MrKleen73’s Testosterone Zone

Hey guys for those of you who were interested how my contest went I put up a youtube video so IO didnt have to keep telling it over and over. It was an amazing experience and I learned so much about competing and myself through the prep and sacrifice.

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Well, This WEEKEND SUCKED! We got gullywashed and my gutters drain into a drain that feeds into the bayou behind my house. Well the bayou filled up past where the drain enters it so my gutters couldn’t drain and backfilled until it got up under my flashing and ran down inside my wall and under about 600 feet of new flooring, Now the fllor is ruined and I have to patch my roof, all in the process of competition prep!

On a good note:
I found that I lost 3 lbs just soaking in the tub. That was the difference in weight after a 30 minute soak, I went from 179 to 176, I woke up in the morning weiging in at 173.5 after some carbing and water back in I ended the day at 179. I took some pics at some point to look at myself but I had just rubbed on transdermal Yohimbe and RK, so I had a tiny bit of sheen, I don’t have them here at work with me. I am done testing things out now and am just zeroing in my focus this next two weeks so I am ready for peak week.

Sundays Stats a little skewed from bath tub dehydration, but calipers showed decrease in fat this week again.
Chest 3mm, Abdomen 5mm, thigh 5, age 36 bodyfat 4.26%
Weight, was dehydrated from tub so only weight 173.5 normal morning weight has been around 178 for the past week so I would really go with 178-177 to figure out LBM and weigh myself again tomorrow morning at the gym.

Hey everyone, I need a little help taking a poll if you will. Please look at the pics and tell me your thought on which way I should perform these two poses and offer any contructive criticism you feel may help me if not doing correctly.

In this FDB shot it is pretty much the same I am doing a vacuum but the lighting does not really display it well. I do have a deep vacuum so ability to pull it off isn’t a problem but which is the best way to do it? Let me know what you guys think. Become a part of my victory!!!!!!

Well I have fallen prey to a throat infection 31 days out from my first show. I am going to rest and recover even though it is hard too. Maybe I will try a few run thoughs of choreography on my posing without exerting myself. Just to keep it all fresh in the noggin.

 So does anyone have any tips on trying to keep the abs from totally smoothing out while elevating the ribcage to make the chest cavity look bigger? Also any posing tips to hide a little bit of lose skin? I have some under my chest, at bottom of my abs, and just under the back side of my obliques. I have been doing a lot of posing in the mirror trying to figure it all out but any one who has any insight please share.

Life has been very interesting and hectic, I am working on getting ready for my first show and am really enjoying the experience so far. I look better than I have before and I feel great barring the nagging tendonitis that I will be taking some down time after the show to allow to heal.

I have had a lot ofpeople ask what I am doing for my contest prep. I am currently taking the ASteriod Stack from USP Labs with thier diet pill ReCreate added to the mix. I tried the ReCreate back in my Unwrap your Abs for Christmas lean up. Well it worked realy well and I was on here when the PRIME went onsale and picked some up. Aterwhich I decided to get the entire stack just to see what it could do. I have to say I am pleasantly surprised to have lost an addition 8 lbs with almost a 1 pound increase in lean body mass. I know there are a lot of USP Labs naysayers out there but I can only speak for myself when I say that they are living up to and so far exceeding my expectations.

A little about my workout and things that have changed, I am still doing full body workouts. My goal is to get in it and win it on full body workouts. Just to prove to everyone the traditional split is not the only way to go with successful outcome. It is still all about exercise choice, angles worked and range of motion used. I was able to start eating carbs during my cut because of the Anabolic Pump, whcih was nice. Kept me out of keto without ever increasing fat stores. Recovery time from PRIME has been great I don’t really get sore since about 2 weeks in on the stack. NICE!!!

Here are a couple vids of where I am at now 5 weeks out. I still have a little loose skin to deal with and am trying to learn to pose around that issue. Also does anyone know how to keep the abs looking tight like bricks once you eleate our rib cage? Mine flatten out and become smooth even though I have a nice thick set of abs.

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AHHHHH!!!!! Are you kidding me, I have been sick for 2 days, missed 2 workouts and perhaps lost some hard earned muscle so I am taking my 15 seconds to whine and get over it. OK, I am done now.

I can’t wait to hit the gym this afternoon, it is going to be one of those workouts where you just tear it up and leave everything you have spent on the training room floor.  I have missed a cardio and a weight workout and wont be able to lift tomorrow as I am going out of ton so I will be trying to find something to do tomorrow or making up for it Sunday. I will have time to do a little cardio after my weights this afternoon so I am thinking I will "FEEL" and by feel I mean in my head feel better. On another note I am heavily considering adding IGF-2 to my supplement arsenal, it seems tailored to my diet for what I am trying to do and I seem to hear a lot of good things about it from those whom have taken it.

In all of the hubbub regarding the current economy and jobs, it is nice to have something positive to revel in this weekend. The birth of my neice is coming soon and we are celebrating her impending arrival this weekend. I can not say how happy this makes me to be a part in another chapter in this world Uncle to a new and wonderful baby girl. I just can’t wait! 

Well I got up this morning at 4:15AM and dragged my half lifeless arse to the elliptical. Oh what fun? Well that is how we get our abs on isn’t it? I had barely started to wake up and get a good sweat going when it was shower time. Clocked in 300 calories burned during the session not too bad for a short cardio session.I have been blessed so far to get all of mymeals in but my second meal arrived in my tummy about 30 minutes past due.

I set tasks with reminders for my meals now. I get a reminder about 10 minute before I am supposed to eat and I hope this will help keep me where I need to be calorically. I have been finding myself adding extra nuts to my diet due to missing a meal hear and there just to keep calories closer to the correct range. I also had a few to many carbs over my 5 day weekend but I am okay with that because I was vacationing.

To to hold myself accountable I will admit to having 3 carb containing meals that I should not have eaten. I also saw the damage it did in just two days. Water packed under my skin from retention caused by the carbs. WooHoo. So I have to drop that back off however I do not think I gained any fat so it is okay. I think my condition this weekend will show that any gain was water weight and possibly new muscle from glycogen stores.

 I will be more dilligent on my diet, and my workouts have been great. I revamped my latest workout program and am going to follow it on my way to the FAME competition. I decided I need to run myself through another contest prep before I start personal training again. I am still following the Scivation C.H.A. Diet, and really like it, and will more than likely use some of their contest prep strategies for the week leading up to the show.

PLEASE READ THIS EVEN THOUGH IT IS LONG:
We had a guy jump off of our parking building this week to commit suicide. It really bothered me I saw the body on the sidewalk under the sheet as I spoke to the police to let them know I knew of a witness and wanted to make sure they had come forward. Come to find out the guy was a Vice President of a Money Management Company with a family with kids. I truly feel so bad for the family. Since this is My Testosterone Zone, I am about to display some Testosterone. Forgive the yelling in this but I am displaying righteous indignation with the entire situation. May be more personal than you care to know, but my testosterone zone is about real men and real men have and are capable of expressing themselves and their feelings. Anyone can pound on their chest and roar I AM MAN! But let’s be real that resembles more of a Silverback Gorilla than a man.
MAN THE F*CK UP!!!! "Oh no, I may have to live in an apartment instead of my mansion, I may have to be closer to my children than in a separate wing." You selfish idiot! Your children don’t have a father your wife is alone trying to raise kids that will forever be traumatized for your selfish chicken sh*t act. Your insurance isn’t going to help them because of the suicide clause MR. SELFISH!
Now before everyone gets up in arms about me saying this, let me state that I can empathize with the man on a level many of you could not imagine. I tried to take my own life before. I felt I had lost everything including my son, his mother cheated on me and when we split she took my baby, I was personal training at the time and was the primary care taker because of the free schedule. So that alone almost made me collapse. On top of it I was a self absorbed gym rat who only cared about lifting and looking good. Not a manly thing honestly, but a weakness, an obsession that keeps you from looking at the rest of the troubles in your life because improvements in physique are easy and don’t require courage only hard work. Looking at your life as a whole and creating balance physically and emotionally is the measure of a true man not how much he can bench, or how big his arms are or if he can whip your ass. C’Mon, really how many of you would aspire to be the likes of a Mike Tyson? All physicality but a desperate failure as a REAL Man! Was he an alpha male or simply made for infantry, made to follow. I say without a leader he was nothing more than a crazed berserker who had talent to throw hands.
Anyway back to my story:
My personal training wasn’t going as well as before because of the gyms cutting out all of the independent trainers in order to hire subpar high school kids who went to a week long course at the gym HA! Personal Trainer my ass! Sorry… I digress. My brother was shot and killed at my birthday party the year before and my birthday was coming up in three weeks as a matter of fact it could have been the very same day this man chose to do it only 15 years ago. The woman I was in love with at the time. (I ended up marrying and divorcing 7 years later) started a huge fight with me and made a bad comment about my brother, which just threw us into this insane fight. I was so drunk I just totally lost it. After breaking half of everything I owned in a rage, I broke down and sobbed uncontrollably. I went into the bathroom, locked the bathroom door and I slit my wrist up and down (the right way) not side to side. Then to make sure I died I threw myself into the hot shower so the blood would not clot. My best friend heard me collapse and broke the door down and saved my life. THANK GOD!!!!!!    I couldn’t even remember the details of it until I saw this man on the sidewalk. Afterwards thinking to myself how could someone do that to their family… I stopped myself short and my heart sank as the picture from 15 years ago entered my mind. I got the joy of seeing the entire scenario that I hadn’t been able to remember through my drunken stupor play out in my head in high definition. The skin peeling apart, as I cut 5 inch gash straight up the middle of my wrist. Tendons and ligament exposed. Now I understand this is morose and would understand if you stopped reading, but I have a major point here. I can also honestly tell you that I would have never done this if I was not completely plowed, I was basically blacked out so this realization after seeing the man was the first truly aware moment of the situation that I think I have had. It has reopened the wound in my heart and forces me to deal with this now as a man. Now that I have matured enough emotionally to truly deal with it, and understand in hindsight everything I almost lost and everything I selfishly tried to take away from y family friends and loved ones. I know God was repressing these memories until I was ready. Apparently now is the time , and this is the forum in which I choose to share it with you.
 I have learned so much since then. I learned to become a better man. My scar was raised a good 1/4 inch of of my arm with scar tissue and was still purple after 7 years. I have to explain my scar on a relatively regular basis and it is humbling, and painful each time. So much so that 8 years ago I took it upon myself and some 120 grit sand paper to sand the scar down and sand the skin around it to blend it in with my skin so people would not ask so much. I had to sand it down and let it heal a good 10 times to get it to not be too noticeable. Hey I couldn’t afford plastic surgery and if I can work out in a home gym, I can abrase the scar off my arm at home too. Yes that was painful but not as painful as explaining to people how selfish and chickensh*t I had been. Yes you read that right I sanded my own scar off with sand paper! 
 

How much humility and pain do you think I carried around for years from this to get myself to a point that I would do something like that. Well multiply that by infinity and that is the result a successful suicide has on the surviving family. I can still feel the sting as my Mom sobbed hearing me tell her what I had done. The shame of making my Dad break down sobbing in the kitchen when he saw how I had mutilated my arm trying to take myself away from this world and it’s TEMPORARY PROBLEMS!!! I have attached a picture of my arm as it is now 15 years later. It serves as a reminder, my strength now comes from what I forced myself to do in order to never be so cowardice and selfish ever again. Shame motivates me to never return that that mind frame, and love for myself and others gives me willingness to suffer temporarily to save others pain.
I look at my gorgeous 4 year old daughter, my 2 boys, my wonderful wife, and I realize I almost took all of that away from myself, and myself away from them. The world would never have my precious little Trinity, she would not even exist. I have been crying here and there since seeing that man. Thinking of his children, his wife, his parents and his friends. Every person like me who had to see his body and was traumatized. Everyone who went home late to thier worried family because we couldn’t leave the parking building. How they had to explain what they had seen, or worse just internalize it. Mostly for his children. I have a friend who’s step children are going through this trauma, and it is going on 3-4 years out now and no one is even close to being okay yet. All of them now have major issues. SUICIDE IS NOT AN OPTION TO TAKE!!!!!!! It is a chickensh*t get me outta this I don’t care about anyone but me right now act. One that I am ashamed of myself for ever doing regardless of my state of mind at the time. I am not making myself out to be better than him, at least not then. I WAS A SELFISH CHICKENSH*T! Now I am a better person than that. Now I am not so selfish and self absorbed. I look back then and really not much of who I was then resembled a man other than my physical presence! Look your kids would rather live in a cardboard box under the bridge than live without a father or mother, or sister or brother.
Just look at what I would have lost, or my little girl that would never be if I had succeeded. Internalize it, remember what it means. I can’t say it enough.

 
DO YOU FEEL ME? DO YOU GET WHAT I AM SAYING?????
We are in a recession I go to work every day knowing it may be my last day there. I have a great job with benefits right now but nothing is permanent except the final death, and the effect that taking your own life has on everyone who loves or cares about you. Or even in this case passersby who don’t even know you. YES IT SCREWS US UP MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY TOO!!! Make yourself ready for the worst and remember 1/4 of our country will probably be in the same boat before it gets better. You know what if I get let go, I can still go home or t my card board box and hug my daughter, make love to my wife. Wrestle with my sons. I don’t need a home or job for that. If I get so hungry I can’t feed myself and family well you better keep your fat little dog on a leash cuz my family will truly eat your little hot dog before I go gently into the darkness!!! The we will joke about how our refrigerator box is the biggest in the alley because we still have each other. Nothing is that bad damn it!

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So I have to say to you whether female, male, or hell even transgender… MAN THE F*CK UP!!!!!!! Realize that when you give up and take your life it is not just your life you are taking but a piece of everyone around you who knows you. Your choice and action tells your loved ones “Hey SREW YOU! YOU ARE NOT WORTH THE FIGHT! YOU ARE NOT WORTH MY TEMPORARY PAIN. YOU ARE NOT IMPORTANT ENOUGH TO ME FOR ME TO WANT TO LIVE! I DON’T LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO STICK AROUND FOR YOU. I DON’T WANT TO HELP YOU THROUGH THE EXACT SAME HARD TIME I AM PERMANENTLY ESCAPING. YOU MEAN NOTHING TO ME. WAS NICE KNOWING YOU PEACE OUT IT IS CHICKEN SH*T TIME!”
With that being said I pray peace into everyone’s life. I don’t care what God you believe in or if you believe at all. Whether you just believe in karma, or that we came from apes that came from slugs that came from a single cell organism. It changes none of the truth in this post. The pain you leave your loved ones when you take the chicken sh*t way out far surpasses anything you are going through. I wish all of you the best, and more importantly I wish all of you true strength in the face of adversity.
Thank you for taking the time to read, and I hope you got something out of it Please share my story with anyone you think it may give strength or insight too. If any one person might change their mind or remember my words and make a difference than it is all worth it.

Man, I was just sitting here in my pity party because I can’t train my MMA or grappling due to my ankle injury and it occured to me… IF ONLY I HAD CANKLES! I would be impervious to ankle sprains with that much support and muscularature around my ankles. I could run full speed down a loose rocky trail with no concern for my ankles safety. I mean it is like I would be a SUPER HERO!!! CANKLE MAN!!! Here to save the day,. Don’t worry Ma’am I will cross that unstable terrain for you because I am Duh Duh DUHHHH!!!! CANKLE MAN!!!

 Okay you have all lost at least 7 points of your IQ from just reading my stupidity. But I had fun writing it down. :-P

Had a great workout this morning absolutely wonderful. Nothing like tearing it up in the morning the gym is close to empty and the only people lifting are hardcore. WOW a commercial gym where we were all grunting, yelling and sweating! HELL YEAH MY PEEPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Hey everyone good morning on this wonderful New Years Eve day. I am totally excited because tonight all diet rules are out the window. I am going to party down in FUNKY TOWN!!! LOL I hope everyone has an AMAZING New Year, and not just the celebration but the entire year. Stay safe, take cabs, car pool, protect the body you worked so hard to build. Okay enough about that.

 I put up a new progress video from the Unwrap your abs for Christmas challenge. it is on my profile in the video section. If you want cheack out the difference from the first on to the last. I was actually impressed considering the hurdles I ran into during the time. Anyway I would appreciate any feedback.

On another note my ankle is feeling much better, I have to keep it in a lace up brace for support so I dont aggravate it but I am no longer limping and it only huirts when I tweak it. Yet I do not see it being any issue with me getting ready for the FAME Lonestar show in May so that is my goal and I am plowing toward it steady and true. Speaking of I started on my SciVation products and am very impressed with them. I am taking Xtend and Vasocharge. Crazy energy and pumps, skin even tingles from increased circulation from the vasocharge. Xtend seems to have increased my muscle density as well.

Have an AMAZING NEW YEAR!!!!!

Chris