Misssecretary’s BodyBlog

So I started boxing the other day and im pretty much in love with it! I hurt soo bad i can hardly move but it is the best thing to ever happen to me. I love it.. Working out has never been this fun.

look out world here i come

So I’v been a little MIA for a while and I haven’t been doing anything productive except for working like a mad man. I’m pretty much at my breaking point really. But only a few weeks left then back to school and back to a routine and working out normally! I can not wait, I’v decided to start boxing like real boxing. I need an outlet for aggression and I figured its also a frigen sweet work out. I’v kinda changed up my goals to a bit. I know I will never be a size 2 model so why not try work with what I’ve got and go from there. I don’t want to look like a guy with muscles every where but I want to look like I work out and eat good I want to look healthy. I guess I kind of want to be a role model of sorts to people. There are soo many inspiring women on this sight that I look up to and they have over come such bigger things then I ever have or will so I want to strive to be the best that I can.

My biggest goal that I need to start is the meal plan I purchased from stevep-78. I’m really kind of scared thought to start this meal plan very exicted but also really scared.

As I sit here I currently feel like a 4 ton beached whale. I really hate being a girl and PMSing. I can not stop eating I just want to eat sugar. All you ladies out there so know how I’m feeling. Being a guy would be so much easier. I just feel yucky and bloated and nasty. I woke up in a really good mood but by the end of the day I was ready to strangle the next person to say anything to me.
I just went for a bike ride and I thought maybe that would help but it didn’t. I just feel nasty and blah. All you lucky men out there just be thankful you don’t have to go through this lovely month gift.

If any of you ladies have any solutions to make me feel sexy agian and not like a 4ton whale I’d love to know and how not to go and eat all the pop tarts in my house lol.

I’m lacking a gym and right now its pretty much killing me. I can not work out at home! I need to be in the gym with the weights and the motivation and i really wanna get a trainer but I don’t think that will happen but a girl can dream. But I really need a gym I feel like I’m making no progress at all because all I’m doing is mad cardio. My cardio is awesome now and I guess that’s a good thing but I really want to start lifting and lifting heavy.

I need to learn how to do this but I want to do it. I don’t know how I’m going to learn how to lift properly but I think if i ask around enough I think I should be able to figure it out and learn. So this is the plan when I get back to school I’m starting the meal plan I got from stevep78 with or without protein powder and I’m going to start boxing and getting a gym an lifing heavy.

I have to do this for myself I don’t want to be just average I want to turn heads and look amazing!

What to do when your soo exhuasted all you want to do is sleep but at the same time you want to see results and in order for that to happen you have to train.

I’m caught be between a rock and a hard place, I’m working like crazy and all I want to do is sleep but i want to start seeing mad results but i just don’t have the energy to work out. I feel like im letting myself down by not being able to workout. I feel like I just want to sleep for a week and not move. But thats not going to happen. So i dont know if i just suck it up and deal with it or sleep and let my body get the rest it needs??

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger..these few words could not be truer.

I’v been chatty the last few days so I’ll leave it at that..

Keep your chin up and keep fighting even when your at your breaking point

The question posed is what is beauty? I personally think that beauty comes in all different shapes and sizes. Who says you have to be a size 2 or that you have to be in the best shape of your life? The media makes me sad to make me think that I have to be that way in order to be seen as beautiful.

I don’t really know were I’m going with this to be honest. Everyone on this site in one way or another is beautiful. Whether they are just starting out on their journey of fitness or have been doing it for a while and look amazing.

Who set the standards of beauty and why do we as a society play to it? So many people on this sight have battled back from an eating disorder of one kind or another. These people truly over came inner demons and showed the world that they can be and are beautiful.

I guess that the more I look at this sight the more inspired and inadaquate i feel all at the same time.

It makes me want to work harder and to reach and beat my goals but on the other hand i feel like woah look at those people I will never look like that i will never learn how to train properly.

Iv been really chatty the last few days writing a lot of blogs but i guess i just have alot on my mind and I appeciate all those those people who read my blog.

I just need to get over the hump and get back into the swing of things I’m going for a run tomorrow and I hope that will help. Iv been soo tired life and work is catching up to me I’m feeling worn out. But i will over come this and I will get into the best shape of my life.

I will set my own beauty standard and no one will tell me other wise. I am beautiful!

Sooo iv got a couple of new goals!! yay

i just bought new undies and bras so goal #1 is to look hot in them even tho no one is going to be seeing it but me

and goal number 2 is im getting a second tattoo at the end of the summer on my ribs i need to get tonned soo that i doesn’t look nasty and it looks sexy.

So starting today im cleaning up my eating hard core and im going to be doing more ab work outs

wish me luck

ok soo i have noo ass.

like i have the white girl curse i have no bum.. i used to have one..now its like gone. i can do squats and lunges till im like blue in the face and nothing happens..

help!! i want my ass back i like haveing one its the one thing i had going for me

someone help me!

ok soo today my mom called me a sucker for punishment and i have to agree with her. I went for a run today just a quick one only 1.5k because it was soo hot. Then my friend called and wanted to go again so i went again for a 4k run/fast walk.

I have been walking/running/ biking all week and i feel great. I find tho that i can do a 25k bike ride without stoping no problem but running is soo much harder tho i love it.

I can hardly walk right now Im sore but loveing every second of it. I also did some walking lunges and some squats so tomrrow i will be in pain

call me crazy but pain makes me feel alive and i love it…