In due time

My right knee that is… While doing lying leg presses this morning I kept feeling a sensation of a rubber band snapping in my right knee. It didn’t hurt but I felt it moving around. I spoke to one of the trainers and I am going to reduce the weight on the presses to no more then a max of 60 lbs. Maybe I will even switch it to more reps and lighter weight. In other new this was my first workout before 8 am. Yay me!

I did only strength training this week and as much cardio as house cleaning provides. I’m not feeling well. My tonsils are messed up again and I will be getting them removed in September. I’ve been doing the green tea and chromium for a few days. I’m hoping it helps lower the excess cortisol levels. With all these constant setbacks it would be easy for me to make an excuse and say **** it all but I will not. I will not go backwards to that frumpy mess I turned into. It makes no difference that part of the way I looked was due to illness. If I had been paying proper attention to myself back then I would have never gotten so physically debilitated and raggedy. It’s true that there are things beyond our control but I always put myself on the back burner in  the past. Not any more!

Did the above and started drinking green tea and taking my chromium twice a day. I’m taking it slow with cardio because my right knee is hurting me. I would go to the pool at the Y but it was drained for cleaning this week. Oh well…

The back of my legs are a bit sore today from deadlifts yesterday. I got some blood work back from the endocrinologist. My insulin levels, glucose, cortisol, triglycerides levels are higher then they should be. I will need some adjustments in my medications(increase in my Glucophage and Byetta) and I started with green tea and chromium 200 mg a day to help bring down the cortisol levels until I see the doctor. This explains why I have not been losing weight despite very good effort on my part. It is partially my fault because I stopped seeing the Endocrinoligist a few years ago because he has these legendary four hour waits to see him. I’m just not that patient. He now has a female associate who saw me in less then 30 minutes. Hopefully I can get my weight moving downward with a little more ease now that the problem has been discovered. I would like to use the treadmill today but it seems unlikely to happen because of band rehearsal. I will attempt to use my bike for 30 minutes even if I have to do it at 11 pm. :)

Got back to the gym today. Did chest, abs and back. Went to the Italian feast at dinner time and some junk. I’ll burn it off tommorow. I want to go for a long walk in the park during the day. Feeling pretty good.

I have spent the week cleaning my house and getting rid of a lot of old junk. I swept away lots of my cats hair from all the nooks and crannies of the house. I’ve also been giving the two remaining cats plenty of affection. They started eating again and are moving around the house a bit more. They basically cowered in my bedroom for a few days out of shock or fear I guess.

I got a beautiful handwritten card today from the vets who took care of my cat, Elvis in his final days. I was very appreciative to read their kind words about my cat. This was a very hard loss for me. I have basically had this cat since he was a week old. His mother abandoned him and his sister in my driveway and I had to nurse them both every few hours for the first week. It was exhausting but well worth it for all the years of love and affection that they have given me.

My house feels eerily quiet even though I have two more cats left. Elvis was very present in this home and more human then some human beings. I will never forget my little baby boy but I must resume my exercise sessions starting tommorow. I’m thinking of taking a walk or a dip in the pool to start myself back up.

I’ve been resting alot this week and I am reflecting on how sudden things can change. Losing my cat so suddenly was really shocking to me. He wasn’t even sick a week and a half ago as far as I knew. It just goes to show you how precious every moment is. It’s not worth it to waste time on being indecisive and unsure. Choose a path and follow it to the T.

I will be taking a break until the weekend for two reasons. The first is that I hurt my right shoulder at the vets office when my cat tried to leap off the table before they put him down. I also am having a test tommorow so I am on nothing but clear liquids today and I don’t want to overexert myself on a insufficent diet. I plan to take one of my super long walks over the weekend and I look forward to resuming strength training at the gym on Monday.

I was gonna go and workout but I think I need to take this week off. I feel very drained and I just want to go in bed and relax.

My sweet baby boy, Elvis, died tonight at 6:38 PM. I will miss my baby.

I didn’t go to the gym all weekend and I had to force myself to eat at all. One of my older cats has become sick all of a sudden. I may have to put him to sleep tommorow. I’ve spent this entire weekend from Friday afternoon on giving him fluids, medications and a food supplement. He just isn’t responding well at all. I feel very drained and very sad. This cat was bottle fed by me as a small kitten and hand raised. I have him since I am 23 years old. Yes, he is old but up until last week he was jumping up and down on the bed begging for kisses and hugs. It’s all so sudden and shocking… I’m going to about my routine reguardless of what happens tommorow but I am just crushed. Here is a picture of my cat, Elvis, with my husband at the vet on Tuesday: