Need an outlet to focus on me…So I’m back bb.com;)
We’ll lately i’ve been really out of wack ( as in diet, appearance, goals). Nothing has been seeming to go right. I don’t like how I have let myself go ….more importantly I hate the fact that nothing is about me anymore. I have wound myself so tight in being "US" that now I feel like Im the weakest link. I just want to be stronger mentally and physically. I did the physical part before….but even then the Eurphoric high of getting all the way down to 89lbs and 8% bodyfat…. didn’t heal me and made me feel more crushed with the realization that me staying that small could not be healthly.
So BB.com Im back.( all 126 pounds of me) No promises. Just taking it a day at a time. I need my spark again. The competition is the self image of myself. I feel ugly and fat. My goal is to be beatufiul to me…so that others can see me as such.
Thats all that is on my mind now peeps,
I have missed you all greatly
Mahogany
October 9, 2009 at 1:56 pm
Screw what anyone else thinks. You have to love you cuz if you don’t, who will? You seem to be at a healthy weight so now get back to the gym and sweat out some of your whoas. Life happens but its how we handle the ups and downs that truly makes the difference. You need ME time or you will go crazy!
October 9, 2009 at 1:57 pm
yo divine amen. i love the hell out of me. sometimes for hours. ok, minutes.