Lady McMike’s BodyBlog

so i decided that a month of tanning was a good idea. work on my image a little, deal with this skinny white chick look. haha. yea well 2 days, just two and im already burnt to a crisp. my bum looks like a lobster and and it is so impossible to sit down. i keep telling myself that at the end of the month when all my muscles show better becuase they are all nice and broze-like it will be worth it becuase i will look like a golden statue… haha or something like that… ugh til then i will suffer through the burn…

i have had a problem falling asleep and stayng asleep for the last three weeks. i have tried everything, or so i think so. sleepytime tea, warm milk, relaxing music, boring myself to death before sleeping, not taking naos, and working out for an hr before bed. and no matter how tired i feel i can never get into a nice deep sleep. i mean i was sick and took meds that cause drowsiness and i still wouldnt fall asleep. so if anyone knows of anything else i could try i would appriciate it. thanks.

ps. i got a new video finally. check it out .

http://www.asylum.com/gallery/ten-weirdest-pizza-toppings/681786/

so after two weeks at ft. hell. i mean Drum for annual training, im finally home. Took a short vacation to my cottage on the lake. Relaxed for about .2 minutes and then was annoyed the rest of the time by my family. I hate reunions. lol. But i got back to my mecca, the gym this morning. It was so wonderful to be back. I actually missed being there more than i missed being home in my own bed and house. haha. well i need a nap b/c i wasnt allowed to the whole time i was there. peace out.

so i was told by my chiropractor that i pulled, or strained my QL muslce and i havent the slightest idea what to do about it. Its such a deep muscle that honestly i didnt even know i had but i def. know it exsists now becuase it hurts like a mother ****ing bitch. ahah sry for the language, but omg! I mean it hurts to use that whole side, its hurts to laugh, which sucks becuase i always laugh, it hurt to just lay on that side. But yea i cant really ice it because it doesnt even get to the muslce. and stretching it just well… hurts. so im not sure what else to do about it… can anyone give me some help on this one.

what do you do when your personal life affects your gym performance. When all you want to do is sit at each machine and ball your eyes out. How do you get your motivation back, how do you use your emotions for good gains.

so i decided life is a horrble version of this or that.. presesntly im trying to pick a carrer path. im in the national guard and im an 31B (Military Police) so duh - law enforcement…. however i wanted to go into the world of fitness, since it pretty much runs my life seven days a week, so why not, makes sense right. But i just dont have the ability to make a choice. It kinda like when i open the fridge and stand there for 15minutes seriously waiting for something to jump out and hit me. maybe i should flip a coin?!?! Idk… But i know the bull im doing now is not what i wasnt to be stuck doing the rest of my life. I’m going back to my old job i had before i left for Missouri, yea the one i hated with a passion. But i need something to occupy the time between morning and night gym times. I should just get a job at my gym for now and tell them hey, i’m gonna get certified and then you’ll hire me as a trainer. That seems decent. But why the hell did i go away for so long and get into a really good MOS to do nothing with it? It seems like wasted time almost. It paid for a new car, but too bad i cant drive that car b/c my bonus is all gone and now i cant pay for gas. lol. $4.15 here - rediculous . i left and it was under $3. but whatever… I’m hoping for some kind of epiphany. that would be great. anyways its 12:09 and im exhausted…. Deuces!

dedication is one of the most important parts of working out, and creating an active and healthy lifestyle. i say this because when i went to the gym today i saw the same old over weight people at the gym. in 15 weeks they havent changed a thing, everyone has potenital i dont care if youre 346 lbs you can be 175 if your dedicated enough. spend a month in the gym with me and ill make you half your weight. it pisses me off and it motivates me to get my better figure back. becuase i say to myself: i refuse to stay looking like this becuase im not satisfied.. a lot of people say im ok being over weight… dont lie to yourself, you just need a swift kick in hte behind to get your motor moving and with persistance you can be damn sexy too. but i personally refuse to let myseld stay in "weakling mode" or thats what ive named my resent physical ability… nothing like i was before i left a good 15weeks ago. i know i have a lot of work to do, but it will be a good deal of fun becuase i know i can progress. before i left i couldnt do much improving. i guess not everyone is like me though. i wish i could make people like me. i wish i could hand someone some dedication so they too can finally feel attractive or accomplished. theres nothing like the feeling of accomplishment. trust me. i did a 19.7 mile ruck in 3hrs and 47 minutes and i felt so much accomplishment i could have shared it with everyone just so they got a taste and would strive for more. i ended up messing up my knee to the point where i cant walk, and i cant get it checked out b/c im currently without medical insurance but trying to self help back to usability. its not going well fyi.. so i will be stressing on abs, and upper body for a long while. 

first day back in the gym. holy shit i lost sooo much muscle at training. i felt so frickin stupid. i have my work cut out for me thats sure true… i probably wont get back to those people that emailed, commented, and whatever else while i was away. there is just too many to deal with… if you really have something for me ask or tell me now and i will try to keep up with this site like before. oh and i have a question for the general public…  thoughts on the product : MuscleTech Anabolic Halo. it says for men only and im not sure if i should go against that or not and if its even worth my time or better yet my money.. also this product: Muscle Asylum Project N.O. Plasmacore… thanks guys.

so im graduated and home now. it may take me a few days to get back into all thus, and to finally reply to those i didnt in the 15weeks i was gone…. basic and AIT was great, not at the time but looking back now i would go back.. i slept in my PT’s last night and out of habit i put on my ACU’s this morning. its going to be difficult to get into the grove of normal life. well im off to the gym to un freeze my membership!!!! later y’all