Lady McMike’s BodyBlog

so i decided that a month of tanning was a good idea. work on my image a little, deal with this skinny white chick look. haha. yea well 2 days, just two and im already burnt to a crisp. my bum looks like a lobster and and it is so impossible to sit down. i keep telling myself that at the end of the month when all my muscles show better becuase they are all nice and broze-like it will be worth it becuase i will look like a golden statue… haha or something like that… ugh til then i will suffer through the burn…

i have had a problem falling asleep and stayng asleep for the last three weeks. i have tried everything, or so i think so. sleepytime tea, warm milk, relaxing music, boring myself to death before sleeping, not taking naos, and working out for an hr before bed. and no matter how tired i feel i can never get into a nice deep sleep. i mean i was sick and took meds that cause drowsiness and i still wouldnt fall asleep. so if anyone knows of anything else i could try i would appriciate it. thanks.

ps. i got a new video finally. check it out .

i finally had an extra minute to get a new video up. im not impressed but i hope you like it.

so the other day i was talking to one of my favorite "shake people" at my gym and she told me i needed to bulk up again, which made me think, hmmm wtf, am i looking small?? i hope not becuase im busting my ass but maybe too much. honestly i thought i was getting alot less trim but thats besides the point. but in the midst of talking seh suggested the Apex Smore Cookies, just as a snack. they are 190 cal, and 15grams of protein. im not one to really do much "snaking" or rather any eating between meals which isnt always good becuase my metabolism is stopping and starting becuase i wait so long so i figured what the hell lets try it. so i broke down and bough one today. its was $2.50 but worth every damn cent. i thought it was amazing tasting. there was just something about it that was like "oooo damn" lol. so i would suggest this for anyone looking for something in between meals. its even says perfect between meals on the wrapper. lol… try, you’ll love it or maybe not, what do i know… def beat Detour bars which i must say are the worst in my opinion, exp the new lean muscle is alright.

well im waiting around till food time, yes time, I have OCD and i watch the clock and wait til the clock strike midnight and i turn into a pumpkin. no jk. but i do wait til an exact hr. dont ask i dont control it. but anyways then when i’m done in a timed manner i am going to the gym again today. im hoping i make myself so exhuasted  actually fall asleep tonight. I havent sleep without waking up at least twice for about two weeks now. ive been sick but ive been on meds and i feel ok. i just cant sleep to save my life. so i get two workouts in today… plus i sleep!!! fingers crossed… sry for rambling about nothing.

ive recently been extremly sick and its been very hard to get good workouts in. or at least one that arent more painful than they should be or ones that im proud of. And then there is the fact that its winter time and i tend to get more down than normal, and then add some family issues, strokes, cancer and hospitalizations and its just really hard to focus on hitting the weights. And then add the fact that im trying to not fail in these last weeks of school and im a walking and ticking time bomb of stress. and you would think that the stress would give me some extra pumps but its honestly just making everything seem so much heavier. I just dont feel liek myself and more and it really sucks. I leave the gym and im just like what the **** was that? It frickin sucked. And yea im hard on myself but shit its not easy to stay this way. I cant bullshit workouts and stay "sexy". or at least not mentally. thats the hardest part, i feel im losing my touch, and that is a really horrible feeling let me tell you. Im just afraid im going to say why bother and there goes damn sexy forever… forever. dammit!!