Lady McMike’s BodyBlog

nobody ever said fitness was easy. it wasnt the first time and it definantely isnt going to be any better this time around. But shit if i quit now then what the **** did i bust my ass for before. From here on out shut your eyes, shut up, dont listen to anything people say to you (esp since most of the people giving you are hard time were overweight) and ****ing drive. you got yourself in this "mess", its you who has to get out!!! do it, do it now!!! lol

 off to the gym to squat for like an hr before work, and then  back after work to crush abs. and do some cardio. todays goal is to get back on a healthy eating patten. clean is lean!!! hahaha. ready GO!

so ive been away from bodyspace for months, trying to deal with depression and lose of ajob. its been 6 months and ive packed on a lot of extra weight and i am missing that passion i had for the gym. I went from hardcore gym and diet to now not wanting to go becuase my body is just too tired and a diet consisting of all the shit i havent eaten in 5 years. the worst part is I dont know how to pull out of it. Im looking through my pictures and im just amaze at how good i looked nad how "average american" i am now. Im probably a good 140lb, and just so disappointed in my loss of my award winnin will power. I honeslty dont think i cna get back to that shape again. Especially now since i have a full time job its hard to have the energy togo to work after 11 hr days of landscaping. I’m embarrased of what i have become.. eww