Lady McMike’s BodyBlog

well im going on my last month.. actually i have lesss than a month till i leave for FORT LEONARDWOOD!!! <- thats a front im pretty nervy already, haha… well my finger is getting better and now that xmas is over and the gym isnt close im getting back into a regular schedule, regular but a new regular. I ahve to switch a lot of stuff with times I eat because of the typical day in the Army being so different from what i am used to. I will be hard to go from eating my dinner at 8-10pm to in the Army it being 5pm without making some changes first before i go. I am also working on switching and broadening my food selection becuase if not im in trouble with that. I have eaten the saem thing everyday at the same time for the last 6 months, because it works for me, but im not going to get that food in basic i know. I have to get used to it. but trust me its not easy. Just shopping for new food was hard. i wanted to put all the saem shit in my cart the whole time. Its going to be a real pain but its just something i have to do to make it a little easier of a transition ya know. If i had my choice i wouldnt but i dont want to be a complete stubborn brat…. but back to the finger thing. Its much better. the swelling is down, the color is almost normal the circulation is still bad so its cold as ice all day, but i was able to get it to grip around the d-bell today for most of the workout. the rest of the time i had to stick it straight out, and yes i looked stupid pointing forward. i just have to not push the finger too much but to kinda push the flexibity so that it doesnt take forever to heal. i need that finger to be in top shape by jan 24th or im not leaving, and im not in anyway excited to stay at home longer. I want to get to basic, blow through it and then get back home and start my damn Personal Training carrer. And if i have to wait more than i have already i might blow a fit. But im hoping for the best. well i hope evryone had a great Christmas!!

i went to the dr. yup, me, i broke down and went– spent all day there too.. like always. but good news is its not broken… bad news is it will stay swollen for 3 months which posses a problem because i ship in a month. i cant bend my right index ("trigger") finger. thats bad. Now i dont know whats going to happen because thats pretty important for basic. So im not sure whats going to happen now, but one thing i do know is im pissed about it. I guess i cant stay mad for long because i cant do a damn thing about it, i can pout for however long it takes to heal or i can shut up and just suck it up and deal. I’m sry ive just been bitching  the last few blogs, this probably isnt a great read for anyone, im just letting of some steam.

but im at my cottage and i get to see most my family tomorrow which hasnt happened in a while so it will be nice. thank god for the holiday, it makes everything seem a little less horrible. well to anyone that joined me in my pity party and read my bitch fest— happy holidays!!!

well i thought my finger would get better but its just as swollen and just as blue, and still stiff as hell. I can hardly bend it, and its really messin up my workouts. I didnt think that it was broken at first but based on the looks and feel of it something is not right, maybe just a small fracture but im not sure. i am the worst at going to the dr, but i thibk this time imgoing to break down fast and go becuase it just that useless right now. i cant use it, bend it, touch it, nothing. and do you know how hard it is to spead peabut butter on a hot bagel before a workout with yout pointer and middle finger taped together… its hard let me tell you. i never realize how many typical things require the use of hands, and how mucb longer it takes to do the simplest things now. its frusterating to say the least… tomorrow is usually a nice bi, tri, back type workout… all hand use… its going to be hard to curl with 2 fingers that cant curl… well i think im going to ice the puffy disaster, take some tyonol and call it a night, and pray that come morning its all healed. haha that would be a miracle… times two.  

well today was a fairly horrible day. I might have broken my index finger and becuase the tylonol is wearing off im typing with my poiner fingers like an old lady. and im in a good deal of pain so this is going to be a little bit brief… but heres what i did, i was doing db rows witb a 60lber and i when i went to put it back i was watching the guy next to me and i ended up putting the weight on my finger, pinning my finger between the weight and the rack. it split my finger reak good and it bled for the rest of my work out. it swelled up like a balloon and its a pretty color. i have a pic but i dont think anyone wants to really see that, its pretty gross. My workout suffered to say the least but there was no way i was calling it quits for just a little more than normal pain. it was hard to curl with a finger that coukdnt bend but im not a quitter, i seriously never ever quit. i could have a broken finger, ill find out tomorrow maybe and i still finished up all my stuff. I’m rediculous i know but im no quitter. hopefully this never say die attitude carries me through basic.  lets hope!!!! ok more tylonol, and sleep…

i just wanted to give a nice general thanks to all of the people that respond to my blogs and for supporting me in a positive way. i read them all and they make me think more positive and it really helps to hear all the nice things people have to say. It pulls my head out of my ass and makes me realize i just have to keep on chugging forward and stop being so un-sure of myself. So thank you to all of you who say im inspiring and motivating and that i rock. lol. You are the people who rock, the people that can take the time out of there day to compliment someone else, and be a wonderful support system. Its great to think that this site, is a community and we are all in this together, so why not help each other out. It makes sense to me. But honestly i appriciate everything, from everyone, and im sorry i cant always respond. Leaving for basic soon, my head is kind of all over the place. But thanks again guys, you are the greatest. I only hope i give as much support as i recieve…

thank you, thanks you, thank you!!!!

well i think its pretty obvious by the title but i’ll tell you all about it. its fairly simple but im walking out of the gym and some chick looks at me and says "you’re getting to skinny". i looked at her like throw down your bag so i can beat you into the snow. but i just laughed at her and said, thats not what i was going for. and i guess thats why i got so mad about it. I’, trying to get bigger and i thought that i was but her saying i was getting too skinny made me second guess myself. I know im small, but i honestly thought i was putting on some nice mass, yes its been slow but its coming along… but maybe its not. maybe im lying to myself and im just this string bean thing that people look at and think of giving me a cheese burger. which brings back all the memories of when i was "sick" ( read previous blog all about me and my past) and cashing at Wegmans and people would harass me for my weight. i was once offered a pizza by one customer, and some cookies and various other peoples items. I was also asked if i was 98lb by some older rich lady, that i almost punched in the face, but didnt becuase i had to smile instead, being that i was at work. If im too skinny then im kinda pissed, ok a lot a pissed, very pissed. I dont want to be the little one, the skinny one, and i dont like names like string bean and shit like that. i like when my guy friends. aka potenital stalkers at the gym call me "killer, pipes, guns, and my all time favorite "the boss". this is the person i want to be, the one the women fear and the one that guys love to hate but also love to watch. So being skinny is not  going to cut it. I want lean dont get me wrong. but trying to balance the two is sometimes like trying to find help at a walmart. lol. maybe i need to reasses what im doing, or maybe….. i need to put it out of my head, and not listen to some random chick, even though i know for a fact that she was a SSG in the Marines, so shes not a complete novody. Either way it just threw me off i guess. you get into your own world and then somebody and someone runs into it and it sakes you all up sometimes, and you lose sight of what you thought you knew. Maybe thats just me though. Maybe me always falling off the ball when someone nudges me indicates that im not confident in what im doing, and im not confident in me. And maybe thats what i need to work on?? who knows..

so i saw a commercial for the American Gladiator redo they are doing on i think its NBC starting january 6th, which im super excited about becuase that was my all time favorite show growing up. But it got me thinking, i honestly think that would be the sweetest job on the world for me. I have spent the last 2 years in college wasting time basically. I wanted to be an architect since i was ten years old, and i was all set with the rest of my life, until i interned with my uncle and it hit me , if i had to do this for the rest of my life i would cry. I then pulled myself out of architecture, and havent been able to find my spot since. i changed majors 3-4 times and still have no idea what im doing after basic. But to be an american gladiator would be the most amazing thing ever. Just beating the shit out of some chick and working out and getting bigger and all that shit. It seems ideal for someone like me. I may look small, but i could whoop on anyone if i really wanted to. too bad i have no idea how to go about getting that job…. oh well, a girl can dream.

well i would like to take this time to welcome myself into the 800 club. "Welcome self". lol. ok so heres the deal. I had to take sunday off from the gym to standing in the bitter cold, and pat down more females than i would ever like to admit, but i got some interesting stories out of it. haha ( i worked the bills game as security fyi) so i couldnt go on sunday and saturday i was so destroyed and tired from the whole body combat thing that when i took a nap i slept passed my window of oppurtunity to lift at all that day. So i guess this nice little break gave my body the time i needed to rebuild and prepare itself to get destroyed again. the point, yes im getting to it. today was an awesome awesome awesome, and i cant rexpress it enough awesome workout. I started out with the typical squats but stepped up the amount of reps, and sets. then lunges which i did the same to, then some abs and then the leg press. I started out with 12 reps of like idk there were 5- 45’s on there and then i did a warm up set with just 6 with like 7 or 8 45 plates, and then i went for the gold. lol. the 800lb press. The only thing i will say is: it was a bitch and i thought i was going to crumble inderneath it, but i said to myself "you better ****ing lift this thing back up or im going to be pissy all day", and i did and i jumped up and danced around like an idiot like always. but really can you blame me for being so happy…. well then after i put all the weights i borrowed from the other room i then switched up my entire order and the new order is sooo much better, in that i put me in so much more pain, meaning i hit all the right spots and utilized my musles more. By switching order i was able to focus more on hams and add more weight. i dont rememeber the rest becuase by this time my body was screaming and i didnt pay attention much. I stummble out of the gym and home to make the best, thickest shake ever, which is always nice to just get the measurements right and get the perfect. mmm good shake. lol. i then took a nap and now im dealing with a pinch in my back. but im still happy about this morning. so its all good.

wow, im sorry this story was all o ver the place. sry guys

lol, so i went to the gym this morning to take my body combat class, like every saturday. i was a little spectical becuase last night i put myself through hell and i was low crawling, sprinting, doing push ups and sit ups and whatnot outside in the cold. trying to get used to being in the cold and having to do all these things in missiori for basic. I then took a two mile run afterwards and surprisingly i didnt have any trouble breathing like i thought i would. I have a problem usually with cold air and breathing. it was funny, the lasy that lives behind me called the cops on me and so 2 squad cars showed up and they were walking around with flashlights looking for me. i laughed and came inside knowing they were looking for me, i then went out with my mmom and explained i was just doing so abstract training and i wasnt trying to rob a house or do anything bad. lol…. but anyways back to todays bodycombat class…. it was awesome… kelly- my favorite instructor just kicked our asses… but the sad part is i loved it. i love having to dig deep and pull out explosive energy and really pushing yourself, to the point where you sweat so bad it drips down your face… yum, lol. BUt i need that, i need to get my ass kicked everyonce in a while, have someone yelling to go faster, punch harder, yell louder, and just come outside of your body and become this little monster almost. the class is great on a normal day but today she had us do 3 mauy thai tracks in a row. these are the hardest, dirtiest tracks and she had us do 3. I was really happy with myself becuase i didnt fade out at all, even at the third one i was still high on energy. i guess it was becuase it was new and i like new. Everything is getting so routine and mundane. day in and day out of the same shit, it gets boring and its hard to be happy, and energetic about it. when i can sleep through m workouts becuase its that automatic by now its a bad thing. so this ass kicking class really did me a lot of good. I wish i had a friend that was more fit than me so they could get me in the gym and just try to destroy me, but i dont. none of my firends even workout. its sad really. lol.. but come time for basic im going to get plently of this in your face shit im looking for. should be fun. lol.

well im off to help mom clean the house. ugh. I have to give a little, to get a little. lol.

hey holly…. suck it! seriously you just piss me off, becuase you’re not even a memeber of this site yet you continually come on here and leave negitive comments. who the **** does that, comes on to a site that they are not part of and leaves stupid, mean comments. I would enever do that. this site is like a community, we work together and support each other so that we can all try to achieve our goals, and you come up in here for no reason and have the balls to leave such shitty comments.