Born of Divine Blood

As anyone can see from my weight this morning i did a no no last night. Ate 4 cups of oatmeal between 7 last night and 4 this morning, with quite a bit of peanut butter. Unlike my breakdown last year though….i’m not throwing in the towel on this. After dieting for somewhere around 20 weeks the body needs a reload…yes i’ve had a cheat meal once a week and my carb days on fridays. But I definitely needed some carbs yesterday. Did i need as many as i got? prolly not, As i said before it’s not imperative that i compete, so why not experiment a little with what will really break me and what wont. Yea i’m still having my cheat meal friday, so we’ll see how much of this weight drops off in 2 days….i’m assuming pretty much all of it as at least 80% has got to be due to just the water of the oatmeal and its sheer weight.

2. So that if you wife or mom suggests you get an economical car (a focus or something) you can honestly say that there’s absolutely no way you could fit in it for any extended period of time without having claustrophobia issues

3. So that all the incredibly stupid females stay away from you because they’re intimidated…note: this may not work in the prescense of alcohol, just a heads up….i have essentially no experience in that department and don’t plan on acquiring any so i wouldn’t know.

these reasons are in no particular order by the way…

If anyone is tired of their blender leaking on them then pay attention…..months ago i had to get a new one…in january i think. So i went to walmart, picked up one from GE….reputable company right? well lets just say they can’t make blenders…not only did it start leaking like hell….the bearings in the pitcher started dying within 2 months so it sounded like a bomb going off in my apartment.

Sooooo then mom remembers she has an extra blender she’ll never need in the storage units. She has that insane 400-500 dollar smoothie maker thing now, i forget it’s name….anyway it’s a kitchenaid, the one from the storage unit. I didn’t know anything about it…but after getting it out of the box (no it was never used, mom likes to buy things for god knows what reasons) and examining it….i don’t think it CAN leak!!!!!!!!!!!  It’s all one piece (the pitcher)!!!!!!! Far and away the best design i’ve ever seen…..i’m sure it was like 70 bucks….but if you want a blender that will finally not pee on you, go look at the kitchen aid ones….this one has a big ass pitcher too, holds over 7 cups of liquid.

So today was supposed to be the day i add another 20 minutes of cardio to my days. But it seems the Gods are against me here. Wake up get dressed…..take fat burner (off clen this week)….open blinds in my front room and looks fine….sit down to start putting my shoes on….bam bam….starts raining like hell….now i’m dedicated, but cardio in the rain? no thank you…so i guess it’s gonna wait till tomorrow. I don’t think it’s urgent…my calories are low enough i’m still making very good progress without more cardio, just need to kick it up a notch. Actually reached a new low this morning…200 even….i betta be below 200 tomorrow.

Worst part of the rain…..i now have to do my entire regular hour of cardio post workout….and guess what i’m training today??? LEGZ!!!! yep…i’m dead. I wanna do a FST-7 exercise for quads today too…..i’m scared lolz.

As far as diet tweaking we’re leaving it for this week i think. The added cardio will contribute to a bigger deficit with the same number of cals going in. For the low days though i need to try and bring down the cals a little bit maybe. On my medium carb days i’m around 2400-2500 cals, never hungry, bout 120-140g carbs…..but on the low days my cals actually go up to more like 2650 or so. I know it’s the peanut butter, eating like 8 tbsp. a day on low carb days…and believe me it’s not like it’s THAT much of a comfort lol, the low days are still sucking. I suppose on low days once i drop my last scoop of volu-gro i could conceivably add a salad, i think my salad’s only have like 20g of carbs. I dunno we’ll see, low carb alternatives anyone wants to suggest would be appreciated.

Already planning my cheat meal for friday, can’t decide between 3 things now…..blueberry pancakes, stuffed hamburgers, or nachos……so hard to decide.

1. so that you can eat french fries during your contest prep because you need so many calories to maintain your huge mass….oh and ketchup is of course allowed too (thank you Ronnie Coleman).

So over the last 2 days i’ve been questioning competing yet again. But i think I found more reasons to just get this first one out of the way than to fail again. For one the sense of accomplishment…I think that would help me greatly in all aspects of my life. And it’s not like i’m going to get up there an look horrible. At 7 weeks 6 days out i’m most definitely sitting around 8% or so, and i’m adding my second cardio session tomorrow which should help strip the rest of this off.

My questioning is about different things. For one i’m not sure as to if this show is a national qualifier or not, and then even if it is i just found out yesterday that you’re only nationally qualified for a year now instead of 2 in the NPC. This is most unfortunate because i’m not sure i would be able to compete next year. I will definitely have to be doing an REU (research experience for undergrads) in astrophysics next summer and my understanding is that they’re quite intense and not as flexible as the research i’m getting ready to start tuesday. So a summer show would perhaps be impossible. Not that i would not be working out, that will never happen. But that added activities that go into contest prep are without a doubt very time consuming, especially when you’re doing you diet and everything by yourself like I am. The plan WAS to take next summer off from competing and try to grow as much as possible over the next 2 years from this show, then that second summer from now i believe i’ll have just graduated and have a little more time as i’d be in a transition period starting grad school god knows where in the fall. So i don’t know…i guess i’ll just have to see what happens.

Part of the questioning was also from the fact that during the approx. 5 days i spent at home i made no progress, 200.2 when i came back friday morning, just like I was the friday of finals week, and although I believe i’m doing well, i’m not doing well enough to repeat something like that. Especially frustrating because i pretty much followed my diet exactly right with the exception of a granola bar one and some almonds dipped in honey another…..hell i even went into a Wendy’s with my parents one night while we were in St. Charles and I didn’t touch a thing….cradled my gallon of water in misery. I would really like to be a middleweight so i can destroy my class at the show, but i’m kinda questioning if i can get that low, the weight is coming off very slowly now it seems, I know i can most likely drop 10 pounds of water or so in the days leading up to the show so that’s 185 or so that i have to get to. Is it doable? I think so, but i’ve got to get my ass in gear, hence the addition of my next half hour of cardio this week. This is the first time i’ve added cardio since the beginning of my prep, it’s been at 1 hour a day since the beginning, just added days 6 and 7 of it as we’ve gone along.

Also weighing on my mind is how i’m looking….but it’s because of the goddamn hair cropping up….even a weeks growth distorts things soooo much in the mirror, and you think you’re getting fatter, but it’s just the goddamn body hair….needless to say i will be getting lasered at some point in the future. If for no other reason than my piece of mind. I think i have to actually break down here and go get my back waxed….i’m not happy about it, but I don’t have any friends that are that ‘good’ and quite frankly i didn’t feel like at home there was enough room for mom to help me. She usually will take care of it when she visits me, but i don’t think that’s happening for sometime and i need to know how i’m looking and get some pics taken (although i don’t know how). So i found a spa that does it….think i’m gonna call them and set something up for saturday, that’ll be an off day from weights too.

Other than that gotta get on practicing posing….just seems like there’s never enough time, and starting research tuesday will make it tougher. I’ll figure it out somehow though, probably quit stretching after my weights as in 3 months it’s not helped my jackass knee at all anyway.

Other things going on in life…..wellllll i’m in flux in the car department….my bronco died halfway home from school and now sits in the yard at home not running. I was supposed to drive the excursion….but it needed a couple glowplugs replaced and apparently the tool you need to do so is quite rare and our mechanic had to order it…so they wont even have the tool till next friday…..so what am i driving? the focus….*shudders in terror*….naw…really i’ll admit it’s a good little car….amazing to me that you can put less than 20 dollars of gas in a vehicle and it’s full! Really it’s incomprehensible lol. But this is what my sister drives, so as soon as the Excursion is fixed i’ll drive home and get it so she can have ‘her’ (mom and dad bought it) car back. In regards to the bronco….if all goes as planned i will have 3 whole weeks and 4 weekends off of everything after my show and research and i intend on getting all of her body panels that are rusted replaced or patched and then getting her painted…..Dad has also mentioned a new engine since mine has 226k miles on it and the rear main seal is starting to leak. We’ll see what happens in that department. I think she’d be fine for another 50k wil that engine, i’d just like to do a head swap to some higher flowing heads and hopefully get rid of my exhaust leak that’s due to broken off bolts in my passenger side head….it’s really ****in annoying. Another option is a guy on my bronco website in missouri here has a ‘94 eddie bauer that he’s already fixed all the rust on and the tranny in the truck has only 1k miles and the engine about 95k…he only wants 4500….a steal in my opinion. So we’ll just have to see….i also intend on getting my ‘78 rewired and maybe running at least by the end of the summer….she’s too pretty to just sit.