MAR22CA’s BodyBlog

Yeah so I am leaving this desert very soon and I am disappointed in myself because I feel that I should be alot farther with my body than I am.  I think what hurt me was the indecisiveness of what my goals were.  One minute I wanted to be huge the next I wanted to be cut and the bottom line is I didnt stick to a plan either way. I appreciate all my folks on this website that have been talking with me and what not.  I plan on submitting a few more pics prob tomorrow so you can share in the disappointment with me lol.  Thanks for listening and I just felt like talking lol.

So I just picked up this new fat burner from zupplements.com call AMPAGEN and this stuff is the shit.  I have only been using it a few days and can see and feel changes already.  It is crazy.  P.S. when they say start with one trust me listen I missed a whole day of sleep I was so wired.

Does anyone else have those one group of friends that drink, smoke, and generally dont care about how they look.  Sometimes i wish I wasnt so consumed with looking half-way descent.  I mean really we drive ourselves nuts worrying about what we can fix and they dont have the stress.  Put then again if I dont want to see myself naked who the hell else would lol.

Well I went back yesterday and had a good back and chest day.  I think I was just  sluggish from all the extreme dieting.  i am okay now.  Besides i only slacked for like a week and a half.  The kid is back

I dont know what it is but i feel like I am still suffering a diet hangover from when I unhealthily lost all that weight.  I have no motivation and am tired as hell (prob coming down from Hydroxycut).  I would appreciate any support in commencing OPERATION:  OFF MY ASS

Well,  all the tests are said and done, the measurements are over and now i can start putting muscle on again.  No more rabbit food lol.

I had to lose 2 inches off my waist in like a day and a half and I have to say it was the worst thing ever lol.  In the process I lost 3 inches and 8 pounds (not healthy way).  I just want to say thanks to all that supported me through these nauseas times lol.

Well i got on the scale yesterday and I am back down to 250 also the same today.  I guess that 5 extra pounds was from bloating, I guess it is that time of month for me lol. 

Well I have abandoned my less than 1000 calorie a day diet and eating normally again and already back up 4 pounds lol.  The good news is I feel decent and my stomach is not constantly on Empty.  Thank you all for the support

I am starting to think that I am not taking the right approach towards losing fat.  I am finding it hard to get below 250 I wish I didnt care about the number as much as do.  I dont feel I am really fat in fact if I wanted to gain 20 more pounds it would be cool.  I just dont think I can run with so much body weight.  I am just venting lol.