Leslie24’s BodyBlog

I decided back in December, after months of NO training that I needed to get back into. So what do I do? Basically nothing, I think I’ve done just enough to keep my heart healthy if that. I’m freakin skinny fat!! I think I weigh the most now then I ever had, and let me tell you its not muscle. Now I’m just angry at myself. How could I let myself get this bad. I’m lacking motivation, energy and time. Now that I’ve finally got myself back up to 5 days of training, I’m lacking calories, I eat five meals a day but need to find somewhere, somehow to get another one in.

I have no one to blame but myself, letting myself get to this point of desperation. I’m so pissed at myself I want to pop my own head off, lol. Even though I know what to do, I still feel lost. I feel yuky, Thats the only way to discribe it. YUK YUK YUK. What a bad day. Tommorrow I may feel different, but today I suck.