Milujute’s BodyBlog

I was watching Tyra the other day and she had the ‘accept me for my size’ type of show…which is fine, I totally agree.  They had a big girl with a jerky boyfriend who taunts her on her weight and he shouldn’t…they also had this tiny tiny thing…she was like 87 lbs & her friends taunt her because she’s ‘just bones’ and she can’t gain weight…And the show’s right, you should accept people for what they are and no one should ever be able to be rude to someone because of their weight. 

Now for my issue.

Everytime they have a big girl/boy on a show, talk or otherwise, they eat so much food it’s stupid…insinuating that everyone who is overweight is fat because they have 6 double cheese burgers and 5 fries for lunch…then pig out for supper and breakfast and snacks and eat 6500 calories a day!!!  The girl they had on here, bragged to the camera how she’ll order a fast food meal, then eat half the fries then go back tell them its cold so she gets more fries for free…then went on to eat a ton more…I can’t remember what she had for supper, but it was deep fried in greese and almost made me vomit…gag. 

MY POINT IS that not everyone who is overweight eats constantly and ludicrus amounts of junk food!  for example; my Mom, when she was a size 24, didn’t eat right, well she still doesn’t! but she’d eat like a bowl of sugery cereal for breakfast and one again for lunch…then maybe a sandwich for supper…if she did go to the mall, she’d order a burger meal thing, then maybe eat half the burger and half the fries & drink the pop.  My workout partner, eats ok and is hungry, unlike me, but she’ll show up at they gym racked with guilt because she went to McDonalds for lunch…I’ve seen her lunch, she has a Jr. cheeseburger, and only eats maybe 3/4 of her fries…NOT a big pig out like they have on these talk shows!!!!!  It pisses me off….Why don’t they show normal people on these shows?  ones who maybe go have the jr. cheesburger for lunch everyday, etc. and give them advice on how to live healthier?  How does featuring people who have 6 burgers and 3 fries for lunch help the rest of the world?  We kinda know what their issue is.  Food. 

Other people have reasons their bodies hold on to the weight, like maybe that happy meal puts someone like 100 calories over what their body needs and that adds up overtime…or emotional issues, yes that can greatly effect it, your mind doesn’t believe and doesn’t let it go or maybe I don’t know…whatever.  But you get my point…most people, at least that I know, who are chunky or more, DO NOT eat 6000 calories a day!!!!

I’m sure I’m not normal…so not people like me…but normal people like my Mom and my friend.  OH, my Mom did loose all her weight over like 3 months a couple of years ago while on hydroxycut, unfortunately she didn’t workout…so she has flabby skin, and her lean mass is really, really, low, which sucks, so NEVER, EVER do that!!!! 

OK…done ranting…

We tried a buns, abs and thighs class on Sun and I erroniously thought because it would be leg day anyway, so why not.  I figured I would do the class then do my shoulders afterwards…so that’s what I did.  Don’t get me wrong, it hurt..but my lower back is killing me, you know that lovely crunch then you can’t move.  I think I overworked it during back day.  And neither my legs, abs or butt hurt…except my knees, which isn’t a good thing….so I’m not sure what I’m going to do for lifting days…have to think about it.   Chris wants to do the Sat class every week, which isn’t a bad thing, I just think it’ll be over and above everything else…a just for fun thing.  For the program…I love the burn the sets give off.  

I don’t know what days my partner wants to go to the gym.  Right now we’re going mon, tues & thurs…but once the tats heal, mon will be aquasizes…maybe I’ll go sunday by myself, she doesn’t want to go Fridays or it seems Sunday…Monday aquasizes, Wed Wallyball and Sat that buns class… Sunday by myself will be the only way to get my lifting in.  <sigh>  My workout partner is wanting to concentrate more on aerobics than lifting because, like me, she’s not seeing the fat leave.  And they say aerobics will do that.  and the personal trainer at the gym told her to because she asked.  BUT, I don’t want to lose my lean, I worked hard for it.  I still fell like if I stop focusing on my dress size, it’ll happen…kinda like everything else in my life.  I get what I want, just never the way I expect it to happen, or if you do the ‘goal/map thing’ that never works…it’s when I stop trying so hard it happens.  Not sure what that’s about!  LOL  Is anyone else like that? 

I hate going to the gym by myself, I don’t lift as hard…I’m more concious about making noises during my last couple of sets.  Like I said…I’ll have to think about this and what to do.  If Ron was in town, I’d drag him with me on Sun…but he’s not. 

I finally manged to start the new program…and they’re right, changing things has totally hurt, big time!!!  I can barely lift my arms!  everything was shaky in the gym to the point where I went to scoot down on the mat to do the abs, my arm almost colapsed out from under me!  Woot, I’m excited…it’s been a long time since I’ve felt my body ache and my muscles jiggle, even with adding tons of weight. 

Belly Dancers…all of them.  I know, I do belly as well, but no where near the ability of the professionals! , and believe me, you haven’t worked aerobicly until you’ve shimmy’ed for 5 minutes!!!  Ack… sweat!   They come in all shapes and sizes…most of the worlds renouned are larger, but that might have more to do with the tastes of Arabic men!  lol  Yes, this is more about me trying to switch my thought and goal paradym to focus on ability and not on the measuring tape… 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WdbeTDbTfD8

My Focus is Health and Strength and letting my body be what it will be…perfect in gods eyes. 

Well…in keeping with my not caring what my measurements are and just focusing on health and nutrition, I’ve decided that I need new roll-models. 

Alison Streeter is one of them.  She’s a channel swimmer, probably the best in the world, she’s swam the english channel 43 times…more than any other man or woman to date!  and has the title Queen of the Channel.  She’s so athletic that she actually trades currency while she swims the various channels…damn.  Her Mom answers the phone and she shouts back the instructions.  She’s did her first crossing when she was 18, making her the youngest, and has been swimming it and several others around the world ever since.

Her body is non-traditional and you can bet healthier and stronger than most people in this world.  So she is one of my new roll-models….to remind myself that not every body is ment to look like a fitness model. 

My Focus is Health and Strength and letting my body be what it will be…perfect in gods eyes.  

I actually took the weekly body measurements OUT of my workout journal!!! Talk about a difficult thing! But I’m determined to change my focus from measurements to progress!!!  Otherwise I’ll get so frustrated I’ll just give up and that won’t do my body any good.  I actually cried last month because I wasn’t making the gains I had hoped for…but what can you do?  Go back to being unhealthy and weak? 

I found it amusing when a couple of months ago, someone actually had the audacity to comment on my weight and how I should go to the gym and quit eating junk food. (This is EXTREMELY RARE, by the way, I never have this issue and I’m always hit on and I always get the super hot guy and I’m always complemented on how I look…because I am healthy and happy and I think most people see that.  I find that funny because I look in the mirror and think ‘why?’ but hey, I’m not going to complain!  Pheramones, gotta love them.  Anyway, this fellow was being a jerk because I turned him down.) I replied with, I go 6 days a week, and my dietician loves my eating habits…you should come to the gym with us, I can get you a week pass.  Of course he made a face and said ‘no’.  I found it amusuing because I know his body wouldn’t be able to keep up with me.  I know I’m not the strongest or fastest person in the world, but I can hold my own and I live for the burn either while running or lifting.  Don’t judge a book by its cover jerkoff, fortunately most people know that.  Sheesh, don’t know why I turned that one down!    LOL 

Starting the 12 week video program next week…a week behind the videos that way I can do little weekly journals for the gym…I love my journals, what can I say?

Still doing same old’ same old’ so don’t think I’m not doing anything, because I am…I’ll just be doing my ‘change it up’ thing this Sunday instead of last.  I find it more comfortable and less scarey if I’m prepared and can review the videos a few times.   Wallyball tomorrow!  Woohoo! 

Now, I just have to fix my side mirror on the car…   My mom barely grabbed it yesterday when she slipped and it snapped off, we figure it was the cold…yikes…I’m afraid to drive!!!

Good news! They post the workouts a couple of days ahead of time.  Woohoo! 

Scary news:  They’re doing free weights on a weight bench with a bar and we don’t have that in the girly section.  So I’m trying to figure out how to modify!    It’s probably for the best if I use dumbells instead of the bar for now because isn’t that bar quite heavy?  I have a funny feeling that I’d hit failure during the bar warmup!  LOL  :) 

We usually we do weights on Sun, Tue, Thurs…but my workout buddy decided we should to the weights Monday because we can’t go swimming (just got new tats a couple of weeks ago…new ink trumps anything with chlorine!)  So that’s the plan…weights tomorrow.  I’ll still do my running after work at like 1:00 then we’ll do weights around 6:00.  There should be more than enough time to recover between the two. 

So, I’m all measured and calipered (I kinda get the same measurement when I do it…I hit on 30/31 like 8 out of 10 times, the other two; one was 40, but then I noticed the moving thing was catching on the skin and moving it up; the other was like 24, which would be nice, but I seriously doubt!  So I’m going with 30mm.  It’s hard hitting the same spot everytime, gives me something to work on.)

Not much else to say today, I have to confess that doing something new, entirely new, makes me a bit nervous.  I’ve been doing the BFL style for over a year!  and it’s comfortable.  Obviously, it’s time for a change.  Both of us need to get of this plateau we hit about 8 months ago!  

New Year, New Workout. 

LOL  just entered my measurements…well it’ll be good for my ego!  I’m all bloaty this morning…teehee…had salty food last night at my Moms xmas party (she works nights, so her shift didn’t get to go to the original)  My weight was 230.5 yesterday morning and today it was 236.5…so you know it’s salty water retention!  teehee  oopsie.      hmmmm…guess I shouldn’t even be tracking this stuff if I want to focus on progress instead of body size…hmmmmm.  oh well, can’t hurt, can it? 

I’ll be doing the 12 week video trainer as a change to try and get off this plateau, it can’t hurt right?    Plus I’ll be doing the running training seperately plus my extra curricular activities like aquasizes and wallyball…don’t think those things should matter in regards to the training…the only thing that sucks is that the video trainer starts on Monday for three days a week, and my weight days are Sun, Tue, Thurs!  I have a buddy, so no, I can’t change that.  Hmmmm have to think about this some more maybe.  Anyway, I did learn how to use my accu-measure caliper thingies…had no idea before and I’ve had the things for like 8 years!!!  So I’m 36.3% bodyfat.  Woot, I’m excited.

I haven’t been on here in months…so sorry.  I have actually made very little progress and posting…well…no changes here was getting kinda boring!!!  Yes, I still workout 6 days a week 3/3, yes I’m much better at my eating…my tummy gets angry if I go more than three hourse without food!  Still having problems getting my waters in…and still weigh and look the same.  That part’s kinda very frustrating.  I broke 230 and haven’t budged an inch or lb despite changing workouts and increasing cardio.  <sigh>  I hear it’ll all come together one day.  On the good side…it’s not a bad thing. 

I know, I know…if it’s worth having its worth working for, which is what I tell myself everytime I want to just stop going to the gym.  It’s disconcerting, I mean, my friend went on this hormone thing and dropped from a 16 down to a size 10 in like two months.  Makes me jealous.  Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think it’s a healthy way to lose weight and I’d rather go slow and permanent than quick and maybe mess with the body chemestry…but still…I’ve been doing it slow for 15 months now and it feels like nothing has changed.  I don’t even want to be that skinny, I just want to be a 12/14 (8/10 US) and average…I’d like to be firm enough to wear a two piece without blinding anyone!!! lol

Eric and I are still together, although sometimes I just want to throw him into a snowbank.  Some things have to change there and quickly…lifes to short. 

My puppy is still my world and I’ve taken on a part time job in the mornings to help a friend out…the real estate market is slow, so that’s ok.  and my new goals from my dietician are to try a new exercise once a week and a new recipe once a week!  really have to get on those!        Ok…I’ll try to be better at my blogging and try to come up with a new goal. Perhaps next January do the bikini vacation thing.  LOL  it certianly isn’t going to be this year!!! and I’ll search this site and try to find a completely new workout routine (we’ve been doing the same thing since the beginning…maybe that’s why I can’t get off this plateau. hmmmmm) 

ciao for now boys and girls!