holy ****!!!
so ive been away from bodyspace for months, trying to deal with depression and lose of ajob. its been 6 months and ive packed on a lot of extra weight and i am missing that passion i had for the gym. I went from hardcore gym and diet to now not wanting to go becuase my body is just too tired and a diet consisting of all the shit i havent eaten in 5 years. the worst part is I dont know how to pull out of it. Im looking through my pictures and im just amaze at how good i looked nad how "average american" i am now. Im probably a good 140lb, and just so disappointed in my loss of my award winnin will power. I honeslty dont think i cna get back to that shape again. Especially now since i have a full time job its hard to have the energy togo to work after 11 hr days of landscaping. I’m embarrased of what i have become.. eww
May 8, 2009 at 7:59 pm
Don’t be embarassed. Sh*t happens in life. We’re human.
May 8, 2009 at 8:01 pm
Also just think of the blessings you have in life right now. Right now you can walk, talk, see and piss. I work with old men who wish they could stand up and pee like a man instead they have to have young chickadees help them. Try to keep things in perspective my brother. I’ve been there so I understand the feeling.
May 12, 2009 at 9:36 pm
you did it once, you can do it again. just need to work your schedule out a little more. i think you inspired a lot of people, don’t give up. get back in before it gets too late.
May 14, 2009 at 2:30 am
YOU CAN DO IT!!
I suffer from depression and even when i feel my worst i ‘force’ myself to go because I know even a short workout will make me feel better. I bet you don’t look as bad as you imagine either.
And muscle has memory too so I’m sure you will bounce back!!!
keep smiling