I’m mad…at me.
I decided back in December, after months of NO training that I needed to get back into. So what do I do? Basically nothing, I think I’ve done just enough to keep my heart healthy if that. I’m freakin skinny fat!! I think I weigh the most now then I ever had, and let me tell you its not muscle. Now I’m just angry at myself. How could I let myself get this bad. I’m lacking motivation, energy and time. Now that I’ve finally got myself back up to 5 days of training, I’m lacking calories, I eat five meals a day but need to find somewhere, somehow to get another one in.
I have no one to blame but myself, letting myself get to this point of desperation. I’m so pissed at myself I want to pop my own head off, lol. Even though I know what to do, I still feel lost. I feel yuky, Thats the only way to discribe it. YUK YUK YUK. What a bad day. Tommorrow I may feel different, but today I suck.
February 10, 2009 at 7:12 pm
Hang in there, leslie. Tomorrow is a new day!
February 10, 2009 at 7:16 pm
The best motivation I got was reading The Eat Clean Diet book. In a matter of days you feel energized and the muscle tone is so much better as well as your skin. Are you eating clean? It can be confusing but it is so simple once you plan your meals out and have all the supplies you need. I have 38 pounds to go with 16 pounds down. Keep in touch! Just go out and do it!
June 22, 2009 at 5:11 pm
It happens, rough day, rough week, and its never pretty. Everyone is different on how they handle it, so same with AloneIStand, look fwd to the next day. That motivation will come back when ya least expect it, and you’ll be back on track and kickin ass!
July 13, 2009 at 4:09 pm
Don’t be too hard on yourself.