal is to come in on peak for the NPC and rock the house.  I will probably put on 5 lbs according to him, which will get me to 127lbs, then start cutting back, but eating right up until the show. This makes total sense because last time I came in at 108lbs and I want to compete at 115 solid this time. Its all about the shoulders and the glute/ham tie ins.  Also he is big on hip flexors, so hip flexors here I come.  I will be eating 6 solid meals a day, okay 1 is a shake after my workout, but other than that, its all food.  He does think he can get me to go pro and thats a huge confidence builder as he used to be an NPC judge. I guess putting myself in someone else’s hands will be hard, that’s all.  It’s all a science and he seems to know his stuff and frankly, I have nothing to lose, right? It takes time to trust people.  So, today was a day off, tomorrow I start cardio at lunch and hit the hams, at least 16 sets of curls, then deadlifts and some glute work. Oh, and more cardio to burn up some of the added carbs. It’s confusing right now.  I will get used to it soon enough.  See,  good stuff does happen with hard work.  I have some good people on my side and offers are rolling in. I have hooked up with a few great photographers and am trying to get the funds to travel to do a few shoots or meet when we are in the area.  I’m not braggng about myself, but just know that I just want you to know that anything is possible for anyone if you really want it.

Dream big!!!

Okay, I gets lots of letters from women who are nice enough to tell me my photos show plenty without being trashy….thanks ladies!!!  Today I posted one of me as I look in the gym.  (Yes, I am talking on the phone again in it.  Who am I talking to???????? Hm……perhaps it was the dog warden calling to let me know my dog isn’t licensed?)  I know there is constant pressure to post something slutty so all the drooling teenaged boys will click on you, but I really do try to post my gains.  My hams are coming in good and look better if I stick my butt out, but damn, I tried it and I just look like superwhore, so I didn’t post it.  I suppose I could oil up and put on a teeny bikini, but I don’t own any actually, nor do I own any thongs.  I’m not a huge fan of ass-floss anyway.  In a nutshell, you don’t need to whore yourself out to get people to talk to you. We know if you photoshop your pictures because you get that freaky airbrushed look , so you get no respect there from most of the people who just take a nice honest photo.    I have way more respect for the person who shows progress pics and busts ass in the gym so they can post another the next month showing improvement.  I don’t care if you were always the skinny girl and now you are the skinny girl with double DD’s 350cc of saline now.  Great, ya have a nice body, go to myspace and post the pics along with all the others just like you.  I was never satisfied being a dime a dozen, my goal is to be 1 in a million.  There are so many people here who deserve a pat on the back for posting pictures that horrify them and they are trying to change that. 

Some people say I pick on the plastic people a little.  I say, you want plastic surgery, go ahead and get it.  I’m not your mother.  But just try to do all you can naturally before making any decisions.  I have a co worker who is 10 years younger than me, she looks great in clothes, but at the beach she showed me her loose skin…….she is going to have her skin lifted and trust me, she will not improve it in any gym, it is something that really bothers her.  I’ll be first in line for botox when I need it!!  So, if your boobs are looking like something out of national geographic, go get them lifted by all means.  It’s all about feeling good in your own skin. I just don’t like to see pics that are all boobs and the rest of the body sucks.  Who cares besides men who werent breast fed enough?  What good are boobs if you have no ass?  Okay, my sis has them and her belly is fat and she has a big butt.  Now she wants a tummy tuck and lipo.  I say get off your ass and hit the treadmill.  I’m sure she could post a pic after surgery and everone would be drooling over it and saying how great she looks.  OOOHHH AHHHH……….my plastic surgeon is better than your plastic surgeon.  Yes, I feel the implant pressure sometimes, what woman doesnt?  I used to be a D, now I am an A, but trust me…………no one who matters to me really gives a shit.  It’s just that 99.9% of figure women have them and thats where the pressure is….. in competition.  Okay, I spoke my mind…….off to do legs and get stuff that can’t be bought.

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So, there I am doing my ab workout…..and we have 2 big screen tv’s, so I look up and see some buff women.  Apparantly all you have to do to get in shape is stand on thei thing with handles and slide your legs in and out!!!  SHIT!!!! You mean to tell me I have been busting ass 5 days a week for a year and all I gotta do is move my thighs!!!!????  I didn’t know you get abs and bigger shoulders by doing this.man, do I feel like a dumbass now…..heheheeeee.  It must work as well as the abdominator because you know you can be 30 lbs overweight and just by doing crunches with this little spring, you have have ripped abs in 6 weeks!!!  I am stunned!!!  I’m calling CNN right now!

Yes, I’m a smartass, better than a dumbass I suppose?  I did abs today and hit up anterior serratus and obliques as well. I did do 30 mins of cardio and will stick to it from now on.  All I did was walk uphill at 15 incline on the treadmill for 30 mins. No running for me. I only run when I see a hairy spider and I scream like a little girl.  Then I treated myself to a $5 protein shake called a strawberry blonde at the gym.  Man, it was worth the money.  I think I have to become a stripper to support my new habit, donations will be accepted of course. 

Hope everyone is having a great saturday.  I’m just cleaning the house today, nothing special.  Talk to you later and remember not to listen to infomercials…

Despite the fact that one of my earbuds broke and I had to listen to my music with one ear, my workout was pretty good.  I hit up back and bis and threw in lats because I figured they were getting worked anyway.  My pullovers were kickin as were my seated rows.  I really put my whole body into it tonight!  The wrist still hurts but feels more like the tendons in my hand, but I still did curls, just modified them and used the ez bar.  I also threw in some shrugs, overhead rows, lat pulldowns, db rows, bb rows, hammer curls, curls on cables….yada yada yada and so on……..

I’m also thinking I must be nuts because I decided to take 3 thermonex and drank 1/2 bottle of endorush.  I also had potatos as my carbs at dinner, so I was rip roaring ready to take off…  so different than that damn carb depletion last night.  My skin is fuller, muscles fuller, more energy!!!  Who wants to get put  in my 1/2 guard???  Oh, are fights on tonight? Friday night UFC unleashed?  I have to go see.  Yep, big Friday night as usual. I suppose I could be out partying it up, but I’m kind of on a personal mission to be healthy, so no partying for me.  Some people might fight it boring, but it makes me happy….what can I say???

Tomorrow I think I am going to abs,obliques and lower back. Its time to do calves again as well.  My goal for calves is 3 times a week to get them up to snuff.  I’m also going to commit to doing 2o mins of cardio after my workout….I swear!!!    I’ll be around later, so drop by and say hi.

ps.  I found 3 shows to do this fall!!  I’ll write more about it next time

Okay, so I had some oatmeal this morning, but other than that, no carbs.  I’m trying to explore different reactions to different diets.  When I am low on carbs I get very tired and have NO energy, also my skin is flat and loosens up a bit. I’m home from a late workout.  We had a serious rainstorm, so I went late. Chest and tris.  Like I said, NO energy!!!  I had a 1/2 assed workout and I freely admit it.  I did finally do some pullups and chin ups as my elbow is better, now it’s on to the wrist problem.  It has been so damn humid here that I think thats part of the problem.  It messes with your joints and your vitamin D as well.

  Back to my lame workout…….I was there for over an hour and felt as if I got nothing accomplished. I did some bench presses, tri presses,behind the head cable extensions, tri’s on cables, and threw in some shoulders for good measure.,etc,etc…..  I was PUTTERING dammit, waiting for the massive caffeine in my fat burner to kick in, but it didnt happen.  I tell ya, tomorrow I am carb loading and bringing coffee with me.   Either that or suck down an  entire bottle of Endorush.

What else to talk about?  Hey, did I tell you I think the "foot spa/backrub" joint next to my work is probably a "happy endings"?  They opened a few months ago, they installed a shower last week. Now they have 2 doorbells and men ring it in a certain pattern.  Crap, its the highlight of my day to watch these guys go in there.  You can’t get in unless you ring the bell and if you only ring it once and they them in, they come right back out……weird.  That’s all for now………my exciting life..

Yes, I broke down and joined the 2nd gym.  Its a fluffy anti bodybuilder gym, but so close to work.  I am going to just use it for cardio though…..I swear!!!

So, I go to sign up and I have the fatburner cffeine hand shakiness and so I jokingly tell the woman at the desk about it. She says,"what a fatburner?"  Okay, she works in a gym!!!  Then she asks what it does!!!  I think the words fat burner don’t really need explaination, do you?  So, after I pulled her head out of her butt, I signed up.  They don’t even have a step mill, so I have to do treadmill…….ewwwww. Anyway, I’ll just have to live with that.

How’s everyone doing?  I am trying to write back to everyone, but have been busy the last 2 days…okay, busy means last night I had a nap after work……..ie: busy……..so if I haven’t written back, it’s because I was drooling on the sofa.  Tonight I am going to do chest and tris.  I really need to ad in abs, so we’ll see.

As usual, I’,m late for work.  I’ll catch up later.  Keep smiling because if you don’t you will get wrinkles on your chin. 

One more thing, who has lifting hooks?  I want to get some.

I had a down moment earlier.  I’m a fighter, probably should have laid down and died a long time ago, but didn’t………Everyone has bad days and if they don’t, well they should. 

I had a decent, yet distracted workout.  I couldn’t find the zone and was seeking serious endorphin rushes. I suppose some of my uplifting stems from the fact that someone actually said hello and talked to me for once. It was nice actually.  Here, tons of people will talk to you, but it isn’t the same I guess. No one wants to go through life being the invisible man or woman.  That’s the dude who shoots people in a McDonalds or a post office, right?  I also got into a confrontation with a woman at work today, a co-worker actually.  I stood up for myself and it felt good. Life is changing slowly, my insides are coming out and I am growing as a person. So, like Scarlett O’hara said in gone with the wind (yes, I like the sappy movie) "I won’t think about it today, I will think about it tomorrow, for tomorrow is another day"………….corny, but true.  I will smack a smile on my face and suck up my self pity. 

I got an email  today to let me know my series has been delayed due to the Olympia coverage.  I can’t say it wasn’t a little crushing.  I’m thinking of taking a little time away from here because of it and a few other things as well. You know when suddenly life seems to be just one dissapointment after another? Sometimes I think, ‘what’s the point of looking good if nothing comes from it?" I look better, I feel better, but not much has changed really.  Having abs doesn’t matter when you are just  spending every weekday going to work and every weekend sitting home at night.   I was supposed to go to three different shows  in the last couple of months, including last weekend in NY,but they fell through. Yes, I’m feeling sorry for myself at the moment. You want a plastic person, go read another blog………I’m only human.  I’m going to the gym to do some soul searching……..

Hang on a sec , gotta make a shake……………kidding.

I started what I hear is termed "tough dieting".  I have done this before, so it’s nothing new.  Actually, its pretty similar to what I am already eating, but now I wil not cheat with spaghetti and meatballs or potatoes. (Damn, I’m part irish, we love our ‘taties’) This also means cardio as you know.  Today I skipped because I had to pay my mortgage at the bank, so that didn’t happen.  Tonight is my regular night off. Tomorrow night I hit hams and calves.

The thing about this diet is that suddenly you know when your 3 hours to eat is up.  The same way my dog knows when it’s 6:30 and dinnertime and he doesn’t know what the hell a clock is.  Tough dieting is also when you can’t go out to dinner because no one boils the chicken in a restaurant. I’m growling about the belly already and it has only been 2 hours. This may be a sign that I have to go grab a few bites of chicken early or a few egg whites. Timing is tough the first few weeks until your stomach shrinks a little and you adjust.  Some people may think you are starving yourself, but it also depends on your metabolism and your digestive rate.  I have been eating all day actually, since 7 am. I just ate a chicken breast mixed with salad greens and about a cup of whole wheat pasta.  I will cycle the carb amounts, but prefer to keep them low. carbs make me blow up.  If you haven’t been in the competition game very long, you will learn about carb bloat soon enough.  Yep, took me one show to figure that one out.  Do not eat rice between the pre judging and the night show!!  You will be the one whose belly walks out before the rest of you.Oh and to anyone taking fatburners for the first time…sweaty pits and feet come with the territory as you adjust to them….wear a tank top at the gym.hehehe 

Im gearing up, psyched, went shopping, bought all my goodies including….

Brown rice, chicken breasts,broccoli,cottage chesse, tuna ,almonds, oatmeal , 3 dozen eggs, other frozen veggies and romaine lettuce.  These will be my staples for the next 3 months. I also have my protein shakes and MRP.  This diet is not unlike my other regular diet.  It basically consists of many of the same foods, but now I will be more precise about what I eat and when I eat it and my portions.  Everything must be timed and monitored.  Plus I am adding cardio to the mix and will speed up my reps in my workouts.  I know I was going hard and heavy, but that didnt last too much as it is summer and I was having a hard time eating so much. I will still try to build a little as my weight will not be light at this time, but moderate.  I will go light my last month. 

My current bodyfat from this week is 10.4%.  I am hoping for perhaps 7, but we will see.  If I like myself at 8, it will be 8.  It isnt always the number, its too look and how you carry it.

Im still undecided about the shows.  There are two in NY in October, plus another NPC in November.  I’d like to say I could manage all 3, but two will be fine. I could probably do it, but I don’t want to kill myself and come out looking like crap in one of them.

Today was legs.  I am weaning off the smith for squats.  I think I did fine with just the barbell because you take on a different stance and you need to stablize your whole body. It felt really good actually.  I did the usual and customary  leg extensions and hit up the butt pretty good with the cables and glute isolater.  Hack and v hack included also.  Im seperating hams into a different day, just something new I was advised to try, so I figured, why not?

Oh yeah, did my 2nd hit of Thermonex.  I noticed an increase of bodytemp.  I was thinking, "is it hot in here, or is it just me?"  I wasn’t even lifting at that point…..maybe it was pre menopause……..heheheeeeeeeeeee…..that isnt funny……