My talking out loud

Morning all!

I recently made a decision to hit the stage again, this time however I will not back out! I had so much self doubt last time, and It was taking all the shine out of my moment so with only 9 weeks of prep left I backed out. Looking back I realize how stupid I was! I look at my prep pics and even I can see now the potential I had. Foolish me!!! But in the end it was the right choice as this time around it makes me more aware of my mental issues…lol! So here I go again…PREP! This time around I am scared of not making it (getting lean enough), so only a very select few of my peeps know about it. I am however going to work my a$$ off (literally too) and follow the nutrition to a T and most of all RELAX and enjoy this process after all its what I am choosing to do not something that I have to do. I had an awsome coach last time..Big shout out to team jpfit! So amazing are Jason and Cat! I KNEW that with them prepping me I could rock it, but again …my mental issues took over..lol! Look at my progress pics, their skills are on display by the transformation I made from dec. to march….amazing they are!!! But…… This time i went a diffrent route, for a few reasons..1. embarrasment, I didn’t want to tell them i was gonna "try" again..get over it right??! 2.Local, I wanted someone close by in the event of a melt down and for support the day of.  So, my coach this go around is a WNBF (i think i wrote that right) pro, she is a former bodybuilder who turned figure, so she has tons of stage experience. She lives about 1.5 hrs from me and gets the emotional aspect of the prep. I worked with her last time as she was my posing coach.She will paint me, help stuff me in my suit and calm me down on stage day! Im very excited to work with her, but……Prep is soooooooo diffrent this time. I have total faith that she know what she is doing, its just strange to have a cheat meal and not actually start full blown prep till 12 weeks out.. Kinda nice but, scarey too. I keep getting reminded that she has to get 20lbs off of me, yep, gotta love honesty huh? althouh the way it gets said to me is" your 20lbs overweight, we got work to do!!!" lol! See why Im worried!!!! lol! So here it goes..my journey to the stage begins, only this time I will not back out! That being said, if this momma doesn’t lose the muffin top and back fat…this momma ain’t puttin on the heels!!!!!! LOL! But It won’t be cause I didn’t work hard enough!!!!

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