Loki69’s BodyBlog

Deep inside these burning buildings
Voices die to be heard
Years we spent teaching a lesson
We ourselves had never learned

And if strength is borne from heartbreak
Many mountains I could move
And if walls could speak I’d pray
That they would tell me what to do

If you see me, please just walk on by, walk on by.
Forget my name and I’ll forget it too.
Failed attempts at living simple lives, simple lives,
Always keep me coming back to you.

No signs of life here, save the embers, the occasional flame,
We’d know the way but can’t remember, conception to the grave,
Jump confessions from the greatest heights, where no one can hear,
All my fears, my insecurities are falling like tears.

If you see me, please just walk on by, walk on by.
Forget my name and I’ll forget it too.
Failed attempts at living simple lives, simple lives,
Always keep me coming back to you.

The drones will slave away, they’re working overtime,
They serve a faceless queen, they never question why.
Disciples of a god, they neither live nor breathe,
(I won’t come back!)
But we have bills to pay, yeah we have mouths to feed!
(I won’t come back!)
I won’t come back!

If you see me, please just walk on by, walk on by.
Forget my name and I’ll forget it too.
Failed attempts at living simple lives, simple lives,
Always keep me coming back to you.

I’m coming back to you!

Well I’ve finally got to go to the gym again and it sure is a wonderful feeling! Except for the fact that I’m pathetically weaker,but I guess thats what you get for ****ing up as bad as I did.

I lost 25 lbs of mostly muscle in two months give or take a couple days. I also lost 125,000$ (Legit),and lost some other not-so-honestly earnt money(alot of it too).I bought a in sept.2006 and it was seized by november. My concorde, has myseriously disappeared from the tow truck company. I had clothes, a digicam, a video-camera,money, and other misc. shit in that car. The bank still has 125,000 legit dollars that I gotta go to court for. If your wondering where its from, its cause my dad set up a trust fund for me before he passed away.

I also just got released from jail a little while ago over some bullshit prohibited weapons charge, and youth charges that I had outstanding warrants for. While I was locked up I had time to think. I’m saying **** that to all the shit that can get me in trouble, **** it I’m better than that. I’m not drinking, and I’m sure as hell not putting that white shit up my nose again.

It took away everything I loved. My spirituality, my education,the gym, upset my mom,destroyed my body, and took me far far away from a person I care deeply about…I don’t know if I’ll ever be back in her good books, but I’ll try.

Basically what I’m trying to say is….Its fine to experiment and use recreational drugs recreationally, but for the most part don’t bother. escpecially if you have an addictive personality, or tend to run from problems. I’ll never touch coke again. I’m not gonna be a hypocrite, but I will say try to avoid it, but if you do try it, do what I did before I elt the money go to my head and use it very scarcely. But since we’re bodybuilders here, none is best.

I think alcohol,(and heroin) are the worst out there. Meth too. Just straight up stay away from these.

I don’t really have much to say about the occasional joint though, just don’t be a pothead. I’d much rather see someone smoke pot, eat zoomers, pop acid, or gobble ecstsacy. But moderation is key.

And for the most part just stay away from liquor,coke,meth and H. There not worth it.

but if your going to use drugs,research them: www.erowid.org
 

I can barely look at myself in the mirror anymore,I mean I used to be 180,I fell to 155. I’m 166 now so some progress made but a shitload more to go. I can’t believe I had to lose it all, to figure everything out. Now the hard parts going to be earning it all back….but I think I’m up to the challenge.