What’s wrong with me?
Lately, I’ve really been skeptical of how my body looks and the progress that I’m making. I’m not sure I’m really progressing. I have lost of few pounds and have been training consistently, but when I look in the mirror, it’s just not the body I want to see. I’ve come such a long way from where I was and it’s hard sometimes to remember just how much I let my body go. I’m dealing with the damage I inflicted by being such a glutton for so long. I think my biggest problem is the excess skin that I still have….it prevents me from really seing the awesome muscle tone that I’ve achieved. My body fat is somewhere between 14 and 16% and I know I shouldn’t really want to get it any lower, but sometimes I think that’s what I need to do to actually have the body I desire. I have this picture in my head of how I want to look and I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to achieve it do to my stretched out extra skin. Sometimes I think maybe cosmetic surgery wouldn’t be such a bad idea (not that I could ever afford it). I’m not sure I’d want to go through the recovery process of a surgery just for cosmetic value, even if someone offered the surgery for free. Body dismorphia…I’ve heard the term and read the description and sometimes I really think that must be what it is that I’m dealing with. I wish I could see myself through someone else’s eyes.
April 26, 2008 at 1:16 pm
I just happened to stumble across your profile and I’m glad I did. What an amazing transformation. I’m sure you have amazed many people and will continue to do so. Your hard work has payed off and will keep doing so if you continue to actively work towards those goals. Your body will never stop changing for the better if you continue the path of fitness and healthy eating. Besides the obvious weight loss and muscle development that you have achieved, your progress pics that show you from behind 1.5yrs apart really highlights how the tissue is changing underneath your skin….it is becoming smoother. Keep drinking your water and putting high quality, whole foods into your body, continue with those workouts and your body will keep transforming before your eyes. The journey is lifelong (I’ve learned that, lol) so be strong, stay motivated and determined to be the best that you can be and that’s really all we can ask of ourselves. You look awesome and I am truly inspired.
All the best,
Lori