Lady McMike’s BodyBlog

nobody ever said fitness was easy. it wasnt the first time and it definantely isnt going to be any better this time around. But shit if i quit now then what the **** did i bust my ass for before. From here on out shut your eyes, shut up, dont listen to anything people say to you (esp since most of the people giving you are hard time were overweight) and ****ing drive. you got yourself in this "mess", its you who has to get out!!! do it, do it now!!! lol

 off to the gym to squat for like an hr before work, and then  back after work to crush abs. and do some cardio. todays goal is to get back on a healthy eating patten. clean is lean!!! hahaha. ready GO!

so ive been away from bodyspace for months, trying to deal with depression and lose of ajob. its been 6 months and ive packed on a lot of extra weight and i am missing that passion i had for the gym. I went from hardcore gym and diet to now not wanting to go becuase my body is just too tired and a diet consisting of all the shit i havent eaten in 5 years. the worst part is I dont know how to pull out of it. Im looking through my pictures and im just amaze at how good i looked nad how "average american" i am now. Im probably a good 140lb, and just so disappointed in my loss of my award winnin will power. I honeslty dont think i cna get back to that shape again. Especially now since i have a full time job its hard to have the energy togo to work after 11 hr days of landscaping. I’m embarrased of what i have become.. eww

So i get asked all the time about how i get my abs to look the way they do and i always say the obvious, lots of hard work. but i also stress a clean diet and cardio. These are more important than most people think but some just wont have it. they get mad they they work day in and day out til they want to puke doing ab exercises but still they can see any change… hence my point. DIET and CARDIO…. my experiment took me to a point i really didnt want to go to but it is what it is. I stopped doing cardio everyday and i ate like a meathead. lol. I ate still kinda ok but not as strict as i did when i had fantabulous abs, lol. And i will admit this didnt start as an experiment but after a month of severe depression due to it being winter (SADD), i made it into one. I knew i wasnt going to be able to kick it because the depression was so insane but i let it carry me away and all i did was lift once a day and sleep the rest of the day. Lazy ass life style let me tell you. It did take a while to lose the tone but once i did i started to look worse everyday…. and to the real point of my babbling story. cardio is not only good for your heart it eliminates body fat and makes the abs … well "pop". and diet, well thats a no brainer. I was undoing all my hard work that i did in the A.M. workouts by eating like a retard all day and esp at night. One thing i learned is that when i woke up in the morning i was pissed at myself for overeating at night so i would kill myself at the gym and then restrict my eating during the day but when i woke up in the middle of the night i was starving and i would carve and yes eat everything i could get my hands on. It was horrible. However, i got to a point earlier this week where i looked in the mirror and said " eww, what have you done". I put all my depressing issues behind me and actually well im ignoring them but i got back on the damn horse and found a perfect routine, and ive been riding that all week. Cardio is back and my diet is the same everyday… boring, insane, or rediculous you can call it what you like… but it works… for ME. and to ME consistancy is key. I’m not eating or training to better anyone else, im bettering me. what works for me works for me. i tell people that all the time. find what works, and then stick to it like nobody’s business. Maybes its just me but once things change, all hell breaks loose. Yes, i do have OCD and minor kinks in my plans ruin my day and are hard to deal with like the other day when my mom made my sister drive my sister to work b/c it was too cold for her to walk. it set me an hr behind my regular schedule and everything was so uncomfortable all day. and on and on i could go. but if you get nothing else out of this, get this point : cardio and diet are just important as the actual ab exercise you do. and there you have it. lol…

whats the best when it comes to pt certification, nasm, npft or whatever is out there. there are so many choicess and i dont want to enroll in something that wont get me a job. also how long does it take to complete it …

so i got this comment on one of my other blogs and i would love to know who this person is…. honestly i dont get why someone would write something like this on anyones profile. what the ****…

 jim Says:
<small class="commentmetadata">January 9, 2009 at 10:09 am   edit

you really need to work out more. you are a fat slob with an ugly figure. your face makes me want to barf on my face.

i finally had an extra minute to get a new video up. im not impressed but i hope you like it.

so the other day i was talking to one of my favorite "shake people" at my gym and she told me i needed to bulk up again, which made me think, hmmm wtf, am i looking small?? i hope not becuase im busting my ass but maybe too much. honestly i thought i was getting alot less trim but thats besides the point. but in the midst of talking seh suggested the Apex Smore Cookies, just as a snack. they are 190 cal, and 15grams of protein. im not one to really do much "snaking" or rather any eating between meals which isnt always good becuase my metabolism is stopping and starting becuase i wait so long so i figured what the hell lets try it. so i broke down and bough one today. its was $2.50 but worth every damn cent. i thought it was amazing tasting. there was just something about it that was like "oooo damn" lol. so i would suggest this for anyone looking for something in between meals. its even says perfect between meals on the wrapper. lol… try, you’ll love it or maybe not, what do i know… def beat Detour bars which i must say are the worst in my opinion, exp the new lean muscle is alright.

well im waiting around till food time, yes time, I have OCD and i watch the clock and wait til the clock strike midnight and i turn into a pumpkin. no jk. but i do wait til an exact hr. dont ask i dont control it. but anyways then when i’m done in a timed manner i am going to the gym again today. im hoping i make myself so exhuasted  actually fall asleep tonight. I havent sleep without waking up at least twice for about two weeks now. ive been sick but ive been on meds and i feel ok. i just cant sleep to save my life. so i get two workouts in today… plus i sleep!!! fingers crossed… sry for rambling about nothing.

ive recently been extremly sick and its been very hard to get good workouts in. or at least one that arent more painful than they should be or ones that im proud of. And then there is the fact that its winter time and i tend to get more down than normal, and then add some family issues, strokes, cancer and hospitalizations and its just really hard to focus on hitting the weights. And then add the fact that im trying to not fail in these last weeks of school and im a walking and ticking time bomb of stress. and you would think that the stress would give me some extra pumps but its honestly just making everything seem so much heavier. I just dont feel liek myself and more and it really sucks. I leave the gym and im just like what the **** was that? It frickin sucked. And yea im hard on myself but shit its not easy to stay this way. I cant bullshit workouts and stay "sexy". or at least not mentally. thats the hardest part, i feel im losing my touch, and that is a really horrible feeling let me tell you. Im just afraid im going to say why bother and there goes damn sexy forever… forever. dammit!!

so i think im too ambitious to be able to settle down in a carrer. i want to do everything and so i can never stick with one thing. do i continue in school and become a gym teacher and a coach in like 6 years, after i go over seas and then graduate later…. or do i take the summer to get certified as a personal trainer and then start my carrer come the fall. or do i grow some balls and get on to the competition floor… or or or. there are too many choices. i think that my job should have been decided for me when i was born. then again i might end up drawing a bad job like a lock smith or something lame like an old fashioned cobbler. lol. anyways im always questioning what i should do with my life and being 21 i know im young but im not that young and i feel like i need to pick something. and when i start to think about it more, i end up going to the gym to avoid it. hahah. typical plan for me. anyways im just rambling now

i had jury duty today and it was probably the worst thing ive ever been required to do. i had to miss school and a test for it and i was pissed. i also couldnt get to the gym like i wanted and i had to eat warm cheese. Needless to say i was pissed and i think the dent i left in the wall from throwing my bag pack into it proves that. i mean i sat in a room with strangers forced to watch CNN and listen to frickin Paline and McCain and whats his face alllllllll day. it was torture… i think the part that bugged me the most is that i couldnt control the stuation and i wasnt allowed to go to the gym and well that i couldnt eat what i usually do, so i guess it wasnt just one thing. but having ocd made it very hard bc it wasnt something typical for me so it just made me mad. Well tomorrow is a new day and ill work out all my pissed off-ness…