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I normally do my cargio exercises based on eclipse machine or simply box jump onto a high platform.

I was able to box jump at the platform height, 8inches above my kness.  Yesterday, I hit a new record. I managed to box jump at 11inches above knee height.

Obviously, I am delighted…….I can now jump higher. Yup! I couldn’t be happier.

damn…! no training for so many days.

High alcohol, much seafood, more drunken karaoke session.

Tired but great learning experience so far.

Meeting new people, despite language barrier, is something I treasure so much.

One should treasure the moments you get to enjoy. Be it joy or sad. Moments come, moments go. Treasure it when you get to.

I am not being sensitive or anything like that. This topic relates to love.

IMO. I realized love, be it internet or real life, it is getting tougher for many. Though being in a foreign land, I met my overseas colleagues (opposite sex). In Asia, it’s rather rare to have a female to socialize, drink, karaoke with male colleagues especially to late night.

I realize that she is actually in a very turmoil stage of love. I wish I could lend my ears. Asia is so diverse in culture and lingo, I am not in position to listen.  It’s sad to see another person sad.

I have bodybuilding & weights to get me focus……pain and GFH….other people may not have the same chance or hobby. 

I am blessed to have chosen bodybuilding to help me in stress relief. For many, this is not a choice and I wish I could educate them to follow we fellow bodybuilders’ path.

315lbs deadlift (negative emphasis)…..8 reps.

DB incline press…..8 ~ 10reps x 85lbs. I think I can attempt 90lbs.

I mean you like the person, you want to embrace that person. Definitely not avoid the person just because your actions ain’t normal.

Sometimes, butterfly feelings drive you off a little. I am not if anyone agree with me and I am not asking if you agree with me. But that’s my opinion.

I feel I am Hitch (the movie). I used to listen to love problems and patch things up for people. Get 2 people involved and settled down. 

When it comes to myself, I felt uncontrollable. my actions/words do not match what I like say/communicate to her sometimes. Its weird I can’t act/say things in proper manner. That sucks.

At one time, I could see my words/actions got her frustrated. I apologized and explained to her about the Hitch situation. til today, I am not sure if she actually understand how I feel or if she feel a tiny the same towards me at all.

I have been on the road 2.5 weeks now. I did drop by my country for a short while before flying off again, the very next day. somehow, she would appear at where I was (after I text her my whereabout).  I really appreciate that. very much so.

As much as I want to see her more often & longer time, I felt I was either being too demanding or rushing her….it probably suffocate her a little bit.

so I didn’t ask her out but she appeared before me (after I text her my whereabout). still very much appreciated her appearence before me.

Few weeks ago, she actually confessed to me she feels excited & nervous (towards me) at the same time …kinda like having an exam. LMAO! she confessed missing me…

I leave it at that, didn’t bother to find out more what’s going on. I am afraid to ask the confession now (since that confession is 2 weeks back). Has it changed or remained the same? I can’t even think to ask about it at all…

I really don’t want to think so much of her (but it’s so easy to say than getting it done), what she says, what she does….I feel if I ask her well being, that’s good enough. rather than asking her every details, it make me like intruder and she probably "report" to me like I’m the boss. That won’t make a good feeling on my part. It really make me feel worse off.
Life really plays me out. shit……

you want someone yet staying away from the person. how’s that going to sound like? weird, huh?

I wish she is around with me in a mid night like this. How I wish it is so…

We will be just 2 people walking around having a good time here in Taiwan. Sharing a bowl of dessert filled with red beans or whatever. 

It’s crazy that I thought of a certain person while eating a special dessert with red beans. I asked myself if she would be glad to share it with me.

I miss her…

How do you know if the person misses you or not? Do you look at her through the pair of eyes? or listen to how she responds to you?

How do you tell the person you miss her? Do you just walk up to her to say it is so?

If you say it many times, will you sound like a rewinding record VHS tape which you kept listening to? Or does it me sound like a father to the person?

Does the person find it boring & less refreshing to keep hearing the line "hey, I miss you"?

If you don’t say it, how does the person knows you have a special feeling for her?

Does she mind me being vocal a lot?

I have no idea sometimes how people could keep feelings to themselves so well.

To me, I would prefer to express myself better. I just hope she doesn’t mind my frank comments sometimes although I feel I intimidated her too damn much.

Perhaps, I should try to compose & reserve myself better. Shit…I don’t know what to think/act.

Can someone help a poor Uncle Agony?

P/s yes, that’s right. I used to be Uncle Agony lending ears to people’s problems. Now, I need help.

Deadlift 315lbs x 8 (negative style). Yes, if you follow my blog, you notice I have had something going on my head. I was eager to get it out of my system.

Nothing beat an intense workout without thinking too much. Weights helped you focus and concentrate. When you’re thinking of problems at home or someone involved, it helps to use weights/toss some weights.

I managed to up my deadlifts as well as DB incline presses by 3 reps. It’s amazing some frustration helped propell you sometimes.

It’s like everything just clicked today and I have not deadlifted since Nov injury. So this is a day I felt good about the workout.

Working out in this new gym is pretty good experience. On a morning weekend, there is no big crowd. It suits my liking. Sometimes, you just want a peace of mind without the need to see so many people around.

Anyway, bodyweights going down; strength is improving. Feels good.

I am using thyrotabs, ultra peptide/syntrax. yup, that’s about it. The rest is plain eating clean. I do not have the luxury to trial Bold 200, may be someday if everything falls into place.

I have not gone crazy and turn my life upside down ever since I discover how I feel towards the special person.

In general, my life is not affected. I am dedicated to my work, enjoy meeting my customers, travelling around and all. My dedication towards gym training is 100% and it is only affected by work schedule. Gym training is not affected by my feelings for her. Remember I act like a beast in the gym. LMAO!!!

The thing I actually missing her. After work during business trip or on the road travelling, the rush of thoughts about her is quite intense. I doubt anyone (including her) has any idea how intense that is.  I am not confident and not certainly comfortable to say the thoughts at all.

This feeling is not familiar to me. It has been so so long time anyone make an impact on me. I didn’t want to admit/say it. But the truth is such.

I don’t want to admit it out loud. Simply saying missing her isn’t helping me at all. She’s busy with whatever she is doing. Funny how it seems we see each other at the same building daily basis yet we don’t spend time enough in our private life.

I am not blaming her at all. Well, I have a fair share of business travel/work to do. That pretty much kill my chances to see her. While being in town, she has her schedule all mapped out including weekends. Damn, I don’t know if it’s ever so good to keep asking her out over the weekend.  Well, I did try to ask her out but it didn’t work out. LMAO!

Life plays us both upside down, brown sugar. Sigh, I just have to take it in stride.

While pushing the envelope (to ask her out) making me - sound like a bastard ever so demanding and allowing her more space/time does make me a little frustrated.  I spoke to her about that and I completely understand that now.  I just have to be patient or pretend to be cool, I supposed. LMAO!

I know how many of you forumers would have reacted your own way. Given the age I was in, I might have reacted like you did. I have become older now and no longer the impatient bastard as I used to be.  Well, I still act bastard depending on circumstances, HAHAHA!!!

I promised her time & space. She is going to get it. Well, I believe my work will eat my life out soon. Lately, I have difficulty to sleep. I was eager to work and as if I am a midnight lamp burning on oil, I kept burning and working/learning during the week. 

It’s upto her to act/decide/consider whether it is ok for us to socialize again. It takes 2 to tango. Sometimes, we need to learn how to tango before we can held each other 2 tango. Learning how to tango takes each person’s will. It’s not easy. You may fall down middle of that tango. You get up and tango again. Nothing is easy in life.

This chapter of life does not end easily……I don’t want it to.

P/S I feel great writing some of my personal thoughts. When words, communications don’t work well; you have to find a channel to express yourself. I found mine.

Business travel do hamper individual training, diet, lifestyle a lot.

It changes the person’s perception of the world, cultural exchange, people meeting sessions, food, drink, entertainment, etc.

I enjoy business travel so much so I chose to work for companies, which goes for regional role.

However, business travel definitely hamper anyone bodybuilders training regime, or any person whom strives to have a good physique.

This business trip of this sort will limit my time training. I’m going to miss the weights, the irons, the pump, the sweat, etc.

The job requires me to social drink…well, sometimes it could be pretty heavy booze. so I like to lift weights the next day to get rid whatever the toxins/poison in my body.

After these 2 weeks, I foresee another series of travelling.  It gets pretty alcoholic on the road sometimes.

well, the weight lifting portion is going to be sacrificed. I know that sucks. But unless I have a better money making regime, I won’t be to forego the current worklife.

Still, I have to yell………that sucks!!!!!! LOL!!!