Born of Divine Blood

So i did Delts yesterday for those that don’t know. Pretty good workout. No spotters around so i only did the 115s on DB shoulder press, and only got ‘em for 6.5 reps. I did do the 110s for 9 also with no spots though. After that I did ascending lateral raises and that created quite the issue….i couldn’t move….my pump was so painful i had to sit down, but i still couldn’t get my shoulders to sit in a way that made it any less painful…..so I struggled through the next couple exercises dealing with that, i prolly looked like i was dying. I don’t know if any of you have ever had pumps like i’m talking about but they literally HURT and get progressively worse for awhile after stopping the exercise that created them. Eventually though it subsided and I was able to finish up. I suppose i should switch them to last…..but for some reason i don’t wanna. I’ll have to ease into it.

As for knees…..well we all know about my gay ass retarded knee…no wait…law of attraction kyle…my….ummm lovely perfectly functioning healed knee. Anyway, I’m doing EVERYTHING I can possibly come up with here to get her rehabilitated because when i start bulking in ernest at the end of August I NEED to be able to train legs at 100% for once. I’m doing self myofascial release on as much of my legs as i can with a foam roller I got sunday. I’m icing it 2-3 times a day and starting to do heat right afterwards. Oh…note on the foam roller….anyone that does this…how the hell you do hamstrings????? i can’t do it like they want you too cuz my arms are too short and don’t really….reach the ground enough to push my ass off it in that position…. In addition to these things i’m also seriously looking into accupuncture and chinese medicine for it, as well as the possibility of my feet over pronating when i walk. I believe they do, because my dad has flat feet and my shoes wear much faster on the outside soles just like his, but using the arch support insoles i got sunday just doesn’t feel right part of the time. I also think I most definitely need new shoes but that is going to have to wait for the money train to roll into the the station. Nikes suck ass if anyone wants to know.

The sirens attempting to lure me to my death are underage girls and then summer welcome just KEEPS happening and more and more of them come every day so that’s not changed. *shakes head* just ridiculous what these girls look like. Half wish sometimes i went to an ugly school or something. I can admit that while doing my cardio this morning my first half hour was spent examining a very fine looking brunette’s legs and wondering what they’d feel like wrapped around me. Sorries….these things just don’t stop when you’re as deprived and as sexual as I happen to be. I don’t mean any disrespect, but that side of my brain sometimes sleeps in the mornings. Oh and they were VERY nice legs from the fitness standpoint as well, hamstrings and calves all very defined and good sized for most gals. That’s always how it starts…but pretty soon that other side stops admiring and critiquing the physique and wants to ‘play’

How in hell does anyone decide whether having sex with a gal is ok or not? I mean wtf….It’s so frustrating not to know what to do. Of course rationale says stay the hell away for quite a few reasons. She doesn’t work out. What would i have in common with someone that doesn’t work out? And keep in mind i don’t this random, sex for no reason, no connection, just trying to get your dick wet crap. If i’m with someone I need to at least feel like there is some circle of hell in which i could actually be with her for a longer term period.

Am I too rationale? Too thinking? I know i extend things way out in the future based upon essentially impressions and such. But doesn’t everyone do this? I always thought this was entirely normal. The Brain says that perfect girl that will want me, be compatible with me, and i’ll want to be with her forever back is out there. So then the question becomes do you lead someone on knowing that for the pleasures of the moment? I don’t feel like that is right at all. It just feels so very wrong to even contemplate.

I’m sorry but i think the creation of this is a pathetic mistake. Not only does it as a consequence make the figure girls have to not have their one piece suits, but I makes the girls even SMALLER.

UGH…i don’t want my lady’s any smaller. I like figure the way it is. If any smaller girls want to do shows…well for one, you sure as hell don’t need to be in the NPC and IFBB….go play in those ‘natural’ leagues everyone seems to love so much these days *yank yank*. Just feel like it’s an insult to the girls on the more muscular side of figure.

I mean do we have….i don’t even know wtf you would call it for guys…model competitions? **** no….why??? BECAUSE IT’S GAY!!!!! you don’t wanna be big then you don’t compete…that’s the way it should be. From what i’ve seen of this ‘bikini’ division it requires VERY little muscle over and above the ordinary strumpet to do well, and that’s just not right, go do a beauty pagent.

Just finished ARMageddon, it was damn good. Did triceps first today, the pump was insane, after while i kept poking my muscle and was like "are you really that pumped? that’s crazy!" cuz i could hardly poke it in at all, i thought my fascia was going to split or something. The tricep pump also created an interesting issue with my subsequent bicep training…mainly, i could flex all the way lol, i mean my range of motion was pathetic, but i was squeezing as hard as i could and the pumped up nature of the triceps just wouldn’t let the arms come all the way up. Still though, the pump insanity did continue on to the biceps, i don’t know wtf is up with this, beginning to think that my 20g of creatine monohydrate a day is doing something to add to this in addition to the edema from my post pre contest binging.

Also I got to talk to my absolute favorite person when i was leaving the gym, always brightens my day

and on another note…..you people that continually repost your blogs throughout the day to get more views…..it’s pretty ****in pathetic. I mean come on, talk about a pathetic cry for attention. Even i wont stoop this low and it annoys me quite alot that sometimes no one comments.

So thankfully i think i’m coming out of my little post pre-contest failure stupor. I’m water logged as **** and unfortunately don’t have a diuretic, but since i lived last year I assume I can handle this. The edema isn’t nearly as bad as it was last year either. It was pitting like crazy for weeks last year and like my shoes wouldn’t fit and stuff. I think it’s much better now. Still have ballooned up to 225 though, goddamn my body likes to take it’s revenge after dieting. The really ****ed up thing, if last year was any indication, one of those bioelectric fat measuring deals would still claim i’m like 8% at the moment….WEIRD.

So yea, I’m starting to look forward to bulking and get excited about competing and actually doing it. The 3rd time is a charm, i will step on stage in April 2010. I’ve had the chance to iron everything except the final week twice now so I think i know wtf i’m doing. This time i’m going to do things like pictures and my posing practice correctly too. It is kind of depressing to me that i have no pics of me when i was shredded these last weeks, but I didn’t see a way to really change that with the goddamn body hair and lack of anyone to take them. I’ll be much more adamant about it this next time though, force the damn parents to help. And even if they’re not cooperative….hell a hairy chubby pic should help me get a supplement sponsorship when compared to the stepping on stage pic.

As for training….ARMageddon today….going all out as always, hopefully the retarded amount of water i’m dragging around wont effect arm training too much, i don’t think it should, seems to mostly be an issue with squats and deadlifts and low back pumps….i guess retarded amounts of salt make your kidneys hurt? i dunno…

knee feels better today….i may actually give it sunday off legs and skip them, we’ll have to see. I don’t want to, and i don’t think it’ll be that helpful. But it can’t hurt too much. Maybe this time will be different, as i did try that more than once in january and february. I think the main thing is i just have to concentrate on stretching the holy **** out of my hamstrings when i stretch….because anything short of that isn’t going to make them more pliable I don’t think.

So today was chest day. My body is still adjusting and recovering from contest prep i guess. Not helping that i’m giving it MASSIVE amounts of carbs. But to the point….the endless gaseous releases and perma bloat on the tum tum continued today. Thankfully though, chest is ALOT easier to train with this malady. Got a badass pump, pretty much nothing but sissies in there so I didn’t have a spot for bench, did do 315 for 2 with no spot though…..spotting makes a HUGE difference in my lifts, with a proper spotter I would have been able to do 6-8 for sure. And it’s not even the help, it’s the fact that if you **** it up, or get stuck there’s someone back there that knows what they’re doing, so that allows me to just go like a bat out of hell. No spotter, you don’t have that luxury, you have to be thinking about every rep and making 100% sure it’s going to go up instead of just ****in dominating that ****.

Anywho, the pump was the **** today. Following bench, which i did a 225 -> 135 drop on to end it, I did my superset with incline flys followed by incline DB presses. This always promises an insane pump and i pushed it HARD. In addition to that, after while for my end I did do an FST-7 set on one of the more upright hammer strength machines….but i think i was already so pumped that it didn’t do THAT much lol.

Today was also an ab day…..ROFL…i’m pretty sure i looked like a turtle rolled on his back while i was doing this….**** my tummy is bloated….stupid carbs so yea…don’t feel like the abbages really got fried today, it was all i could do to complete it without throwing up.

AND….MOMMMA BROUGHT ME THE EXURSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank god!!!!!!!!! (well gods…). I was so sick of driving that goddamn matchbox car….finally I get to drive a vehicle that’s more my cup of tea again. Gotta love literally not fitting in a parking space when you’re in the exact middle even Might see if i can get dad to let me put all my research money down on one and get one for myself here….but i love my broncos too, still don’t have a plan for that at the moment.

I have legs tomorrow….I think i better let the belt out a notch before I leave just in case….or better yet i’ll try it on before leaving, i would hope that the pregnant walrus syndrome subsides a bit before tomorrow….but I dunno that that’s a rational hope.

Well the deadlift progression today didn’t go as expected…..apparently i’ve got some serious bloating going on in the midsection on this friday…..could have something to do with the pie I ate last night i guess….weird though, i’m alot more bloated in my upper abdomen than my lower. I can’t ever remember something like this happening offhand. Pretty much have a constant supply of gas too…no good for deadlifting….not to mention the belt was wayyyyyyy tight…..and i have a forever lever belt…so not adjustable on the fly…all this coupled together yielded a last set of 495 for only 1….i know, friggin pathetic……..just have to try harder next time….

On a positive note though, after that, even though i felt like a beached whale of sorts I ended up with an amazing pump doing a width superset with rear pulldowns and wide st. arm pushdowns and then subsequently a FST-7 set with T-bars….so dat was cool. Also did an FST-7 set for calves and that blew them up too.

I also saw my favorite gal in the world prolly…..just a smile from her makes my heart break pretty much *sigh* if only…..

I find moronic individuals that like to attempt to make generalizations about my life or try to elucidate any part of my life that they have absolutely no clue about HILARIOUS!!! And as they continue on their pointless rant of inquisition their ignorance becomes more and more apparent. If you’re going to attempt to issue scathing remarks toward me at least do your research and get simple FACTS correct, ROFL.

So the summer welcome rounds have started. This is when all new incoming freshman come for about a day and a half or so and get acclimated to the campus and such. Why would this effect my mental health one may ask…..well there’s one HUGE reason, but there are also some smaller ones.

I mean, honestly, I HATE this school. At every turn they literally steal money from you and the quality of education and guidance for that education has been much less than what one should receive for 20+ thousand a  year. So that’s constantly on my mind…I always want to yell at the prospective freshman that it sucks ass here.

Then there are the students that run the summer welcome stuff…..WOW….i don’t know where they find these people with their dancing and whooping and carrying on about how awesome mizzou is all day long….i mean really??? I can’t help but just stare open mouthed and wonder…"do you really go to school here? I mean come on now…"

Not so much annoying but hilarious is when tours of them come through the gym…..it’s kind of like you’re at a zoo and you’re the one in the cage, and I always seem to be the main attraction…..which is weird because i still don’t consider myself that big yet….but i guess compared to the pathetic frat-boys i already am truly a god among drunkards.

and now…..THE reason i’m disturbed…..the PERFECT little 18 year olds walking around that obviously need me to pleasure them endlessly. It’s so painful…..I admit, i stare openly…hell i think the parents often see me staring. I can’t help it. I’m deprived byond most people’s imagining damnit. Anyone who’s ever read pretty much any of my blogs knows i don’t get laid. And any amount of ’self-love’ really only satiates one for a couple hours at most…and usually 30 minutes. So vicious, they make me wish and want to just take them and do whatever they want…even regardless of how dumb they are or how much they drink or what their inherently retarded religion is….but alas….I know I wont. Pushing me to action takes more than a young pretty face, a tight ass, and a beckoning pussy, I must have connection…..or maybe i’m just talking myself down off trying it lol. Bottomline…..IT’S COMPLETE AGONY!

I think this may be what brought on the uncontrollable cravings I had that ended my contest prep prematurely again….I had this problem last year, but my diet was not nearly as dialed then. This time I have down EXACTLY what the issue arose from I believe. On my medium carb days I think dropping below around 120g is what did it. The final straw being eliminating my last scoop of volu-gro from my pwo shakes. I did that at the beginning of the week….was eating **** by thursday night. So as a note to myself….when we do this all over again in january and forward of 2010…..it’s better to add 20 minutes of cardio than cut those carbs on the medium days…..I think the medium days are the only issue because there’s 4 of them in a row. To long to be that low without variety for my body.