MarlenaS

I’d love to compete this year. I’ve never done that before so I don’t have much knowledge abut how it can affect women body I mean hormons, period etc.

I wish to have a baby later next year  so the question : Is it hard to get pregnat after competition, anyone knows some articules about that?

I have done all my workouts for this week so I can relax now. Still working on diet. I eat clean but too much. I feel like my hunger will never go. I’ve made a joke that I eat only once per day - I start in the morning and finish in the evening. The best bit is - I eat more than my boyfriend (he’s more than 200pounds). Ok he doesn’t eat clean but it’s funny to see both of us eating dinner and he suddenly put the fork down and says he’s finished while am cleaning plate to the last bits.

Am strugling here, have to lose around 12pounds more but can’t see it happen with my current eating.

Am so happy with myself this week. I’ve done all workouts, back on track, dieting goes well. I can feel my body responding so quickly to this training. Honestly 2 weeks more and I’ll be in the best shape ever!

I’ve learn how to keep my peace no matter what kind of storm is going on outside. That’s the key. If you don’t let things affect you and have ability to look at some situatinons from diffrent points of view nothing can move you!

Today I had one of those days when I was thinking about changing my routines and even a place. I like my city but I feel like there are too many people around me who dont have any ambition. Girls just get pregnat, guys stays in the same job for years, nobody progress. There is nothing wrong if they are comfortable and happy with their lives, but that’s not enough for me. I feel like nobody supports me here. I hear people saying ‘girls with muscles don’t look good’ etc, I feel like I don’t belong to this part of the world.

All of that really makes me appreciate this site. People who I’ve never met keep me motivated and strong.

I know what I wanna do with my life but it’s harder to stay on track when most of your time you spend with people who have no idea what is clean eating and think there is sth wrong with you if you refuse sugar with a coffe or batter on your toasts. "And why brown  bread? White is tastier! "

Another great day!

I knew it would be hard to ‘just get up and do it’ but it wasn’t as bad as I had expected.  I hit a gym this morning. I am not a morning person and I hate to get up early but scheduling my workout for an early session really helps to plan rest of the day and even stay more motivated to avoid junk food.

I was woken up by alarm clock early and automatically (that’s one of my bad morning habits) I put it on snooze and tried to get back to bed. I closed my eyes but sleep didn’t come.  Thinking how nice, warm and comfortable I felt under the duvet I decided not to go and to train in the afternoon.  But still couldn’t sleep and the longer I couldn’t sleep the more I felt guilty for being lazy, thinking ‘what if I would feel too tired to work out like I had felt  yesterday and I end up not exercising at all?’

Not to train another day, another week –that’s too much.  That’s too disturbing thought to sleep with.

So I got up. Had breakfast and jump on the bike. Fresh, cold wind in the face as I was riding towards the gym really helped to wake me up completely and even warm up for the weights.

There were only six people in the gym. Quiet. I can’t imagine a better time to have my workouts now. Nobody stares at you, all machines and weight were free, I don’t have to wait for anybody to finish their workout so I can have a jump on bench press or smith’s machine anytime.  Suddenly gym feels like my private place I can do whatever I want.

Workout.  I didn’t have as much energy. My body and mind is just not use to pushing myself to limits at that time. I shouldn’t complain thought as I know many girls would be proud to work out as hard as I did but I know myself and what I can do. I don’t train like those girls.  I am squeezing to 110% of what am capable of.  In every exercise I want to push myself to limits I want to feel muscle failure in last reps unless I will do it again and with bigger weights.

I trained hard but I know I can train harder.

I have to mention as well I will need to concentrate on my shoulders more. I want them to get much stronger and bigger.  After cutting I will look like a fit girl who plays with some dumbbells in a gym. Good enough for summer time. But I desire more athletic look. I want to compete.  Plus I don’t play with dumbbells J

Summing up,

1)      I have to give myself credit  for getting up early

2)      Since now on I will train in the morning

3)      Feeling happy and satisfied

I love every secound of tody! I spend lots of time in d morn looking at my body in the mirror and I can see changes ( especially waistline). I feel am getting leaner and my clothes are too big… . I have to plan some shopping trips with my mates.

Still there is a room for improvement when it comes to my workouts, but I know it can only get better. I’ve decided to move everything around and start working out in d morn. It’s not gonna be easy first as am not a morninig person at all. Hopefully I will get some kick from hydroxycut  I have oredered (still waiting for delivery).

Dieting is ok. But back to carbs in d evening again to make sure metabolism is alright after noughty behaviour last week.

Breakfast: porridge, raisens, egg whites,

Post-workout: EAS protein meal replacement shake

Lunch: beef steak, potato, salad white cofee

Pre-workout: fruit youghurt, white cofee

Post-workout: protein shake, energy drink

Dinner: fish, potato, brocoli

I have found that my motivation is dropping down.  Everything suddenly become more difficult clean eating  and gym and I feel like I let myself into vicious circle bad eating day – no gym, missing training – eating crap again. I feel like I have less energy and want to sleep all the time. I know what cost this behaviour and I have to create a plan to get back to my routine and fight for the body  and life I want.

Plan for tdy:

1)      I have to put myself into more positive state of mind ( make up-looking good always makes me feel better, read supersite – get more motivation,  acupuncture to distressed)

2)      Train ( as soon as am back to my exercise routine I will feel as I have achieved sth and  feel more happy about myself)

3)      Work ( just think about money – am such a money motivated person)

It’s a crazy time! I have to pack my things (moving house), work, train, study. I feel like everything is out of place. And this month is so important as am back to my strenght program and I have my goals set up high. I know I have to make it. I will start my workouts with my PT ( he’s been training a British Champion and the girl looks amazing)  and I want to prove that I have all it takes to compete and be succesful.

I am really happy that my body is still strong and can lift heavy after a break I had. I thought I would start this week gently just to ‘zone in’ to my gym routine but ‘gently’ is not me. I went even for bigger weights then I was lifting be4! Tmrw is the last and the hardest workout for this week, can’t wait.

I can feel am shrinking, my jeans, my clothes, scale everything speaks to me! I’ve lost all my Christmas weight and more and the best bit I had bad eating days and a week off from treining (flu) and am still losing pounds! It motivates me even more to stay on track as I know I can loose even more if I can eliminate bad habits. Number 1 to fight is coffe with milk, I wish I could just swap it for a black coffe but milk is tasty, creamy and make coffe less bitter and ………

Well, it’s got to go! Any ideas how to get rid of those kind of goodness which at the end does nothing  to the body?

Feeling much better,  for the last few days I swap my protein for tones of fruits and yoghurt in order to recover from flu I realy enjoy eating like that but at  the end  that’s not the way to a sexy body I work for.

So tmrw am back to my protein with a little curbs and I don’t feel happy at all. I will miss my fruits.

Need some more help with motivation. It’s all in my mind but sometimes I feel like I have two of them (good and the bad one).