Milujute’s BodyBlog

Ever feel like you’re just bolting around, running into walls..bouncing off those walls and hitting another one, over and over again?  Well, that’s kinda where I am now.  Yikes.  I wish I could be inspired…my inspiration died and now I feel trapped and unable to break free.  sigh. 

Anyway, workout was excellent…food was good, managed to eat every three hours and didn’t quite get all my water in, but I’m trying to get that back to normal. 

Emotionally…good, went to the craft store and bought a ginoramous pulled canvas, I’m excited!  get to work out my feelings of lost direction there…hopefully it’ll look ok because at that price I need to hang it in the living room!!!  praticed my hennas…starting to look very good!  I’m excited.  Oh and one of the girls at the volunteer on Saturday does henna and they have a pratice group every month!  I’m excited…get to pratice.    woohoo! 

I know…it’s a little early for todays blog, but I don’t want to get behind again!  Three months down since I got the dietician…I’ve lost 12 lbs and 24.75 inches.  Excellent I know.  and I should feel prouder and I’m glad today was measure day because I think I’ve been faltering because I’m loosing faith that I’ll actually lose anything!  But I have been…slowly but surely…it just doesn’t feel like it!  lol…guess those freaking adds where people use the miraclous pills and lose 6 dress sizes in 3 monts are starting to get to me.  I mean, really, that’s 2" / week and 1lb net/week!  I really have to buck up and get to eating every three hours, it’s so hard to do!!!  Really hard to do!!!  yikes… I just can’t believe how hard it is!

My next goal set will be very strict.  I really want to wear my pumpkin costume, but I think I have to lose 2" min off my waist and hips and at least an inch of my bust before it fits OK.  if I suck it up, it should be good.  Must have goal…must have focus. Perhaps it’ll get me out of this frump! 

Emotionally:  well, not sure how my day is going to go emotionally.  I’m sitting inside on a day when I should be out painting the fence…should get on that.  I’m excited because the long lost daughters audition for Victoria Idol is, like, right now!  Aaaaaa…hope she breaks legs and knocks things dead and all that stuff.   and I think I’ll feel better the more I work on my gains and losses in the last three months and make a new book/plan for the next 6 weeks!  and take and review my progress pics. 

Yesterday ( I must be losing faith…this seems to becoming a pattern!  forgetting to blog or being to tired to blog before bed! ack)  Anyway, yesterday was wonderful.  Volunteered at the homeshow in the aft/evening and then went to the mind, body, spirit expo aftwards with my mom…we didn’t get home until 10:30 and I was exhausted!  Sparky was so excited he actually head butted me in the lips when I picked him up!  lol..yes, my little poodle/shitzu cross gave me a fat lip!  it’s much better now…only a cut. 

Emotionally, excellent, it was great helping out and meeting new people and other REALTORs…and the Mind, Body, blah blha show was good too…except for this white girl SELLING the sweet grass to the other white girls…

For those who don’t understand what I mean: you go to these shows and you always find a racially displaced person who is trying to act like that race but has never even hung out with a person of that race.  In this case a white, hippiesque woman, who attempts to act native.  But, because of her actions (selling sweetgrass) its clear that she has never bothered to establish a relationship with a native person that was strong enough for them to be taught spiritual stuff… or at the very least took a class in such things.  So the poor shoppers talk to this person, presuming she knows her stuff and make mistakes such as buying the sweetgrass.  Also for those who don’t know, you are never to buy sweetgrass, it must be given to you or traded and never for money.  It actually pisses me off big time when I see ppl selling things that are fobidden to be sold and I highly doubt if I said, I’d trade you this amythist for it, they would be swift enough to do so.  bah…another of my little pet peeves.  So it really upsets me when someone doesn’t even try to respect the culture, whatever it may be, and is trying to pretend that they are in order to exploit it for their own gain.  Know what I mean Jelly Bean?

I know what some of you may be thinking if you noticed my tattoo…how arabic tattoo’d could be disrespecting the Muslim culture.  I have several Islamic friends and I cleared it with them before having it done just to make sure I wasn’t insulting anything.  and I’m not.  If this woman had asked a Native person if it’s OK to sell sweetgrass…they would have said NO! bah…done ranting now. 

Yesterday, was great, workout was great…my recumbant was stuck on a high level so I couldn’t go very fast but I had to push it!  still feeling tired though, which sucks because its so nice out!  emotionally:  great, saw Eric to help him with some online thing, he kinda pissed me off when he expected me to do it for him!  Yeah, I don’t think so…I’ll help with the english because he’s just learning, but it’s not my job to take his test.  geez.  think he got the hint because he’s trying to do it himself today. 

OMG missed two blogs in a row…ok…day before yesterday, felt really lathargic and tired!  So did my workout partner must have been from aquasizes…so we skipped workout. 

Ok better now!  worked on the website today…I’ve been inspired!  workout was great fun, aquasize day today…woohoo!  food…only ate 4 times…I’ll get this eating every 3 hours if its the last thing I do!  lol  I’m starting to feel frustrated, like I won’t make my mini goal of getting into my pumpkin costume by halloween!!  must focus harder! 

 Emotionally, ok, still happy from seeing Eric.  it’s always nice spending time with him…I just wish he liked to do more different stuff!  the weather was awesome so I worked outside on the hammock.  Tomorrow, paint the fence!  woohoo!  and buy some bulk henna!  woohoo! 

Whoopsie!!! forgot yesterday…so here goes.  Workout was excellent,  Food sucked large.  Water was good.   Saw Eric, so that always makes me happy.

 emotionally, happy and yet tired too. 

went on a henna hunt today, found some from yemen with an expiry and picked date…so I’m trying it out!    Workout was missed…I was late getting back and my partner cancelled…she must have got all tuckered out waiting!  lol  so I’ll have to run tomorrow aft. 

Emotionally.  great, it was fun hunting for new things and checking out the little east indian and middle eastern stores that weren’t my normal haunts (my little lebanese store didn’t have any, I did check!  lol)  and Eric called, but I missed it, he’s at work now.    on fri and sat he bounces at a club…so much for date nights!  hehehe 

Take care! 

Excellent workout today!  good foods too, and waters…woohoo….so overall a good day.

Emotionally…not so good…had fun shopping with my mom, and finished off my website to comply with the new rules…BUT I got a letter from a lawyer over a debt I thought I paid off in May!!!!  ACK!!!  talk about stressful…geez.  but that’s what I get for not paying attention to my accounts….oopsie.  Oh well…they can take it out now and be done with it!  I started a new service thing, and I accidently picked the wrong postal code!  ack…hope they can fix it… anyway, I’m so tired it’s ridiculus.  so night everyone! 

Today…EXCELLENT run day….ran 20 out of the 30 mins +5 mins cool down…5 min warmup, 5 min run, three mins walk and here’s the big news..10 mins straight running!  then two mins walking, followed by 5 more running…rest walking + 5 mins cooldown…. woot!  Very happy. I knew that I could one day, but I didn’t know that I would be able to today!  Food was good…think I ate pretty constantly except for this evening…but we’re doing better.

Emotionally:  happier again…saw Eric, two days in a row…starting to worry about some issues there…oh well, if it’s ment to be it will be.  Otherwise, a pretty average day!  Still pumped about my accomplishment which is why I’m making cabbage soup at 1:00 am…can’t sleep!