MILF HUNTRESS

Guys.  I can’t wait to get a camera back.  Because I think I look……FANTASTIC!  lol  I’ve received two a$$ compliments in the last week!  One from girlfriend at the gym.  “You are getting a pop butt.”  One from hubby.  “I have always been an -ss man, and YOU have the PERFECT -SS.”  Well sh-t f-ck, but it took me FIVE long f-cking years to build one.  Miracles CAN and do happen, so never give up hope.  I could say it was the cable kick backs,…but that would only be partly true.  It came from loving my own a$$…flat butted, cellulited flaws and all.   NOTHING ever grows from hatred.  SO I decided to start loving my own bum anyway.  THAT’S when I started building me a nice little shelf.  What can I say?  ALL THINGS grow with love.

So now I have been contacted by none other than the maker, creator, of sh-muscle.com, Mr Brian Moss himself (brianmoss.com) about the possibility of doing a photo shoot.   Dan Ray of buffbunnies.com and Muscular Development on July 4.  These are two HUGE names in the fitness photo industry in less than 3 weeks.  I am going crazy!  I want to dance, sing, shout, pray, lift, make a g-d damn porn video.  Anything but diet.  Optimum Nutrition tonight!

So I am 10 days in with 22 days left to go.  Woke up with my flat bellied 3 pack who some day hopes to grow up to be a 6 pack.  We all have our dreams even abs. 

Had a nice bicep workout last night.  I dissed cardio in favor of an hour thirty of weights.  My plans are only one full day off in the next 22 days…I will know when I need it.  It’s my “free card”. 

Other than that it will be DOUBLES 5 days per week.  Two days off cardio, weights only.  One day off weights; cardio only. 

Lift for 6, cardio for 5.

Monday I will up cardio from 40 minutes to an hour.  In another week I will increase cardio to an hour+ten.  Then an additional ten minutes the following week. 

I skipped my creatine p.w.o. last night but did drink a low carb Monster my husband brought home from work.  A total of 20 calories and 6 sugars.  That and 3 tilapia were my din-din. 

Today I want 20 deadlifts.

I think my body looks nice…

Ok ignore the face (no makeup, big pimple), ignore the hair (lake and sand hair),  ignore the foot in one corner, and mess in every direction

just check out that f-cking BOD!

LOL

 What you envy or admire in someone else is a quality you feel to be lacking within.  Instead of forever reaching outwards for this quality in another, (or tearing it down), BUILD THIS QUALITY WITHIN YOURSELF.  Become the very aspects which you crave.  A whole person never needs to be added onto.  A whole person is 110% satisfactory with self.  They give and share of themselves out of this abundance.  People feel filled in their presence…or not.  The important part being, that this person feels filled within themselves.

You have to be a little crazy to love this, don’t you think?  You have to be a lot crazy to be this passionate about anything.  Yep, Jesus, Moses, Abraham, Isaac,….all crazy bastards.  Likewise non-biblical bastards as well.  Alexander, Caesar, Christopher Columbus, Leonardo DaVinci, Mozart, Beethoven, Van Gogh, Cleopatra, Shakespeare, Joan Of Arc, Queen Elizabeth, Marco Polo,……..all off their rocker.  I’m a little off my rocker myself.  Which is why my husband loves me.  It is nice to be loved not in spite of such a thing, but because of it. 

I wanted to come on today and apologize for the blatant narcissism of yesterday, but I just couldn’t do it.  I have come to the place of, “When you walk the walk, you can talk the talk.”  Would Arnold apologize for declaring himself King of the Mountain?  Heavens no.  He would just work 10 times harder to ensure his spot remained.

I have worked very hard for my status.  I won’t apologize.

But let’s talk for a minute about the differentiation between healthy pride and unhealthy pride.  Healthy pride is acknowledgment that one made great effort and succeeded in one’s effort.  Unhealthy pride is believing that one’s effort defines one’s worth.

Yes I have a beautiful body.  But my (and your) value comes from the mind of God.

We are the same You and I.  I just look better than you do.

If you want your child to grow up with issues surrounding their body, be sure to send them to church on Sunday.  There you will find a plentitude of women, likewise instructed in the ways of shame, to be sure that your daughters do the same.  Seriously, sometimes I look at myself and I think, "it is a sin and a shame to have a body so fine".  I certainly don’t feel this way when I look at other women’s bodies.  It seems absolutely alright to me that other women look so fine.  It is my own body I take charge against.  How can one possibly look so good,….so doggone hot I wonder, and yet still get away with it?