Born of Divine Blood

Well it appears the choice has been made for me……went to the gym and did 4 sets of deadlift….so weak i couldn’t do more than 405 for 5……tried to do some lat pulldowns, and had shooting pains in my left shoulder, so i left………..

And i’m taking at least the next whole week off from the gym, maybe more if my knee doesn’t heal, but i’m creating it healing, along with all my other issues. What are the facts? The facts are for my current level of supplements i’ve been grossly overtraining with my 6 on 1 off schedule plus an hour of cardio in the morning 5 days a week. So i think after this healing sesion i drop to a 3 on 1 off routine for the weights. Keep my same day rotation though and then maybe drop some sets…maybe not….the added rest might help make it so i can go to town.

Of course….this puts some wrenches in my competition plans….the fact is i’m not lean….and even one week is a big difference. So after this week off i’ll be 18 weeks out from the Branch Warren, so i guess i’ll play it by ear, if I must i’ll not do that show and just prep for one of the ones after that that I planned on doing….i really had my heart set on doing that show though, it being in texas and by metroflex and such. I guess after this week i could just pay up and do a bodpod so i know exactly where i am….but it’s so expensive and money is very very tight.

As far as dieting during this I don’t know what i should do. With no working out to keep a deficit i’d have to eat like 2k cals a day…..and i’ve not eaten that for 10 years. I don’t know if it would be more important to do that or just eat ‘normally’ (3k cals or so) and give my body lots of fuel to heal.

Needless to say i’m starting to get very distraught about my knee. I don’t know what to do about it. It’ll hurt bad and i’ll decide maybe i should take some time off and then the next day it is in almost no pain at all.

Yesterday i had all but decided that i was going to take all next week off (unless there is significant improvment by monday) and low and behold it didn’t hurt at all doing cardio today and hurt minimally walking down stairs. I did drink almost a bottle of mona vie yesterday and took some advil as well as continuing my regiment of 6000-8000mg of glucosamine a day and a lot of calcium as well. Also iced it the past two nights for a good long while. I’m going to continue this protocol all weekend and see what happens. I think regardless i should not train legs AT ALL on monday and let it have off.

It’s just scaring me because we’re getting to a point where if it doesn’t heal and/or gets worse then i have to stop my contest prep….and it’s not like i’m ahead of the game in that department so that would force me to find other shows to do and completely replan all of this. Which i don’t want to do in the least.

I would go to a doctor….would have gone to one a long time ago, but I don’t have insurance and have just enough money in the bank to pay for my rent so it’s not really much of an option that i see. Needless to say when i’m older i wont be near as irresponsible about money as my parents have been throughout their entire lives. But alas i have to get through at least my undergraduate degree before i can really start taking much charge in that department.

So today i am sure of it, a phantom bruise has appeared on the inside part of my knee right where the joint is. There was no outward trauma at all to cause it as far as i’m aware. The pain has also shifted that way from more of the center of the knee. I was seriously thinking during part of cardio about taking two weeks off, not doing the first show i had scheduled, to see if i can get this thing to heal and knit. But i don’t see how it would happen that fast. It’s been hurt much much longer than that with training and hasn’t knit yet.

And then……a sign, Thor is expressing his displeasure at my dishonorable thoughts, he’s wrought quite the storm here. I believe this is meant to tell me that I need to persevere, and that in time my knee will heal up. I’m kind of thinking that maybe this added trauma that caused the bruise might tell my body to get its act together on the healing front here.

lol as if i’d ever quit anyway…..silly Thor

So i did legs yesterday, and went after it after essentially giving my knee 3 weeks off of quads, i can’t afford to lose any more muscle. So it’s either put up or shut up time for the knee, I’m giving it no quarter, and it’s been complaining about it as of this morning quite a bit…..it actually hurts in a different way now (can’t imagine that’s good) now it hurts on the inside joint area when i push on it. Blech…..so sick of the damn thing. But it STRUCTURALLY functions fine, so wtf….not like i’m ever gonna take months off of training totally unless there’s a 100% guarantee that it will heal up completely so i guess just continue on….fighting the good fight, doing my contest prep and getting lean. Hopefully it’ll be like last year with my achilles tendon and just start disappearing…..

other news…..I’ve dropped my business degree….it was getting gay. The reason i did it to begin with was to give me something to break up my physics classes that was easy. And at this point they’ve removed the easy part by virtue of adding a ridiculously retarded amount of work for the simple financial concepts. So new game plan and the final gameplan in my academic career is to finish my physics degree and get into graduate school in astrophysics……prolly get my doctorate.