My talking out loud

I often wonder about this…Now that I have lost almost 95lbs, am I supposed to feel diffrent? I know I look diffrent infact people that once knew me will have a conversation with me and not even realize that its me the once 220lbs mom of their kids friend. Or I love this one… some guy at the gym was amazed of my before and after photos, he put it very well when he said most people lose weight but still look like themselves just smaller he said I could have commited a crime lost weight and no one would have known it was me..lol! Its true I look sooo different especially in the face, but the strange thing is I don’t feel any diffrent. I am still me, I am happier now but I haven’t changed at all on the inside. I am still a total goof ball, I was taught when I was young to never forget to laugh at yourself, and I have perfected this! People that know me know that what comes up comes out and know that I am always joking or finding humor in everything, even the tough situations, but I was always like that! At 220lbs I was the same person just in a bigger shell! I think sometimes people look at me and think that because I lost weight and got this new figure that I am diffrent on the inside and that is so far from the truth. I am probably more self concious now then ever, I fidget with my clothes all the time, if people look my way I assume my zippers down or I am dressed like a dork, hubby keeps saying to get over it, get used to it but how can you. Someone told me the other day that it takes time and eventually your mind will catch up and you will get over that "big girl" mentality but I kinda like being the same girl I once was, just cause my looks change do I have to change??Who wants to go through life thinking their S*** doesn’t stink, what fun would that be? Personally I am proud that I was once a big girl, it made me stronger as a person, as a mom and as a wife. I never will go back to where I was physically but sometimes I feel that at least back then people didn’t look at me like I am something I am not. I just want to be me, the once big mom of 2 who loves to laugh especially at myself, who is addicted to peanut m&m’s, and who worked my butt off to get to this weight loss goal ! So for others that have gone through this weight loss transformation, are you diffrent now?