Cruiser’s Current Thoughts

Your at work all night long, tv keeps playing the following clip, how can one NOT fall into temptation:

My cousin still doesnt know what to make for dessert on thanksgiving. I have the answer…

Ice cream and cake and cake, Ice cream and cake and cake, Ice cream and cake do the Ice cream and cake,

Now slip slip slip SLIDE, slip slip slip SLIDE!

That’s my saying that I used more in the beginning of the year to just get my ass in the gym and do the damn thing. And the results in May were the best I’ve ever had in my life. I had the best abs, the tightest chest, the biggest arms, most detailed quads in my life. As cocky as I’ll sound: I looked GOOD. That was my biggest accomplishment in fitness so far.

Since then, the lovely stressors of life took over. Change of location, change of careers, change of life in general (and Im STILL happy to have left the damn service). But since, I’ve noticed, fitness wise, that my body has changed as well and not for the better. Im finding it more and more difficult to get close to the body I had in May. I saw another picture where Im not posing and my arms were big! (compared to what to what I always had and what they are now…)

Even though I work at a gym, I try to remain professional and not work out while on duty. Afterward, Im so sleepy that I just want to get home and sleep. Then, in the whole mess in trying to find another job to keep up with the bills, cleaning my place, and finding damn documents for the military to support my disability claim and then screw up my sleeping schedule to attend school and finally still wanting to perform at musician’s open mic nights…damn.

And nutrition wise, when I work, I tend to eat a lot of rice and beans. Figure that’ll give me one of the best combination of fat, carbs and protein along with essential vitamins and minerals. Plus I drink a lot of water. But on my off days, Im so tired of eating the same thing I break the habit and eat junk, mainly because it is available, but also because I need to keep moving to do get to school, open mic, veteran’s affairs…

And lastly, yeah, all the political bullsh*t going on about the swine flu, Copenhagen treaty, and even more troops being sent off to fight a pointless war is robbing a lot of my attention. Sorry, I know a lot of people think this is all just meaning less conspiracies and the people that talk about it are loony. But when sh*t does hit the fan, and we begin to pay for CO2 that we produce by any means, and its going to scratch the heads of the common people, and fill the rich with even more money that they will be able to do anything they want. And if you don’t believe this, listen to our ‘fearless’ president say it through his own mouth. ‘Force’ and ‘that will cost money’ are used.

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Sorry, but this is whats going on in my head. I want to get physically prepared. I want to have the body I had in May. But I do need more legal tender notes to pay bills and a place to live. Food to eat. I wish I could get that May body back, but its going to be a true challenge this time. Unless I completely dedicate my full time to fitness, I dont know if I can make it possible.

In good news, I am finally taking the first step in becoming a boot camp instructor. I think this will help me out a lot, but thats if they decide to hire me.

-Cruiser

I can’t seem to find the focus I had in the beginning of the year in the weight room. Im sure it’ll come back eventually, still trying to get accustom to this schedule, the gym, and no speed bag. (sad)

But I have the gym, I have access to aerobic classes, and I have a lot of free time. So now its just a matter of getting focused.

Eating is back to spot-on target, and sleep will be synchronized in time. I may go back to taking Cytogainer, just so I can get something in me quick between my workout and getting ready for work and relieving the person in the front desk.

Now just need to gain momentum on the weights, and see where it leads. The belly is almost down to a tolerable size, but strength was lost and build up will be a minor set back.

Best of all: I am riding my bike every single DAY. And loving it. Its why I changed the user name to cruiser mike. (wanted just cruiser, but they didnt pick that option…) Im always cruisin’ somewhere.

Alright. Enough from me. I’ll leave you with a joke. (tuesday n friday were the best ones…)

A Blonde’s Diary

GOOD NIGHT DEAR DIARY:
This has been such an exciting week. I can hardly wait for tomorrow to come so I can try out a new recipe on Ron. If only we could get a larger oven, I would love to surprise him with Chocolate Moose.

One after another after another after another after another….

Yeah, discouraging. Wears a person down. Im only human. Well, half human, half ewok. haha! (dont mind me. Im looking for humor.)

Found out I can get a degree in nutrition. Fancy that! So now Im really contemplating becoming a full time student. But also work part time as ANYTHING at a gym at this point! Damn.

Veteran’s Affairs is becoming a headach, job searching is discouraging, and this ridiculous tan Im getting from riding around everywhere is starting to burn!I got the arms tanned, and my face around my glasses tanned. Lovely look. The ladies go WILD!   …trying to run away from me…

11 days I have left to complete my certification, and Im hoping I can concentrate enough to finish it all this week.

No gym yet, as I can’t find any gym with a speed bag let alone a punching bag. I hate settling for less, but sometimes ya just gotta bite the bullet and do it.

Im getting bored with the limited exercises Im doing at my place. I wanna squat heavy again, damnit! And it feels like if I go for a jog around my neighborhood, i might get either shot, shanked, or receive a beat down. Okay, not that bad actually, but theres just no good places to jog around here. i should just swim a lot at the pools. That’ll be fun. 15 feet one way, then back. Do that about 200 times and I might just get a decent cardio session in.

Okay, done for the current events. Wish I was getting some better luck, but so far blahhhhhhhh. In time.

Diet is going good. Im eating a tuna sandwish for every single meal. this is day 3. I can do this! I can do this! Tuna breath sucks! I can do this!

So far so good, I hate UNPACKING!

Transition was good. I Arrived early saturday morning, after a straight shot from cheyenne. 17 hours on the road, I should NOT have driven that much! But I did, and I made it, and now Im here.

Weekend was with friend from new york since he was in town. Lots of drinking, lots of eating. Needless to say, diet has been beyond sh*t. Soon, I’ll get back on track, but just been busy since sunday after they left. Lots to do, adjust, clean up, unpack, unpack, clean up, unpack, unpack, unpack…

Yeah, thats mostly what I’ve been doing. For a single guy that was in a one bedroom apartment, I HAVE A LOT OF SH*T.

But as far as training goes, I brief workouts to get my heart rate up. SOMETHING, at minimum.

I missed a lot, thanks for the comments on the previous blog. Still wish everyone the best.

FEELS GOOD TO BE FREE!

And not in a good way…

These past 2 1/2 weeks have been rather…unefficient as far as nutrition and exercise goes. Don’t get me wrong, I still hit the gym for at least an hour for weight training or minimum 30 minutes of cardio for non weight training days…but it hasn’t been a consistency. Especially last week. NO sort of training what so ever and diet was…lets just say I ate out a lot.

But then the movers, not only did they take my BED, but all my pots and pans! I can’t cook a decent meal. I kept my rice cooker…only to realize they took the lid too. DAMNIT!, I can’t win! HAHA, but I do what I can. I bought a lot of fruit so I would rather just eat a bananer instead of hopin on my bike and going somewhere…but the bike ride always sounds a lot better anyway.

So, Fat Attack. Thats what me and a friend of mine call going out and eating till it hurts. And I just had one today. Delish! like all hell, but damn, somewhere between 1000-1500 calories is what we consumed. So pretty much, water and fruit is all Im eating for the rest of the day. And possibly tomorrow too.

Do I feel guilty? Sorta, kinda, no. This is the last time I get to hang out with the few friends I have here and want to have a good time doing whatever with them. Most of the time it’s either eating or drinking. So I do. Again, Im not gonna see some of these people either for a long time, or possibly never again.

Have you eve known the exact moment your ever gonna see someone for the very last time? I’ve caught this moment TONS of times since I’ve been in the military. Overseas, deployments, training camps…it sucks each and every time. But I know in the back of my head that Im never gonna run into them for the rest of my life. Then there are those that mean so much that I will MAKE the effort, or know they’ll make the effort, to meet again down the road.

Well, I’ve been going through both senarios for the past month now. Those I’ll never see, and those I wont see for a long time. Its hard, it sucks, but it is what it is. Time for me to move on, and same with them.

3 nights left here in good ‘ol cheyenne (chuckles) and probably the last 2 nights will involve some sort of food fest and delicious alcoholic beverages. Exercies will continue, mostly whole body movements to engage more muscle fibers all around.

I understand that this wont protect me from this sh*tty diet, but at least be a sort of barrier. haha.

So that is that. Clean all day today. Work on van tonight. Finish cleaning tonight. Out Process fully tomorrow, last time with Special Friends, then who knows that night. Thursday is…I dont know yet. Anything else I have left. I guess pack my van so I can take off friday morning…

Part of me is sad

other part is THRILLED! :)

I remember the VERY first time I said ‘ENOUGH!’ with my weight. It was back in middle school, and I told my mother that I was tired of being fat and chunky and having man boobs at 14/15 years old. (damn…10 years ago.) I said, ‘Im gonna start eating healthy and exercising every day! And Im going to start TONIGHT. So don’t worry about making dinner for me, Im eating a salad…’ Oh boy, I remember I was DETERMINED. She just said ‘okay’ and went along with it. So, I went and got a bowl and took my first step into a healthy lifestyle…

HAHA!, but this is the first step: I Got a handful of lettuse and put it in the bowl. Then I got half of a tomato, and put it in the bowl. Thats about as healthy as it got…cause then I got the crutons and added them. Then the bacon bits, then the cheese, then the big glop of ranch dressing. Oh, and a TALL glass of milk. 16 oz, we had the big plastic cups.
I remember it was DELICIOUS! And figured, ‘I can do this!’ Haha! Okay, I’ve come a LONG way since then, especially in this last year where my knowledge has grown a TON, but still have like 5 tons left to learn…

So I also noticed what happens when things dont go as planned. I have set schedules of things to do nearly every day of the week. Plain, simple, but I stick to it, and I stick to my diet/exercise. If ONE thing goes out of place, or doesn’t happen, the rest of the day, or week is F’ed. It happened today. I usually hang out with the friends on wednesday nights, but they didn’t call me to tell me it was cancelled. So I show up, call, find out its cancelled, and ponder on what to do for the next 2 hours…

So I go to the movies. I see transformers, and got a small popcorn. Yum, that was my ‘dinner’. I could have come home, SHOULD have come home, and studied and eaten a real meal, but at the time, my mind went blank and DESIRES took over. Today was when I finally realized when it happens. When things dont go as scheduled. I go out and do something stupid. This is not the first time, it happened 4 days last week in a ROW. Sucks, and it takes dicipline to get back on track.

But now I know when it happens, and maybe be prepared for future let downs. Maybe have a backup plan?

Just Go.

Well, I just made some beans (and they take FOREVER to cook) and they smelled good, so I want to have about a cup or so before I go to bed. But Im wondering if I should eat very LITTLE, or if its okay to have a small bowl or something. I know starchy carbs are not good anytime close to bed time, but beans are more fiber than anything. Just curious to get some peoples opinion.

Gym Time: Sumo Squats! DAMN! I am finally able to go a lot lower than usual, which makes me wonder if I’ve been doing squats right to begin with…but I definitely could not go as high as normal. Maybe Im targeting different parts of the muscles? Anyway, 200lbs on the sumo squat, and I was shaking! i loved it, no better feeling.

Then over to do machine calf raises with my legs bent, followed by leg extentions…my legs were WOBBLY! I couldn’t help but have a stupid ‘oh yeah’ grin on my face, Im sure people thought I was crazy or something. (if they only knew…) But following the leg extentions, I went to do some BB side to side lundges, and thats when my legs really began to shake to the point where I had to hold on or else I was gonna fall! haha! I was only taking minute long rest in between sets, and getting to the next exercise as quickly as possible. So I was MOVING! That gymboss is still doing me some good long after the Tabata nightmare.

Coming home, I got some sort of joy or happiness overwhelming me. Whats different today?! Absolutely nothing. I dont know why I was so uplifted. Today has been just like any other day. But I didnt lounge or slouch like other days after my workout. I put some beans to cook, started some corn tortilla dough, cooked my after workout food, cleaned dishes, made the tortillas, finished the beans, and Im feeling acomplished right now. Had to blog about it tonight, this does NOT happen often, or at all!

Anyway, lets see what everyone else has been up to today.

happy happy JOY JOY!

No seriously. It was a rather interesting challenge!

So Im hanging with the kids, and it gets to that time where they want me to carry, spin, give piggyback rides and run around…basically tire the hell outta me! But its okay, I enjoy it.

Anyway, this one kid, hes rather grow big for his age. Hes just as tall as me but weights 180, according to him. (and he felt like 180!) But I was putting kids on my shoulders and running around like that. He said, ‘Its my turn!’ as a joke, but I took it seriously! After some slight convincing, I got him to sit on my shoulders. It took some time to finally stand, using my arms to push down on my quads, but I got to a full stand, and was able to walk around with him on my shoulders… He was scared, I was shaking, but pretty impressed at the same time. He thought I was gonna fall, but I had full control at all times!

SEE! All this squatting is good for something! 280lb squat is my next goal. Here I come baby!

In other news, I finished my ‘Basic Nutrition’ book, and boy am I beat with info.

Fun Fact: it takes about 600 calories to evaporate 1 quart of perspiration. Sweat. So now you know why when your sick and have a fever why you tend to lose so much weight! EAT! keep them calories up, cause your burning them whether your doing anything or not!

Also, I ate nothing but sh*t today. a heavy lunch, and nothing to eat till the ‘going away’ in the late afternoon. But through the course of the day, I had 4 different types of cake. YEP! 4. They were all DELICIOUS!, but tomorrow its back to yum yum style of eating. Tuna, spinach, wheat bread, and bananas!

Im really tired now. Off to bed.

Good night…

I dont necessarily know what to write about. I had an interesting event go on today, but I dont know if I should blog about that since its not about me, and I dont think I have any business talking about it. Wanted to write another WAKE UP and talk about gold4cash.com, but I need to research that a bit more before I can prove my accusations. Maybe talk more about my true feelings about the military…but Im off duty and dont want to think about them.

Knowledge. DAMN, all this stuff Im reading about nutrition is overwhemling, but in a GREAT way. Im really excited to read more and more about the little details on vitamines and minerals, carbs, protein, fats. PLUS, my new shippment came in from BB.com and I got this nifty little book that goes into, from what I saw, extreme detail about each amino acid, proteins, basically nutrition in general. I can’t wait to be able to be somewhat classified as a dietitian!

I say somewhat because once I get the certification, Im going to go back into the books and gain more knowledge on nutrition. Over and over until I can truly know what the f*ck Im talkin about. And then I’ll say,’YEAH. Damn right I know what Im talkin about. Im the Motherf*ckin EXPERT. DAMNIT!’

Okay…to much cussing, it wont be like that. But I’ll feel like that! Everytime I eat Im reviewing what Im doing and the whole process of whats going on. Like I take a bite and think:

"Okay, saliva is breaking down the carbs right now, Im breaking down the proteins fats and carbs by chewing, and the more I chew the less work the stomach has, but work will have to be done somewhere, and now Im swallowing and its going through the esophogas, down into the stomach where it is breaking down everything more and now the stomach is absorbing the proteins, and also fighting to get carbs to pull the simple sugars out of the food and the liver will turn it into glucose and sent through the bloodstream to wherever the body needs the glucose and pancreas will spit out insulin for the body to absorb that glucose and use it to heal…."

and so on. Im facinated! Crazy cause I never thought this would be it. That this is what I want to be doing. More dietitian that an actual personal trainer, cause I think I need a better looking body, more fit and strong, before I tell others how to work out. My opinion.

But now Im done, guess I had something to blog about after all! Now Im off to study some more. haha can you imagine?

Motorbiker the Dietitian!