Power. Speed. Center.

A list of what’s going on in my head right now…mmhmm….

I have a chemistry exam tomorrow, I should study

How can I help my mom out? Why won’t anyone hire me…I’ve applied to 60 different places…

I absolutely have NO MONEY to even pay for my school books anymore

Where can I get money?

I’m tired of stealing food….but I’m starving

My boyfriend helps me feel better..but the situation at home is getting worse

I think we may soon be homeless…

I have to sell my favorite books for cash

I dig through garbage to find bottles and cans that I can recycle for cash, imagine seeing a 19 yr old digging through garbage….

I’m putting up a strong front, but deep down I’m falling apart.

I cry myself to sleep

I only feel happy when I’m lost in thought during exercise

I feel like God is punishing my family right now, I’m not angry with him…but I don’t know why he’s doing it.

No matter how hard I try to stay positive, there’s too much at stake now and I just have the hardest time seeing the light in anything financially…

I can’t even afford FOOD anymore…(I mean…come on…I stole PEANUT BUTTER…how bad is that!?)

So I’m just letting you all know, that even though I’ve only got perhaps…like..$100.00 left to my name, and many debts to take care of (let’s not forget my mom’s debts, I’m helping her with those too)…even though I’m all kinds of dirt poor..I’m pulling through somehow.

I guess that brings me to the more important aspects of this note:

Currently I have a job interview coming up in the next week, I hope I pass and get the job. The economy is so messed up right now. I’ve applied to over 60 places around the area (and even some wayyy WAAAY out near the SFO airport…that’s more than 20 miles away from where I live)….none of these places are hiring so it’s been a tiresome 2 months for me.
I appreciate all the small donations of a dollar here, a quarter there from some of you guys, seriously thanks. It helps to buy some food, seeing as how it’s nearly impossible for me to eat 3 days in a row now (I’m living off of some scraps and old bags of bread and chicken) and whatever help I can get from my lovely boyfriend haha…but he’s also in a financial rut, so I can’t always depend on him…

So if you guys are lookin’ to help Mary out (without digging into your pockets, coz I know none of you will send me money xD) here’s some ways you can help me out:

**If you’re buying celluc or supplements (this is to my fitness buddies), it would help if you used my 10% discount code for whatever you’re buying (the kits, the bottles, the shaker, the bags). Every little bit helps so please, go ahead and use SP558 at celluc or.com when you make a purchase (if you make a purchase).

**If you actually wanna donate money to me (meaning I don’t pay you back, you’re doin it out of the kindness of your heart…God bless you lol) then via paypal is great. You can send me whatever you wish to send, to inukami_32@hotmail.com and I’ll appreciate even a dollar.

**I go around digging through garbage cans now, looking for soda cans and bottles that I can recycle for cash. If you guys have the ability to drive out here to the city, and you have bags upon bags of bottles and cans, please bring em to me at my apartment, I’ll appreciate that even more. Make sure they’re clean too please!! not full of soda…haha…

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I don’t use the money for guilty pleasures…everything I need is so i can pay bills, help my mom, and buy my college school books and food. So I really am glad for the help people are giving me, thanks for lending a hand…

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