Lady_Quadzilla’s BodyBlog

Wow - the past 2 months have been a little crazy! I have been in an on-the-job training Boot Camp and it has really been busting my ass! I have lost 3 pounds a week doing it and my knees feel kind of wrecked but they recover over the weekends and I have taken to doing the lower-impact options of things and that has helped. The bad news - my lifting has suffered, I can’t seem to do both and recover. The boot camp does high volume resistance training and you end up hitting all muscle groups by the end of the week, so I am getting worked, just not the heavy stuff I like. I did do my lifting one week and that caused a lot of aches and pains, so I only have the rest of this week to finish out the Boot Camp training and then I can get back to my lifting . I start teaching the Boot camp in January, but I won’t be doing as much as instructing, so I should be fine.

Pre-comp diet kicks into high gear now, going to really take names and kick ass until April! I am excited and nervous and need to FOCUS. I also need to take some Stuart Smalley classes on self-esteem - I think more than anything the belief in myself is what I need to get me to the stage and that is where I falter. I question myself all of the time, I wonder if I am totally delusional, I worry that I am a quitter, I need to prove this to myself that I can finish what I started and I can achieve my peak physique and it will carry me beyond the competition. I am good enough, smart enough…..LOL.

So - from here on out is going to be self pep-talks and Anthony Robbins and Zig Ziglar…all those self-help, motivational people! I need to dive in and bathe in the motivation, I need to whole heartedly let go of my cynicism and self-doubt and become Pollyanna, lol. I think I am going to make myself puke…..anyhow, how does one re-program years of negative thinking? Why can I tell everyone else to be positive and believe in the process and think to the future, and yet I think in the back of my head that I am delusional? I guess I need help, but I need to help myself!

Well, this has officially become a ramble, so I think I will go make my oats and do some online stuff and shower and get moving!