58 days down/145 days to go…
Aquasizes were fun…Food was ok…water…not so good!
Emotionally: Angry and hurt and stressed. The ex, the one who went to visit family in Lebanon then came back and told me a month later that he got married and then wondered why I was upset about it…Yeah, him, he’s getting more agressive in pursuing me and it’s just painful…I’m not the one who choose duty over love, he did. I don’t think he has the right to expect anything from me. Its almost like he lives to see my heart broken over and over again. So, it is causing me alot of stress.
Eric, well, I adore him, but I don’t think it’ll be for the long run…not without a ton of work and I’m to old for fixer-uppers. He’s cheap, like brutally, cheap. He wouldn’t go to the fireworks with me because it cost $15 and was criticizing my lights being on ‘because it must be expensive’ then asking me ’how much is your electricity bill?’ I’m sorry, I’m 40, I pay my own bills and leave on as many lights as I want. I also turn the heat up before I wake up in the winter! Also, I didn’t like him calling me, literally, I counted, 11 times between 2:40 and 3:50 AM Saturday night, like WTF? But, he is supportive about my working out and he understands because he was an athlete. He’s a good cook, healthy suff as well and he seems like a truly nice person with a good heart and beautiful outside too. But I need to go out and do things…Like dance or go to dinner or the zoo or the theater or a walk or ANYTHING! He does nothing! He wants to do nothing! And he doesn’t kiss, not even a little…Just too many things I can’t live with or without… sigh…
