Do you believe in fortune telling?
The western world has tarot card (or was it tarrot cards?). Anyway, I hope you get the words I was referring to.
I choose not to believe in fortune telling. In Asia, we have too many fortune telling, which can be cheating/swindling money purpose. But we do have very genuine and accurate fortune tellers. Still, it is not necessary and I don’t do fortune telling.
Just so happened one time very long ago. A friend’s father who have such ability; told me that I tend to attract the wrong people of my opposite sex. Somehow, it will happen to me at quite a big part of my life.
I have shrugged it as one off fortune telling experience. I continue to live my life the way it is. Not changing much. But to my surprise, this "attract the wrong people" comment is so true. It scared me sometimes.
If I count the experiences myself, I would be disappointed. It’s not one off. But numerous times and it gets tired sometimes. It’s either I attracted the wrong people and I am uncomfortable with…. or I am comfortable with the person but she is not keen. The situation persist for years. I keep quiet to myself.
It’s funny sometimes I think. While I bust my balls and dick in the gym, my matters of the heart seems to suck big time. And each time, I burnt myself and attracted the wrong people; I ended up working harder in the gym. Pushing myself harder.
This trend continues for many years without me looking back and count each experience & episode.
Today, I am tired. I again push myself harder and harder in the gym. I feel pusing myself working out hard in the gym during emotional turmoils. When the turmoils come hunting me, I push myself in the gym even more so.
I don’t believe in fortune telling but experiences have reflected itself. I hope the fortune teller is wrong because it gets me mentally tired not physcially tired.
Today, I am tired……
