Cruiser’s Current Thoughts

And I dont know where to begin. I just dont have any drive. I have nothing to motivate me right now. Nothing to look forward to. Yes, I get out of this damn military in 2 months, but then, what next? I want to work at a gym, next january go to school for business, get my own place, and start my new life in Austin, Tx. This is what I have in my future so far.

…but then I think ‘What future?’

The gym keeps me busy, wednesday nights keep me busy, eating right keeps me busy, and BB.com keeps me busy. Now, theres one more thing thats been keeping me busy. I’ve started a trend of blogs Im calling ‘wake up’. Everything I research, (and there is TONS of sh*t out there) keeps me really busy. I dont know where everything is going, but it definitely seems like its going to sh*t. This kinda kills my spirit.

Today I did nothing. Should of done a lot of things, but mainly did nothing. I played guitar, which was fun. My voice has gone up in pitch some more so that kinda brightened my day. I realized that its really easy to eat healthy, but sacrificing taste by a LOT! Im serious, today for breakfast I had a sandwich with 2 egg whites and couple of slices of turkey. For lunch, I ate what was left of a lettuse head, a tomato, and a piece of bread. For dinner I just had a spinach, corn, and 7 egg white salad. Yum yum yum…Oh well, I want to gain weight, but I want to make damn sure its as lean as I can get it.

Im going to have to add another gym day to my new schedule, cause 2 days away from the gym is killing me. HA! Also, need to add another chest day, cause Im really tired of havin a small chest. I want my chest to be further out that my stomach. So we’ll see how this goes. Also, I bought 4 lettuse heads that Im gonna try to eat one whole head every other day. Also spinach, tomatos, broccoli, and of course my fruits. Taste is going out the window…HA!
Alcohol is slowly making its way back into my life more consistenly. I drank a little bit friday night, and then a full nights drinking saturday night. 7 calories for every gram in alcohol (I think thats right). I consumed a LOT. But I had fun, and I was able to spread whats going on a little bit to a few of my friends. I also decided that Im going to take a trip up to canada before I get out of the military. Period. If I have to ride north by myself, I’ll do it. A random thought that popped into my head and Im going to make it a reality. Canada, here I COME!

I will keep moving forward, I will keep doing my thing. I am the type of person that thinks ‘If I dont do it, who else will?’ Its the reason I do a lot of things, its the reason I joined the military. Even being mexican, I still love this damn counrty, and will always fight for it. Even though Im getting out of the military, I feel like theres more for me to do. I WILL do my part, I just dont know what that part is yet. And I hope to find out before I completely fall apart.

Let freedom ring

These are just videos for your viewing entertainment. Enjoy!

***Okay, Im not targeting MMA, American Idol, or Jack in the Crack directly. Im using them as examples. This is what is used to entertain YOUR mind, and feed your gut, and BULL-F*CKIN-SHIT that is fed to you to blind you from the truth. They want to Dumb Americans, and this is how they do it:

***I dont even know how to conclude this post. I’ll leave you with one more video. If you really want to educate yourself further, research this sh*t. You do NOT have to believe me, its happening already. Last post I mentioned the North American Union. From what I’ve read, that will probably be a reality by the end of this year, and the Amero will be in place. But you wont care, cause your ENTERTAINED.

Wake Up

But first the funny:

Hilarious!

Workouts: Okay, I dont know what I was thinking before. I keep track of my workouts in a log book. I mark a line down every single page so I can fit more on just one page per week. Thats been going on since the first date I have marked on that log n even on my old log. Well, before this week, every week would fit in one page, some more or less than others. THIS past week, I fit an entire weeks exercises on one half of the page with room to spare. I still have the other side of the same page for next week.

What does this mean? It means I was training like crazy again doing a lot of exercises per week, OR, Im just doing a lot less exercises now. Before, it was 5-7 exercises per day, now its 4-5 exercises per day. Before I’d go to the gym 5-6 times a week, now Im going 4 times a week.

The schedule is:

Monday-Chest/Back 2 chest, 2 back, 5-6 sets for each

Tuesday- Hams/Quads 4 leg exercises 4-5 sets each

Thursday-Delts/Arms 2 delts (one type of shoulder press to hit the tri’s, then one raise) 2 bicep, 1 tricep isolated, 4-5 sets

Friday- Abs/Calves/Lowerback/Forearms- 2 calves, 2 forearms, 2  core exercises, 4-6 sets each. I will begin each friday with 30 min of jumproping

Im hoping that this helps me to heal better and fully ready for the next time I workout a certain body part. I want to keep lifting heavy, cause I want to gain mass. Cardio depends on how Im feeling, but it’ll mostly be either punching bag, speed bag, jumprope, or olyptical.

If anyone has any pointers on mass gaining, Im all ears. My food consumption has gone a bit up, but its more on grains and veggies. Gotta get them carbs in. Also, Im going to try to eat 14 egg whites a day starting tomorrow.

I love Milk

Okay, my previous blog has nothing to do with fitness. This one doesn’t either. It has to do with MY views on current events. I may be wrong, I may be right. But Im starting a trend of blogs Im gonna name "Wake up’s" cause while there are many people trying to spread the news on whats really going on, people will still ignore them. People will ignore me. Thats fine, I’ll try to do my best with keeping up with my fitness and nutrition, my certification, starting my life outside the military, AND keeping up to date with current affairs in the world. The last one is a bi*ch cause once I get started on even one report, one article, one video, it leads to MANY MANY MANY others. And there is just so much information out there that its just a sh*t load to take in at once.

With that being said, I will only talk about a few things at a time, and try my best to post refrences. These are my views, my opinions. Believe me or not, this is happening. And HAS been happening for a long time. Its a process thats been in the making since 1913, and Im sure even WAY before that. And we are blinded with entertainment, contentment, food, sex, drugs, a ‘happy go lucky’ life. Should life really be this easy? Theres a reason Im looking into learning about growing food and making my own foods, cause Im looking to learn to be self efficient. If I work for someone else, am I really free?

Im getting off subject. I get sidetracked WAY too easy. First, let me say that after reading a friends blog recently, I learned that she may be part of the mass layoffs coming soon. WHY! Why does it have to come down to that?! There is no f*cking reason she should have to take the hit for some other idiots! And not just her, the other MILLIONS of americans that HAVE or WILL lose their jobs in the future. Its not fair, but life ain’t fair, especially when its ‘all part of the plan’. Whats the plan?

The Amero.

Look it up. Its simple. Its another ‘idea’. They will make it sound REALLY good and make millions of americans love it and go forward with it. This is the future, this is what will help the economy. We WILL be going to this very very soon. The treaty has been signed, the crash of the economy has been accomplished. America is BROKE. The Amero is the answer.

What is the amero? Its whats going to take over the dollar. Will it be the new U.S. currency? Yes, along with canada and mexico. What? You read correctly.

The Amero will be the new currency for the North American Union. Canada, United States, and Mexico have all signed into the treaty, and soon there will be no borders. Just like the European Union, and their Euro. Think things are going ’swell’ over there?

I will end each of these post with: You do NOT have to believe me.

I wish everyone the best of luck in EVERYTHING, fitness, goals, and economically. These are disgusting times, and things are barely getting bad. I will, of course, keep posting other blogs on fitness n nutrition cause this somehow became a passion, but I can’t ignore reality as much as I would like to. Now Im off to the gym.
Wake Up.

Has anyone really thought that lately? Why are people losing their jobs? Why is NOTHING the federal gov is doing working? Why is ALL the damn taxes we pay to them not helping and where is it really going?

Okay, towards the end I kinda got a bit into what I really want to say. But the truth is, many people wont believe the truth. Even though its right in front of their face. Its in the media, its in the streets, its in the DAMN FOOD.

Money is the big picture. Life can’t continue without money. Money money money. Gotta have it. So all the money you have in your account is keeping you safe, right? You’ll be able to get by for another 5-7 months cause you got it saved up in case things start to go real bad. HA. All that ‘money’ is worthless. Meaningless. Its f*cking paper, or numbers. Thats all. There is no gold, silver, anything of value attached to it. Its all just an idea. ‘Hey, if I give you this paper, will you give me this?’ ‘Sure!’. Funny, huh?

Federal Reserve is not federal at all. Not part of the government. Not part of anything, except themselves. But these are the guys making our money. And they can give this money to whoever they please…friends, family, at whatever interest, or not, with no one to oversee their doings. And because of this, our economy is once again in a great depression. Don’t believe me? I DONT GIVE A F*CK. I dont care if you believe me cause its happening RIGHT F*CKING NOW. Look AROUND. General Motors is DONE. Stupid ass banks, after getting ALL THIS MONEY ARE STILL F*CKING UP! Nothing is working!

Quick lesson in history summed up: Federal Reserve was established in 1913, under their own rules, and began to print money as a Central Bank. It took them LESS THAN 20 F*CKING YEARS  to cause the Great Depression. How? Simple-’Heres money with interest, heres money with interest, heres money with interest….OH, we want our money back, um, RIGHT NOW.‘ Money goes back, and people now have no money. The rich, and friends, stay rich, the poor stay poor. This is my interpretation. Take it, or make your own.

You can say: ‘Well, your in the military, you have an easy paycheck. Our money!’ Yep, too easy of a paycheck. And Im tired of that, thats why Im GETTING OUT IN 2 MONTHS. Im done with this. I will be out there with everyone else. I want to see what its like to live in the free world.

Im not political, not radical, just a rebel. I found out some truths a while back that really opened my eyes, and not many people believe me, but its happening right now. Everything that I’ve discovered. And the worst is still yet to come. And its coming. God damn its gonna hit like a ton of bricks, but by then will it be too late to do anything about it?

Again, if you think Im crazy, I am. Read some previous blogs, look at my blog title, I am disgruntled and angry. I have 2 videos posted on a microchip they want to implant in ALL humans. See for yourself.

You dont have to believe. But its going to happen whether you do or dont.

Okay, a COMPLETE turn around from earlier’s events, I truly enjoy wednesday nights. Got to play TAG for the first time in maybe 15 years! WOOHOO!

Now, runnin around the jungle gym at my age, yeah, it’ll look kinda weird. Im not lying when I say I miss my childhood. The days were it was just play play play play play…It was great. So when I was hanging out with the kids today at the jungle gym, It would look weird for me to be swinging on the monkey bars and spinning around on the bars or just being in the area in general, but the kids were there so it made it okay. Goofed off with a few of them and then they started playing tag.

One asked if I wanted to play. There were 2 replies that came from me. I said, ‘Yeah, sure. Sounds fun.’ The INNER Child said, ‘ARE YOU KIDDING ME!? HELL YE-AH! WHOS IT!?’ I swear I’ve never heard him scream so loud in my head before… (umm, if your confused, read the title of my blogs)

So there we are, runnin around the jungle gyms, plural. JUST like old times, except I was about 15 years older, faster, and much more agile. Still a lot of fun. For some reason, they felt like I was a challange, so they began just tryin to target me. HA, I had a lot of fun, and a lot of HIIT involved here too.

Then came the run for myself, and try to catch a kid. One kid would climb my back and bring me down, while he was hanging, I would try to run, pull, jump and also try carrying other kids. Talk about a full body workout! I was exhausted! So yeah, after about 20-30 minutes of this portion, my body was pretty sore. It was a fun workout, if I can call it that. Nothin like wednesday nights. They brought chicken today, and I just asked to save me a piece for AFTER the running around, cause I knew it would come in handy then better than when i first got there. DAMN, that KFC was GOOD. haha

So in the end, I had an awesome wednesday night. I got to play tag, and that game is one of my most missed childhood memories. Got to relive it again. And hopefully a few more to come. I am going to leave cheyenne soon. Gonna miss these kids.

What’s YOUR most missed childhood memory?

So of course, for the few that know, Im part of an open organization called the high, the mighty, the unstoppable, the superior, the untouchable:

USAF.

HA! Okay, well, this story goes to show how unstoppably mighty we really are…(2 more months and Im DONE!)

Story: Okay, so we had a General come talk to us today. And when a general comes, THE WHOLE BASE better be there to listen. Or at least pretend. First-Parking. Why cant I park in reverse? I want to be able to pull out safer! Backing up is not safer than just pulling out, correct? I mean, Im driving a f*ckin van, its BIG, and I have a hard time seeing whats behind me. Anyway, 1st thing that annoyed me.

Inside I tried to hang out in the back, leaned up against a pole. Some higher ranking wanted ALL members of the SF to move up to the front, but I stayed behind with this Seargent to ‘assist’ in directing other SF members where to go. This place had about maybe 300 ppl or more. Not as packed as the last visit though. 2nd thing that annoyed me. But I weasled out and stayed in the back the whole time so I could be one of the first to leave once we get dismissed.

Some other even HIGHER ranking got on the mic and said to not lock your knees cause ‘You WILL pass out.’ Okay, quick story in between. I have known this since 1999. I was in the AF JROTC, yeah Rotcy, and I learned this my first year. I was 15 years old. 15 f*cking years! And I knew this. So Im thinkin, ‘Why do they keep repeating this over the past 10 years? It should be instilled into these lemmings…’ Oh, and I only say lemmings cause thats what this Higher Ranking called us. Motherf*cker. I felt offended, but no one handed me a tissue. Boo hoo. F*ck it.

So, the general comes and starts to talk. I am DAYDREAMING already. Im thinkin about what Im gonna do later today, go to the park with the friends, horse around, play some guitar, have a good time….WHEN OUT IN THE CORNER OF MY EYE…they’re dragging some kid to the back of the building. This kid passed out. I laughed. D*ckhead? Oh yeah, you bet I am. Did he not listen? Then it hit me, ‘THATS why they keep repeating it! There’s always some f*ck head that locks their knees…’ And what I mean by locking our knees is when we’re standing at attention or ‘parade rest’. Look’em up if your curious. Its not that f*ckin hard.

Anyway, more and more talkie, and more and more daydreaming for me. Then I see a nurse running to the back the building to aid the kid. I later found out that this other girl at the very front also passed out before him. Apparently there was a loud SMACK! but I guess I was just so out of what was going on I didn’t hear it. HA! She fell face first with her mouth open and this guy said he definitely heard some teeth hit the concret. She shouldn’t have locked her knees..

THESE ARE 20-25 YEAR OLDS PEOPLE! These are the people ‘protecting’ you! Yeah, its the air force, chair force, barely there force, whatever you want to call it, but still. Damn, its kinda sad some times. I give props to the Army and the Marines, although I would NOT want to have their mentality. Im already nearly insane, I dont want to be a soldier or marine.

Anyway, more talkie talkie, me more la la land. 3 things that all these visits WILL have: 1-the speaker will talk about how important the job is. 2-He will say how proud he is to serve with each and everyone there and that they are ALL important. 3- Some total DOUCHBAG will bring up something along the lines of ‘Where do you see [planes/nukes/the base] in the future [or ___ years]?’ Yes, EVERYTIME. And today did not dissapoint.

I wish I could tell you what he said, but I really do not know. In the end, they go back to their lovely base and do their thing. We go back to doing our job.

Oh, and I was one of the first to leave, but I almost got into an accident due to a DUMBASS traffic guard that is probably only doing that job cause he SUCKS at everything else, NOW TO INCLUDE TRAFFIC GUARD!, and dumbasses walking on the streets. Really people? REALLY?

Yes, these are the guys ‘protecting’ you…

2 more months….2 more months…

Okay, first of, immediately after this post, I have to get moving. Got lots to do today, and I woke up late and been picking at chores at the house here and there, but I need to step it up!!

New Goal: 145-150 lbs before I leave Cheyenne. I dont care if it’s just shy of 145, or 147lbs, I want to gain some muscle. Right now, I’ve shed off 2 of the 3 lbs I gained while on leave, so Im doing okay. Date implimented is TODAY: 25th of May 2009. So that gives me till the 18th of July, my last day in Cheyenne and I-WILL-LEAVE-THAT-DAY. Just under 2 months. So if I gain a minimum of 2 lbs a month, I’ll be happy.

I know how much harder it is to gain weight (LEAN weight) than it is to lose, so any progress I’ll be happy with. Lots and lots AND LOTS of veggies coming my way. Supplements are also going to take a dive. I think Im gonna stop taking MonsterMilk (wipes tears) cause I can get the 100g of protein Im looking for in a day from regular foods. A bit tougher, but we’ll see how it goes.

New Toy: An egg cooker/heater/baker. Whatever its called. It basically boils the eggs and I can boil 6 at a time. I know how to boil eggs, but I tend to lose track of time cause once you put them in the pot, nothing else is required. Even after I set the timer, I wander off mindlessly so in the end, their either too hard, not hard enough, or they cracked early in the game and spilled. Oh well, this new toy will help with that! Haven’t tried it yet, n I can’t wait to try it out!

Supps: Vitakic and WAR. I toned down the vitamine intake of Vitakic cause I got bi*ched out by a friend telling me vitamines are for people that dont GET their vitamines from veggies, and it IS possible to over consume vitamines and minerals, which is how vitakic works. (he’s a certified nutritionist. Boy did we have some interesting nutritional conversations, haha) So i decided to just tone the intake down just to get whatever it is thats keeping me toned from the Vitakic and with WAR, it did me good in the gym so I want to keep at it with the Wazy Maize.

Dreams: For those that have nightmares night after night after night, I feel your pain. Whatever those nightmares are about, they suck, period. THANKFULLY, I dont wake up panting and sweating from mine, or at least not yet. I’ve only been back from hell for 8 months now. But DAMN! Last night I, ONCE AGAIN, had dreams about being ‘over there’ again. It almost felt like a videogame. Bad guys kept popping out from roughly the same places, and I was spot on with my aim (plus it helped that I had a modified version of the M-203. Look it up) and was able to take them down with the 3 other people I was with while being trapped in a building. What made it the nightmare is that, one of the 3 ppl I was with go shot and went down, another FINALLY started helping me AFTER the first guy went down, and the 3rd was just sitting inside the building doing nothing. Again, bad guys were dropping, this was good. The worse? I WAS running out of ammo. And The bad guys kept coming.

Quick Lesson: In Iraq, everyone has 2 weapons. Their primary, which could be a machine gun, a rifle, grenade launcher, or Mounted Machine gun, AND a secondary which is usually a pistol. Sometimes, a few have 3 weapons. A heavy Machine gun, a rifle, and a pistol.

In my dream I had 3: grenade launcher (ran out of ammo) M-4 (rifle. Ran out of ammo) and an M-9…and this was My last line of defense and again, the bad guys kept coming. Stepping over the dead bodies, the were able to just walk towards us cause it was taking more and more shots to bring one down. The other guy with me wasn’t doing so good on his end.
Just before I started freaking out that their too close too us

My phone rang and I woke up.

Yes, I have entered that realm. I made whole wheat flour tortillas, white corn tortillas, and bread yesterday and all I got to say is…

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM! Delicious!

Could be better, no doubt. But thats why I say Amatur. I will try to perfect the taste with both types of tortillas, and add yeast to the bread this time to make it fluffy. Not bad for an american mexican, since I tend to be more than the other at times. HAHA!

But yes, in the end, I found the nutritonal value, and I believe the wheat tortillas had the most amount of fat, due to the olive oil, so I’ll be lowering the fat mixture and switching to margerine instead. The corn tortillas Im thinkin maybe add some lemon to give it that tangy taste. And the bread, well add yeast first (although it being flat wasn’t too bad either. Just cant make sandwiches!) and add some more flavor to it. We’ll see how it goes. This batch will last me about 2 weeks, then Im going to make MORE!

There ya go, Im moving up in the food world. What have I learned?

-If it aint natural, body not used to digesting it

-If it aint whole, body not used to digesting it

-If its refined, enriched, bleached, proccessed in ANY way, body is not used to digesting it

-Why buy cheaper foods that last longer and taste WAY better with little to NO nutritional value?

-Get vitamines and minerals from whole foods/natural foods.

Im moving backwards with time. Instead of embracing the future and its way of making foods and technology helping with labor and online buys and big time stores eliminating smaller businesses, Im going backwards. BUT this proccess, like fitness, will take time. Little by little, step by step. In time, we’ll see how ‘things’ turn out.

Keep Sane, for goodness sakes.

You see somebody with a large popcorn and coke walking through the theater, or a hotdog and slurpee at a park, or walking out of a pizza place with 2 pies and you think:

‘You do NOT need to be eating that.’

Or is it just me?

My observation.