Milujute’s BodyBlog

Today was a do nothing day.  Not much exciting.  I seem to have misplaced my workout partner and subsequently missed my workout.    hope she’s ok…she went out last night with her bf, so I’m thinking hungover but usually she calls.  Talked to Eric for over a half an hour!  I hope he gets this new job.  If he does he’ll have 10 days off in a row so I’ll be able to see him perky and we’ll be able to do stuff too!  Right now he works 6 days a week a double on Friday and Saturday…so come Sunday, he’s exhausted and just wants to cuddle…which is good, but it’ll be nice not seeing him tired all the time.  I’m going to get a drunk call later on from Tenille (long lost daughter)  She’s been having it rough, so she got plowed on three coolers…yikes…I hate stress for that.  and she’s kinda freaking about boys…lol…at her boys apartment!  oh dear.  I already told her it’s not a good idea to discuss relationship type stuff while drunk! 

Tomorrow, I’m dragging my Mom to henna tattooing classes, should be great fun!  Anyway, that’s it for today…I promised myself I’d blog daily during this journey to bikinidom…so there you go! 

OMG, had a great time checking out all the ink and pin-up fashions at the tattoo show today.  I love those cloths and the booths gave me some ideas for tattoo after next.  The next one will be around x-mas time.  My long lost daugher and I are getting wildroses on our foots (one foot each, hence the pluraled singular!  lol)   I ran into my artist at the show, he wants me to come to the shop on Tuesday to discuss. 

Day off today for working out.  food, was good…pigged out on Liver…mmmmmmm Liver…drool Homer style!  I’m about to sit down to my 4 layer dip and watch a movie.

Emotionally..as above!  & very sad for Tenille because her grand-dad and aunt both passed away last week…poor thing…I can imagine the hurt.  I hope things turn around for her soon. 

Busy, busy, busy!  My Mom needed to do some running around so we ran, and ran and ran!  Food was good, workout was OK.   Helped Eric with his resume this am, and had a wonderful visit.  I hope he gets his job. 

Emotionally; Excellent, had a wonderful start first thing this am.  Wholly crap, I’ve been up for 17 hours…oopsie, straight to bed for me!  I also think I figured out the reason for some of the odd things Eric does, so I feel much less stressed about it and think it might be workable…not sure how, but I think my concerns can be reconciled between us…so he’s not a fixerupper! Woohoo!  That is so totally great, because I was really down because I thought maybe it wasn’t workable.  Him and my dog made friends today, wierd to some, but very important to me and made me very happy.  I even got to do a little photo-shoot with him.  (Eric, not the dog. hehe)  He photographs very nicely.  I like having someone to shoot.  I love photography!!!  and if he waxes his chest like he suggested and lets me play with lights, and angles, I will be in abs-solute heaven!  He has, IMHO, a pratically perfect body, you can even see his sixpack without flexing.  Great symmatry and lines and tone and the shadows will be amazing.  If I can get him to relax, my camera will love it!  He wants to put on another 15lbs of lean, I think he’ll be beyond perfect then…but I’m biased.  teehee

Something wierd happened on here, I suddenly had myself as stalking someone?  Like huh?  I havent added anyone recently…then I noticed one of my friends, one who added me originally, deleted me.  I find that odd.  Why request a bbfriend then delete it once it’s been accepted?  Oh well, not like my feelings are hurt or anything, I just find it odd.  I could see if this was some dating site and wierdness happened!  lol  I don’t even think he ever really interacted with me except for a couple of "how’s it going" emails…to wit I replied to.

Good night all!  Sweet dreams! 

Workout was excellent…food was ok…hungry, I should eat, but I hate eating right before bed!  Water, I need to focus on water!!!   

Trying to work on a little tat design for my baby brother, hope he sees something he likes or can give me a better idea of what he’s looking for!  and the tattoo show is on Sat, I’m excited! 

I’m helping Eric with his Resume tomorrow am…not sure what he wants me to do…make sure the english is more betterer.  I hope he gets this job.  He sounds excited about it, I think.  It’s kinda hard to tell through the french accent!  lol  That’s ok, I don’t mind.  I feel like its one of those vacation relationships where no one understands what the other is saying but it doesn’t matter anyway?  OMG…stomach just growled at me, maybe I’ll have some fruit.

Emotionally; great, happy for my Mom, looks like her project is going through.  I’m all signed up for my henna course.  woohoo!  I’ll soon be decorating up all my friends!!!  Mwahahahahahah  Sad, because my long lost daughters grand-dad passed last night.  & Good because I’m trying to help out my baby brother…it’s funny, he’s the one who is the most like me, but he’s the one I’m farthest away from emotionally…very strange.  Anyway, going to have something light to eat then hop into beddy bys. 

 Ciao for now…

Workout was great, I did 45 mins of 3/2…basically until I was limping and couldn’t do anymore.  Not as good as previous sessions, but pretty good none the less, esp for a girl who used to get winded after a min of jogging!!!  so woohoo!  I’m also thinking that if maybe I did it three times as outlined instead of skipping because I have another aerobics commitment with my workout partner, it would be better…so I think I’ll do that.  As well, I think I’ll get my watch with the counter down thingie working so I can run outside instead of at the gym.  Get some good old fashioned fresh air into these hard working heart and lungs.  Food was …crap!!!  Yes, CRAP… darn it, let my mom talk me into kentucky fried chicken, that’s right, the KING of grease!  lol…so much for any calorie loss my 45 mins gave me!  oh, well, once in a while ok…everyday BAD, BAD, BAD!!!!   

Emotionally:  as above, bloated, icky and cranky!  hate pmsie crap…gurrrr…makes me want chocolate really bad.  Eric called and invited me over, I politely declined because I was in pain and cranky and wouldn’t be good company…not sure how much he understood, but that’s ok.  My mom’s friend, Ellen, I love Ellen, is in the hospital with pnemonia…I hope she gets well soon.  Other than that, fabulous! she said sarcastically…

Hopefully tomorrow will be a perkier day! 

take care! 

Have I mentioned lately that I love my dietician?  Yeah, I do…she’s such a great source of information and always has the answers to my questions, complete with logic and the whys and hows the body processes things and what the results would eventually be.  I had questions about supplements, hydroxycut, shakes, etc and she answered them all.  I feel cluttered when I read articles about food and supplements and talk to other ppl.  It feels like your brain is full and can’t process all the information, much less figure out what is real and what is not.  Slow and steady is definately for me, I want lifelong eating and exercise habits that won’t leave me until the day I die.  I think hiring a dietician, especially this one who’s willing to work with me to build those lifelong habits, was the best money I could have spent on myself.

Workout was excellent!  I hit highs and finally felt my calves.  Had to go to the scarey boys side to do it though!  lol  I also upped my hams and outer thighs.  Running all by my lonesome tomorrow.  Food not so good, I waited for my mom to get up before making supper…she hasn’t risin yet…sigh, so around 11:00pm it was toast, nuttybutter, an orange and milk for me.  yum…not as yummy as a tenderloin and corn and mushrooms, but tomorrow is good for that too!   

Took my precious Sparky to the vet, he has to loose a pound!  lol, he’s now 7lbs, so a pound is quite a bit on his little body…but otherwise perfectly healthy and happy!   Another issue I might have with Eric, I don’t think he likes my dog…he has some perceived rivalry going on in his head, it’s very wierd.  He’s like, ‘your dog doesn’t sit by me’, and I’m like ‘because you kicked him down.’  he tried to sit by him, but Eric knocked him off the couched then proceeded to say Sparks was avoiding him …like huh?  Good thing he’s a cute.  Maybe I need to explain pack animals to him and how the hiarchy works.  Because if it comes to him, or any man for that matter, and the dog…the dog stays…I love Sparky, I got him last year when he was 4, he was a very troubled littled dog, he was actually afraid of playing!  He plays now, for about the last 4 months…Anyway, I promised to take care of him and provide a safe environment until he dies and in return he gives me unconditional love and affection without any attitude. So yeah, I’m a pet owner, I have my priorities.  I get that non-pet owners have zero concept of this and that’s ok, just keep your opinions to yourself. 

Emotionally:   Otherwise, finally quiet.  No calls, no pesting, from anyone!  I know I’ll have to deal soon, but I just want a breath, for now.  And great news, the ex I’ve been trying to break up with since Oct. 07 has a new girlfriend, according to his facebook!  Woohoo…only took me 10 months to get him to accept that if you cheat you have to leave!  geez…another one that if he had only been open and honest, we would have been ok, maybe together, maybe not, but ok regardless.  So yeah, a pretty good day.   and now to sleep. 

Aquasizes were fun…Food was ok…water…not so good! 

Emotionally:  Angry and hurt and stressed.  The ex, the one who went to visit family in Lebanon then came back and told me a month later that he got married and then wondered why I was upset about it…Yeah, him, he’s getting more agressive in pursuing me and it’s just painful…I’m not the one who choose duty over love, he did.  I don’t think he has the right to expect anything from me.  Its almost like he lives to see my heart broken over and over again.  So, it is causing me alot of stress. 

Eric, well, I adore him, but I don’t think it’ll be for the long run…not without a ton of work and I’m to old for fixer-uppers.  He’s cheap, like brutally, cheap.  He wouldn’t go to the fireworks with me because it cost $15 and was criticizing my lights being on ‘because it must be expensive’ then asking me ’how much is your electricity bill?’  I’m sorry, I’m 40, I pay my own bills and leave on as many lights as I want.  I also turn the heat up before I wake up in the winter!  Also, I didn’t like him calling me, literally, I counted, 11 times between 2:40 and 3:50 AM Saturday night, like WTF?  But, he is supportive about my working out and he understands because he was an athlete.  He’s a good cook, healthy suff as well and he seems like a truly nice person with a good heart and beautiful outside too.  But I need to go out and do things…Like dance or go to dinner or the zoo or the theater or a walk or ANYTHING!  He does nothing!  He wants to do nothing! And he doesn’t kiss, not even a little…Just too many things I can’t live with or without… sigh… 

workout was excellent…food not so much.  I only ate twice today and didn’t make all my waters.  But I did paint the garage and prime the fence…so soon I should be graffiti free!  My whole body’s sore and tired!

Emotionally:  upset, happy, upset, heartbroken again.  Upset because of the graffiti, happy because of my workout, met a fellow bellydancer and another girl at the gym said she noticed me making progress, I thought that was really sweet.  Upset because my current love interest called me 11 times last night at like 3:30 AM!!!  Gurrrrr!  like come on, I’m sleeping!  Why he felt the great need to wake me up, I’ll never understand and he wasn’t even drunk dialing…I saw him tonight and it was wonderful…shoot, should have got him to tighten my lug nuts!  lol  Took his picture and it’s horrid!  he looked away just as I clicked the camera so his eyes look all white and buldgie, they aren’t he has really pretty eyes, like Will Smith. 

And then Heartbroken, (not my current…an ex.) & fighting the urge to run to 7-11 and stock up on ice cream…and lots of chocolate!!!   

Day off day today…and a fresh start tomorrow to recover from a derailed week!  lol  I’m excited.

Went to the grand finale of the Global Fest - Fireworks competition.  Awesome, Awesome, Awesome!!  and my battery died on my good camera!  Guess I’ll see how my non-tripoded camera phone shots turned out!  "There are no bad cameras, only bad photographers." 

Emotionally:  Happy because it was a nice and sunny day …for my treat this week I’m having chocolate!!!  must be ‘that time’ because I’m so craving chocolate it’s ridiculous…and way worse this month than quite a while and my lovely monthly between the eyes zit is coming along nicely.  Bah?  Who get’s those! And it was upsetting because when I was pulling out of my garage there it was…a giant blue signature on my red fence!!! and Yellow bubble letters on my garage door…and a horrible giant red drawing on my neighbours door…and the other neighbours door…Brats!  and they couldn’t even do a good job of it.  So tomorrow I’m spending the afternoon priming and painting my fence and garage door… weeeeee!  I’m so excited.  Brats.  I hope when they grow up and have garages they’re graffitied all the freaking time.  gurrrrr.  Then Happy again because fireworks are always happy!  Now I must de-bugspray and finish watching my show.  Gotta get up at 10:00 and run to the gym then paint all day!

Well, my workout partner decided to skip today and start fresh on Sunday…and I really couldn’t tear myself away from the puter.  Relatively speaking I didn’t do to bad without her, so I’m still proud of myself!  Food today, not so good and I’m dying for water…better go get some!

Emotionally;  I had an epiphany regarding the direction of my new career.  I have my focus!  It’s really hard to find something to nich when you’re in Real Estate.  We have over 5,500 Associates in Calgary! Finding my place in the grand scheme of things has taken me almost two years! I’ve had a general focus like most everyone else.  Neighbourhood farming never appealed to me, I tried.  I met alot of great neighbours, but I never ‘felt’ it and so my interest wained.  Affluent owners are great money and have interesting and fun marketing to go along with it & I do have the specializations, but there’s alot, I mean alot of competition!!!  New home construction; I have the training there too and the course sold me on building a new home!  But it too never quite felt, right. 

This lack of a place to focus took away my fire and energy in pursuing new clients.  The thing I love about being a REALTOR is that I know that I will help my clients with what they want and they’ll love it and it’ll go as smoothly as humanly possible.  I love when I hand over the keys to them with their smiling happy faces!  Love it!  Love it!  and I always put their interests above my own, it’s how I was raised…I’ve never had the ‘Sales’ Mentality, so I’m never trying to sell a house…I’m more of a match maker. 

All of my clients have been happy and giggly at their purchases and I’m happy to say, I’ve found perfect matches for each of them.  But Marketing, for me, needs to come from a place of passion.  And I think I found mine.  I’m working on my website right now.  (I’ll still keep executivedreamhome.com and all it’s various dotwhatevers.) This weekend I’ll work on Marketing and Next week I’ll start executing my new direction!