Lilbitt’s BodyBlog

Oh yes the dieting is underway. And I feel great. My favorite part of the diet process is the craziest thing. I love when I hit the point where every possible food that is bland and boring like celery, that I don’t even like tastes so good! It takes a few weeks but it’s the funniest thing. Only bodybuilders and fitness/figure dieters alike could understand. So I should be there completely pretty soon. It takes a few weeks of restriction to fall into that mode but it’s so funny when I do.

Okay I have been MIA for a while. Things had flipped upside down for me for a bit but I’m back on track now. I am not doing a show as of now and had a few weeks of emotional eating as a result of some dissapointing things in my personal life. I am feeling better now and am beginning to refocus my goals and objectives. I would like to step up my training and cardio more than I have been. Funny thing was that I was asked 3 times this week if I am natural… LOL  I find humor in that. I just put forth my best but apparently since it is rare for women to desire to excel at training it somehow makes one think I take some magic pills or shots?!? Well I guess it’s flattering if you think my potential is abnormal.

Well I am back and moving in the right direction.

Well due to some personal things in my life I had to push my show back but only a few short weeks. And in the meantime I have other shows as good possibilities in mind. The first will be July 21st, the NPC XCalibur in NJ. Other shows will be decided on later.

So at this point in my prep I am feeling quite excited and browsing at suits. I have two more tenitive shows in mind providing that the June 30th show goes well. The others will be in Aug and October, both NPC NJ shows. It would be awesome to qualify for nationals at some point. Just so that the option is there next year. My training and diet are on track and I’m really learning so much through this whole process.

Well I am nearing the top of the hill and going to be on the downward slope soon. Saturday will be 15 weeks from my show. I started my prep on February 17th. Today should be my last day of a few things diet wise as I want to tighten up a bit. Coffee additions like non dairy creamer will be completely cut out. I will probably be more likely to drink tea than coffee black. I was going to go nuts today with my diet so I had a few crackers. Wow did I ever feel like shit after emotionally but I am not going to let it get to me. I weigh in Saturday and I hope I am at 146 which is right on target. My training now that I am back on my proper supplements has been wonderful. 15 weeks has never felt so short in my entire life.

Well I suppose it’s good news that I found out today that the show I was going to do on June 23rd in NJ is actually on the 30th of June. So that would make me 16 weeks out today. And I was looking fantastic this am. I bumped up my cardio a bit and my diet has been great. There are a few other shows this year that I may target for if the one in June goes well. Off season I will be staying within 5-10 pounds of my contest weight which will be a huge difference for what I am used to. I am feeling great at this point and currently I am at the "I don’t want any sugar" point that I was told I would get to eventually. I hope it stays. I thought I would be wanting chocolate and pizza but at this point there is a Quiznos commercial that I love with the steak and swiss and all that. Sushi is always my favorite. I will definitely be going straight out to eat after the show, probably for some sort of yummy food and then breakfast the next morn and sushi that night. Then I’ll be good.

So I am 15 weeks and 3 days to be exact from my big debut. Everything is falling into place. I monitor my progress weekly on Saturdays so this coming weekend is 15 weeks and I am hoping to be right on track at 147#. My diet has been great and cardio is steady. Training is beautiful as usual and I am looking so different already. The daily changes I see in the mirror are soooo amazing. I have no idea where I will be for the show but I have a feeling I will be about 125#. I plan on staying 10lbs above contest for my off season. I may even do another show this year if this one goes well. Well this is it for now.

Well this is it. I haven’t posted in a while but I have been making some new plans for myself. I have decided on my first show which will be in June of this year. I am going to compete in NPC Figure and this was decided after much thought. I have enlisted in the help of others for this so I am not going on unexperienced knowledge. I have been dieting for 2 weeks now precontest and am just about 16 weeks away. I am nervous b/c I have never competed before so the thoughts of do I have enough time are there since I have never dieted in this manner but I am focused as hell and have a strict vision to be the best I can. I should update progress as I go accordingly. I am not sure how far I can take this just yet but time will tell.

I don’t think we or should I say I ever reach my final goal. Trying to explain the vision I have as a female of how muscle looks to me on a woman’s physique is impossible. No matter what vocabulary I choose or how I phrase things, most people don’t understand. It’s just not about vanity and that becomes hard to explain. It is like a living work of art and that is about the best way to put it.  Naked for instance… now this is without sexual reference and to fully understand, one must not think in that direction… the female physique when muscular and carved to perfection to me is an incredible display of beauty. And I don’t mean freaky huge when I talk about muscle developement. I respect any female that loves bodybuilding as much as I do myself but that look was never for me. I think if more women pushed the envelope naturally without drug enhancement there would be a better respect for this art and sport. It has taken me over 2 years to even begin to fully grasp how with proper diet and training a female can add great quantities of muscle and baffle even her ownself while doing so. On most days I forget how far I’ve come and even forget why I do this "bodybuilding" thing to myself. And then it happens… If you are wondering what it is that happens I will tell you. You walk into the gym not b/c somebody is giving something away, or you are paid to be there but without hesitation b/c it is just what you do. It is your habit. Your flow. Just like eating and sleeping to survive. You go to train b/c that is a natural part of your day. And as you go, forgetting why it became your life in the first place… oh and at this point you may be even feeling yucky that day. Flat perhaps? Retaining water? Or maybe even fat? And you walk over to a cable machine or bench or whatever you want to use, not even realizing that 3 men just hurried up and finished there set simply b/c it seems you might want the equipment they are using… and they move for you. And as you work out next to a woman who is the replica of Pamela Anderson, who you assume all the men are staring at, some random male stranger approaches you and says, "I’m sorry to bother you but I can’t help but wonder if you play a sport? I have never seen a woman that looks like you. You’re arms are bigger than mine". And on the way out I remember why I’m there. I become a leader for women and not a follower. I am of the minority. And I am proud. I am a female bodybuilder.

I know I’ve been a little MIA lately. I have been super busy at work and with my personal life. Training is great. I also deleted my pictures hoping to add new ones but didn’t get around to adding the new ones. hehehe. I need 25 hours in a day at least. I hope I can get new pics soon. I’m trying.