Straight from the Oval Office

sometimes it really sucks being a man of your word.  this is exactly one of those times.  10 weeks ago i made a commitment to really push myself in order to see how much progress i could make.  at the end of the 10 weeks, i was going to take and upload my new progress pics, measurements, and write about my results/feelings. damn damn damn. the last day is tomorrow…my how time flies!!! well, it’s been a hectic 10 weeks that has seen the death of my father, the birth of my son, and me seemingly wandering in between here and there! i’m not being negative, just honest…..i don’t know what the story is going to be tomorrow as far as the measurements and the pictures are concerned, but they will be there.  i guess, if nothing more, they will serve as a reminder that my word is all i really have. . .if i commit to something, i better do it or live with the consequences!! see ya tomorrow!!

it seems like the more you want something, the harder you work towards a goal…..the more obstacles are placed in your path. not that i can really call having a beautiful baby boy or business picking up obstacles, but you know. trying to find the time now to work out is ridiculous.  but it’s a challenge that i’m willing to accept. evenmore, soon my wife will be going back onto her rotations which means that Trey will be coming to work with "daddy." right now, my workouts are taking place AT THE OFFICE.  everytime i’m not on the phone or with clients, i’m either getting a set of push-ups, crunches, or sets of weights in. it’s funny to see how other people think and react.  they really do think that i do it for show. . . .i didn’t know anything was really amusing about seeing someone jumprope in the office parking lot on his lunch break….but the hell with them…let em laugh and poke fun. because when i come into the office on fridays in the jeans and t-shirts. . .. i see their REAL reactions………………Damn, dude just look like he did a bid in county for some months.  that’s good enough for me!!!

thought this was supposed to get easier as time passed.  cried for the first time tonight since my pops passed. haven’t even been able to hold my son today b/c i get so sad about my dad not being here any more.  i knew it would hurt, but didn’t know it would feel like i’m dying on the inside.

thought this was supposed to get easier as time passed.  cried for the first time tonight since my pops passed. haven’t even been able to hold my son today b/c i get so sad about my dad not being here any more.  i knew it would hurt, but didn’t know it would feel like i’m dying on the inside.

thought this was supposed to get easier as time passed.  cried for the first time tonight since my pops passed. haven’t even been able to hold my son today b/c i get so sad about my dad not being here any more.  i knew it would hurt, but didn’t know it would feel like i’m dying on the inside.

as some of you may know, my father passed last sunday night.  i want to thank all of you for your prayers and sympathy. continue to pray for our strength during the days ahead. a million thanks go out to everyone for your words and acts of kindness.

so pops, you  left this place earlier tonight. everyone knows the type of relationship that we had and the bond that we shared, so they were worried about what my reaction would be to the entire situation. i don’t know how i’m supposed to feel, but i sure am glad that you’re not still here suffering and having to deal with this hell on earth. I haven’t cried yet, that’s kinda odd. i think i want to and i need to, but i can’t yet. i don’t want to seem selfish and say that i wish you were here. i’m just thankful that we were able to spend the time together that we did. my ONLY regret is not being able to let you meet your grandson, NAO, III. Don’t worry though, he’s going to know that you were and still are my hero. I’m sure that things are going to start hitting me pretty hard on the 10 hr drive home tomorrow, but don’t worry, you kow i’ll be alright. without a doubt, you are the reason that i am the man that i am, and you are the man that i aspire to be. when you see my tears, they won’t be tears of sadness, but of pride and happiness. you know exactly how i feel about you. i know exactly how you feel about me.  i speak in the present tense b/c i know that you are with me more now than ever. you have always been my strength and i will look for you to continue to be.  i have always been your voice and that won’t change either!! so here’s a lil advice to you Pop. . . ."If you can’t be good, at least be careful!!!!"