Lady McMike’s BodyBlog

I am so sick of this waking up at 4am to lift becuase of school. This morning was the worst. I felt weak, and slow and i was so pissed off the whole time. I felt like i couldnt do anything right. So, as if thats not enough i get home to make my protein shake and I ended up blending my straw into the mix and i didnt have enough time or protein to start over, so im fishing  little pieces of plastic out of my shake. I just hope the day gets better from here becuase im really frusterated

Hey, ive been listeining to the same shit for like the last few weeks. I started to download some new stuff but it just isnt doing it for me. Its either too happy and i feel like dancing instead of working out, or its too idk, lame to feel like doing anything. I had a lot of really good stuff but after so much time over and over again its lost its touch, and its not helping crank out that last pump like it used to. So any thoughts on bands or songs are appriciated.

thanks

Ok, so school started and its really messing with me.  During the summer my head was allowed to be 100%focused on lifting and fitness and whatever. But now its divided and i have to think about school too now. And also the fact that i have classes at the saem time i used to lift everyday. Its screwing me up. I cant seem to get into a smooth pattern with school and working out. There arn’t enough hours in the day to do everything i want and not be dead by like 11 oclock at night. Im draggin around the middle of the day, making it hard to be all excited to drive my ass to the gym for cardio at night. I dont know, i just hope I can find some kind of hapy balance between the two things. Maybe work on some time management. All i know is that im very frusterated by this and ive been insanly edgy and moody, and my mother is getting pissed off at me because im so up in arms about fitting everything in.

Well i have to go read some bullshit book by plato… it should be… sucky and unfun. LOL

I just wanted to do a little update here. I was supposed to be dropping weight but i got bored with that after the first day or so. Plus my legs were feeling really good lately. So, this morning I woke up at 4am, yes 4. Its crazy but I have to go before school, which im really mad about, but whatever, i have to learn i guess. Even though this "learning" is getting in the way of my old routine. Anyways, i went to the gym at 4, it was a leg day. I oppted not to use the smith machine at all. I usually use free weights and then load the smith machine after awhile with the free’s. But It puts alot of pressure on my spine and i was reading that the smith may be safer but it doesnt always utilize all the muslces like regular barbell squats. So i did 3×8, then added a little weight and did 1×20. which was less of  challange than last time, thank god. then i added more weight and did 2more sets of 8 or 10 i think. I was feeling pretty good going into the leg press so i just went for it, even at 4am i was excited to challange myself, which is super awesome. Becuase that means i wasnt just walking around like a zombie this time. Anyways, again.. sry im very tired right now so this is super all over the place… So i kept adding 45’s and I ended at 620lbs. I think i could have done more but I didnt want to snap my knees. So that whole big story was just to say i leg pressed 620lbs this morning, lol.

Like always im going to take a really loong nap and get my ass up in time to get to the gym again for cardio… Which has been kinda odd for me lately. I ran out of creatine, and also dont have enough money to buy more. So im going into cardio as just me and no help and its kinda weird. I just kinda doze off and i just kinda look around. Im still burning as many calories and going as fast, im just not focused on me, im looking around at everyone else and not really paying attention.

And blah blah blah… im really going to take a nap now. Later : )

ME. I would be the moron. Wow, i had the dumbest moment at the gym today. So i was doing the bench press like always. Adding weight and adding weight. And then i got up to attempt like 165. A little crazy but i was feeling good about it. Yea, up until the point where I tried to kill myself. Dumbass. So I was using he smith machine, and ya know you have to click it back to unlock it. So i do that and immediatly my wrist buckle back, and then i dropped the bar on my chest. So now im sitting there with 165lbs on my chest and not a damn thing to do about it. I couldnt lift the damn thing, and it was too low to hook it. So after trying to figure out what the hell to do, i squirmed my way out from underneath the damn thing. It was a horrible experience, and i never want to walk up to the bar thinking im superwoman again. But i am also thinking about wrist straps. i see guys use them all the time, and maybe i got to a weight that my arms can handle possible but my wrist might snap in half. I dont know, but im gonna take it easy on the killer bar for awhile… aka a day for me. lol. So now that everyone reading this thinks im an idiot and they are probably laughing picturing this chick wiggling around like a dumb shit. I know i laughed when i started breathing again. haha…

So today i went to my first drill for the guard. It was just family picnic, but we still did a PT test first. We had a minute to do as many sit ups and pushups as possible. Then run a mile. I scored 55 pushups and 48sit ups, and ran the mile in 6:57. I was decently happy with it. The guy that was counting my pushups told me i beat his PT score when he first went t BT and so I wouldnt have a problem at all. It made me feel pretty confident, which is not a feeling I ever get. But i must say i felt pretty sick being the fourth person over all to finish the mile run, with 2 of them being on high school track teams. It was a good day and i feel ok about this, i was nervous to start the day off, becuase i didnt know what to expect but after awhile i eased into it and relaxed, and i feel confident that I made a good life choice for once.

 However, I have to nit-pick and always be unsatified- but thats how i get to be the way I am. Sure just listening to people talk about what they got, I beat a good majority of the males that were there, But still i would like to get that better by my ship date. I would like to knocked of a good chunk of my mile time, I’d like to crank out more situps and pushups.  I am NEVER satisfied with anything that is not ABOVE my best. Good is not good enough, great is not good enough, excellent leaves room for improvement, and perfect is tweekable…. Obsessive- maybe. Crazy- possibly…. Determined- definatly..

So, i have had a really really rough week. I started out sick- Nausea, drowiness, dizziness, headache. I thought i had the flu, but come to find out it was worse. We came to the conclusion that I had gotten carbon monoxide poisoning.  But the thing was it was from my car, so everyday i drove to the gym recently it was filing up in the car. Hence the reason my workouts and training in general have been suffering. But hey, i figured out what was the problem and I am feeling much better.

Plus today was a really really good leg workout. I started off with squats and i got that up to 275. Then i got on the leg press and I was going to stay with what i said and use less weight so i didnt hurt myself again, but i couldnt help it. I got the leg press up to 600lbs. Yup, it was a real bitch to push that shit, let me tell you. I must have had the most rediculous look on my face but thats ok, lol. I did it and I continued through the workout with a smile on my face because dammit it felt good. It always feels good to accomplish something you shouldnt be able to do. I will admit I stood there looking all that weight thinking… umm i dont think so, and you’re crazy for even trying this. But I closed my eyes and told myself just do it, and it was done…

I’m feeling sleepy now though so im going to finish off my shake and take a nice looong nap

Well this morning i was pretty stupid i think. I jacked the leg press up to 570 and killed what energy i had. The rest of my workout was so hard becuase i was dragging. I think im going to chill out on the heavyness of my leg press and just kinda tone for a while so i dont end up killing my knees. Then after a week or so I want to get it to 600lbs next. That the goal at least. We’ll see how it goes.

I completed all my APFT goals today. I got bored and oppted to finished off my list by adding the 25 pull ups. I figured what the hell, i got nothing better to do…By 15 i was thinking im not going to make it, there is no way. My endurance drained out of me faster than I thought it would, and im up there thinking damn i really wanted this. By 20 i started to think ok, well your this close just go for it. 21,22,23,24,25,26… show off! And there it is goal reached. My previously injured bicep (which i never let properly heal) feels torn to pieces but im feeling good about it. What also feels good is that i went to a Poole event once and the top number of pull-ups for the office i was with was i believe- 13. Maybe thats me bragging or whatever u want to call it, but im over it. Everyday i hear how men are stronger and blah blah blah. I hear it all day at work and it drives me nuts. I work as a cart person at Wegmans, and I am told I can’t do my job becuase im a girl, regardless if i just pushed in 2 rows of 30 carts each, It doesnt matter im a chick and i cant be strong…Women are strong dammit! And now that ive gone off on a tangent im done.

I have to say I haven’t felt this destroyed by a workout in a really long time. But i guess thats what i get for pushing myself to the max. I guess, given the results I can still manage a smile though. I packed on the leg press so much today and got to 560lbs. It was bitch im not even going to say it was easy or fun- because it wasn’t. But hey its over and I did so i can’t complain much anymore.