LuvTheGym’s BodyBlog

Needless to say I am pretty estatic right now. I hit my first big goal today! Lost 20 lbs in six weeks. I am looking and feeling amazing. The weight is just falling off. I am still eating 1800 GOOD CLEAN calories per day, and excersising 6x per week. AND IN THE HOLIDAY SEASON!!! Come on guys, if I can do it so can you!!!!

 As my reward, I am going to go buy a warm sweatshirt! It is supposed to snow for the next 4 days, so I am glad I hit my mini now!

Looking back I realize my entire life, I look to people who were fit, and in shape as "lucky." It was probably because everytime I was with my mom, and she would see a beautiful, slim, woman, she would say things like "Skinny Bitch" or "Lucky Bitch." Since I was little I always remember her being 250+. I was not allowed to play sports in school, because we lived about 15 miles away, and she did not want to drive me there for practice and games. So about the most activity I had was horse back riding, and walking around the ranch. There was no roads to roller blade or skate board on, and I had outgrown my bike years earlier. Needless to say, there was not a whole lot of activity, and LOTS of food. We were ranchers for christ sakes, so we ate like them. BUT. As kids we didnt work off enough to stop the evil cycle of weight gain.

Now after having my eyes opened by my own transformation (in progress), I realize that ANYONE can be thin, if it is a priority to you. It wasnt to my parents, and that rubbed off on me. Now realizing that I can do something about it, and its not all about genetics, I can’t stand walking around the way I am. There is no excuse, and it sure as hell shouldnt have taken me this long. By the time I hit my 21st BD, I will be in excelent shape, and I will be having the time of my life.  

 By my birthday in  may this year, I have figured out that I can lose 61 lbs (Losing only 2 lbs a week) and be looking pretty damn good. And by Dec. 09 I can lost all of the weight, 125’s total. I figure from Jan-May I can get pretty toned, and be looking fab. =] I am going to buy a photo shoot for my self as a present =]

The best motivation for me, is this website. Looking at people’s before and after photo’s show me that I am not the only to come from my size, and not only to be thin, but to be healthy, fit and strong. To be the best me I can be. I sit here and look at pictures of women, and I can visualize the weight falling right off me, and slowly sculpting the me I want. The me that I can be proud of. But for now, I AM proud of me. I have beaten those 19 pounds, and I will not stop. I will never stop. This IS a battle I can lead for the rest of my life. I don’t have time anymore to be fat. I do not have the TIME to stuff my face. LOL. Come along way from saying I dont have the time to work out HAHA. I try to encourge those around me, but I see them standing in the same rut that I was in, The rut that I was in only 8 weeks ago. I want so badly to help them, but I guess they havent found the right reasons to change. I hope that someday, I can be an inspiration to others, the way that all of you have been an inspiration to ME.

 Most of all I want to go to my high school reunion, ( I was about 245 all through HS) and walk in looking amazing. I want others to see that people can change, and for the better. I want to give those mom’s that let their body slide, a little flicker of hope that they can do it too.  

 How amazing it will be to walk into virtually ANY store, and buy things that fit. To buy things that make you look wonderful. Wow. How neat would it be to be able to shop online, and get pissed that something is too big. =] Thats the day I am waiting for.

 As for today. I tried on some of my old clothes, and I fit into three of my old jeans, size 18!!! They are still alittle too snug, but before I wasn’t able to even get them on! I figure another 5 lbs and I am sure that they will fit!!! Currently I am wearing either 22-24-26 size pants (And swimming) I am so excited to fit into it all!! Even though I am almost down to the weight I was when I was wearing the size 18 pants, I still look COMPLETELY different. Must be all of the weight lifting, but daymn. Looking hot =] (If I may say so!)

One more pound till I hit my Mini Goal!!!!

My mini goal after that is to hit 145 by Jan 1.

One more pound gone! Again. Four pounds this week, and 19 total! I am ONE pound away from my mini goal! 251!!!

I weighed again this morning, because just by looking in the mirror I could see that I was smaller. Again. I just weighed yesterday, and announced a 2lb loss, and holy shit, this morning another one was gone!!! I just may hit the 240s this next week after all. I have been doing really good eating, and I am starting to not feel guilty about eating as much any more. I was always practically starving my self (Unknown to me) so as soon as I started eating more, about 500 calories more, man has the weight been falling off! It still shocks me that by eating more, I am losing more. Funny world aint it? I guess the reason why I dont feel guilty any more about eating so often, is because it has become more about refueling my body, than what snack I want to munch on next.

 Even though it is a good thing, it still makes me sad that all of my clothes are hanging on me like a tent. I just bought all new clothes before I started on my journey, and I dont have the cash to buy more right now. I cant even afford christmas coming up =[ I am getting closer to fitting into my old clothes, but right now I am walking around with a vaccume line (from a car, I work in an auto shop) LOL around me like a belt, because none of my belts will go small enough, and my old belts arent big enough. Ugghh. Stupid pants. AND they wont stay up. AT LEAST I have a solution, lol, the vaccume line is strechy, and I can just cut it down as I get smaller LOL. And its pretty much invisible.

 And being sick sucks ass. I wish I could kick this colds ass cause I would if I could. Even though I have been sick for the last two weeks, I HAVE STILL WORKED OUT EVERY DAY. No excuses. Ever. Because it is my turn to shine.

 Come on little clothes, FIT! HAHA. Sorry for complaining. I just want to sleep =[

I have officially lost 2 more lbs, for a total of 17! I am sitting pretty happy at 253 right now. 3 lbs away from my mini goal!!! My legs are looking awesome =]

After thanks giving I didn’t gain any weight, but I didn’t lose any either. I platoed for a week, and finally this last week broke that fast, even though I was sick as a dog for half of it, I drug my sorry ass to the gym and worked out everyday! I even did HIIT two of those days as hard as I possibly could. And I kicked ass on the stair master.

My bicep is getting cut =] it looks haut =]

I have been kicking ass =]

On a much more sad note my brand new Ipod, which Ive had about two weeks, either Died, or the battery died, either way I didnt have music this morning =[ BUTT I will try charging it tonight. I hope thats all it is. But usually when the battery is dead the screen will turn on for half a second and then turn of again. Nothing.  

 ALMOST TO THE 240’s!!!! I am going to work my ass of this week, and wednesday, instead of going to class (tonight is my final and last night) I will meet my Foe, the stair master LOL. And we are going to duke it out till it gives up or I throw up LOL. Okay, maybe not THROW up, but almost hehe.

I want to hit the 240’s!!!!! Maybe, just maybe I can lost 4 lbs this week. Then I would be at 249. Never say never =]

 And I cooked like 6 lbs of chicken last night lol. Yummy.  BUT I forgot to buy almonds at the store. =[ And I forgot again this morning when I went to walmart. Dang. Slacking.

I have a collarbone! LOL. Okay well I always knew it was there, and you could see it, but man, it’s looking good!!! =]

 AND. My forarm muscle seems to be getting bigger, FAST. The reason I probably notice, is because naturally I don’t have much extra weight around that area, it looks so awesome when I flex =] AND. I was shown the "proper" way to flex your bicep, to make the muscle move, haha it looks like I have an alien crawling around in there =] It is pretty amazing to see such results even as early on as I am.

 AND. My calf is definatly more defined =] And this may be TMI, but my boobs can dance LOL.

I had an awesome workout this morning, even though I feel like I might be getting sick. Thank you HIIT=] I lifted and did cardio.

I want to have the body that I am proud of. I will have the body I am proud of.

I WILL not give in.

I will eat clean.

I will drink lots of water.

I will excercise, AT LEAST 4x a week. In reality it is 5-6x a week.

I will continue to monitor my eating.

I will not eat their food at Christmas, I will only eat the food that I bring.

I WILL NOT drink on new years. I will have fun.

I will wear my first bikini by October 2009 and be happy. We will go to a pool just to celebrate it.

I will fit into a size 12 AT LEAST by May 31.

I will lose 45 lbs by my birthday! I will lose 65 lbs by my birthday. I WILL BE HALFWAY TO MY GOAL BY THAT TIME!!!!!

I can lose 123 lbs by Dec 09 if I lose 2 lbs per week. I will lose lbs per week or the equivalent.

I will look fantastic by NEXT Christmas!

I will be fit into those cute little skimpy clothes that I love so much, and look amazing.

I will not give up when I reach my goal weight, but I will continue and fuel myself even more to make changes. To get real abs, to be able to do 15 real pull ups.

I struggled throught the weekend, and managed pretty well I believe. Thanksgiving was hard. Lets just say, that my entire family likes to show their love through food. I now am really glad that I called them all ahead of time and told them that I would be bringing my own food. AND that it had nothing to do with their cooking or my feeleings for them, but rather that I wanted to stay on track. I have been working so hard to reset my tastebuds and get over portion distortion. Several people through a fit, and tried to make me feel guilty, but I just ate my chicken anyways. They tried to push the issue that "One day wasn’t going to kill me" And I just told them that NOT eating it wasn’t going to kill me either. AND I worked out all weekend just like I said that I would. I have a real sense of accomplishment. I am lovin’ it =]

Goals-

Workout
Continue eating clean unprocessed foods
Consume at least 1 lt each day

Results-

I did not go to the gym on Saturday as planned, but I did go on a 20 mile bike ride which I am sure counts as working out. We were gone from 12.30-4.00 and it is really hilly where we go. My legs were noodles when we were done. =]

I did not slip up even one time on my diet. On my bike ride I made sure to take a small can of chicken packed in water, to snack on at our break, which I am glad I did because it kept me from getting hungry and over indulging. If anything I don’t think I ate enough calories throughout the weekend, I need to keep closer track, next weekend and ensure that I am eating every three hours.

I forgot to measure my water intake but I drank through both days, and I never felt thirsty, so I think  I was pretty close.

Worked out this morning, Wow I was feeling the bike ride. I think subconsiencely I was tightening my throat and chest muscles during the ride, because they were so sore sunday and today. =]

So today I weighed for the week, and guess what? ANOTHER TWO LBS DOWN!!!! Sitting pretty happy at 257.1!!!! Yay. I have been kicken butt ever since I pretty much accidently starved myself for 7 hrs. Not good cause it threw my body in to starve and store mode, the next day I had gained two lbs, and the day after that another lb. So not only have I lost that weight, but two lbs more! Yay!!

I was hugged me this morning and said “Holy shit! Wow your tummy is so much smaller!” It made me happy. He has always been able to wrap his arm around me, but he can really hold me close now =]

 Work outs went great all this week. I started doing HITT training two days ago, and I feel like I get so much more out of my cardio. This morning I added another 5 lbs to my bicep curl, AWESOME. And I have steadily been adding weights all over the place in my training.

I am going to work out for 2 hours on Saturday.

Short Term Goals-

• Continue eating clean
• Work out every day next week
• Continue working cardio at a high intensity
• Keep proper form the whole time while lifting
• Keep encouraging others to do the same
• Set an example for family and friends that weightloss doesn’t need to be as big of a strugle as most make it out to be. Set your mind, hit your small goals and DO IT!