LKThomas’s BodyBlog

You know that feeling you get after having a really good workout. Exhausted, relaxed, and totally ready to do it again?

Yeah , I hit that today and plan on going back for more tomorrow.

I am going to blow my goals away!!!

I am tired of making excuses.

I am tired of feeling like crap.

I am tired of people looking and me trying to decide if I am pregnant or not.

I am tired of hiding from the camera.

I am tired of looking like ****.

I am tired of being tired.

I am tired of wasting time.

I am tired of not following through on my goals and ambitions.

I am tired of putting others and other things before myself.

And you know what?

I am not ****ing around anymore. I am going to do something about it. Right now.  

Well I am dusting off the cobwebs and taking a look around again. Something happens when a particularly stressful thing comes up. My workouts and everything else goes right down the black hole (toilet). The month of May was a wash. So here I am the second week in June thinking what the eff just happened?

So I am getting back on the wagon. I can’t beat myself up over what has passed. It is time to get things going again. Which means I have to get used to dieting again. I have to get used to not drinking alocohol. I will get used to being in the gym again. 

I know I have lost muscle due to inactivitiy. But I am starting over. I will put in new goals. I have some BIG events coming up in July which will require swimsuits so I need to be ready for that.  I would also like to get back into a couple of really cute outfits.

"Pick yourself up, brush your self off, reload…" Dave Gahan

So I shall.

For years I was totally against lifting. I would do cardio until I was exhausted. I did aerobics, running, swimming, and all the cardio machines in the gym. And you know I never really saw the great results I had hoped for.

Now I am doing a 5 day workout that is exclusively lifting. I am in my 4th week and the results have been very nice - 5 inches off my waist already! And for the first time in a long time I have enjoyed my workouts. I keep the intervals between sets to 30 seconds. I sweat and my heart rate increases.

So I found it interesting last night when one of the trainers at the gym took an interest in my workout. I told him I had pulled it from an online source - he smirked. Seriously. When I told him I pulled it off of this website he stopped smirking and looked at my print out. He asked what i did and I told him that righ tnow I was focused on lifting. He then proceded to tell me that since I am a woman and if I want to see any results I need to make sure that I still do cardio. I did have the decency not to laugh.  

Now I do plan to add in cardio once I get further in my workout. Definitely after the 12 weeks my hope is to have 3 days lift, 3 days cardio. But how important is cardio at this point? If I am getting the results I want and working extremely hard do I still need to have that 3 x 30 minutes of cardio a week.

So I have two days of workouts under my belt post-illness. And I want to be in the gym right now. I am ready to consider going twice a day. I am so pumped to hit my goals right now that I want to do them yesterday. I researched my new workout plan. I have all my supplements right where I want them. I am there.

One month and so much has changed. My body has changed for the better. I am really excited to see what these next six weeks will bring. But I must focus my time and energy on my goals. That is without sacrificing my other commitments like work and home. But I am focused on the task at hand. I can do this. I will do this.

Well I was down and out. I was sicker than I have been in a VERY long time. Sinus infection and strep. I could barely get out of bed last week. No gym. No work. Heck I even missed Easter with the family. The biggest amount of physical activity including knitting and even that wore me out.

But yesterday I felt human. The cotton in my head had finally dissapated. My throat was not sore. (I lived on protein shakes last week since I could barely swallow.) I ate a regular meal. I felt good. And this morning I was back in the gym. I did a light lifting workout. And it was wonderful. I am ready to jump full bore but I knwo I need to keep it simple for a couple of more days so I don’t chance a relapse. But it felt good to be back.

No one plans to get sick. Lord knows I don’t ever want to be that sick again. But I did stay focused that as soon as I was well I would be back in the gym. While sick I did not give myself license to eat or drink willy nilly. No. I kept to eating clean and drinking lots of water and tea. I rested. I took my supplements faithfully. I increased the vitamens that I knew would help me recover. I didn’t push myself to do things that I knew my body could not do even though my head really wanted to. like go to the gym. Now that I am back to about 98% I am ready to workout and continue on with my program.

There is a great article in the supersite for a flu supplement stack. I whole heartedly feel that if you start feeling run down or the sniffles to start that stack immediately. It really does help.

I have 13 pounds and six weeks to goal - it is doable.

I have not been feeling well the past couple of days. I have a feeling I have caught a bug. I am trying to work through it but I could not get in the gym last night. I am exhausted. Even with a good night sleep. Also making sure to include high quality supplements and drink tons of water. I hope to make it this evening but I am going to have to play it by ear. I don’t want to be thought of as a whiner or someone who gives up. I am not but today - I just hope that the aches and fatigue go away. 

Today is the first day I actually feel better. I have realized that Sunday’s off day really caused havoc on my system. The thought of eating off my plan makes me nauseous. And the thought that it will only get worse makes me want to stay very focused. I feel bloated and tired but not sick. So that helps things. I hope for a high quality workout this evening. Yesterday I drank 5L of water. That does not include tea or diet soda or my recovery drink. So I have a feeling that I will be spending a great deal of time in the restroom today.

The thing is that I am still motivated and feel very positive about what I have done so far. I am really excited to see where I go next in this journey. I need to hit my goals first. Then think about what is next. The interesting part (if you noticed) is that there is no if in my vocabulary anymore. It is all about when and achieving. I have no doubt that I will make my goals. That is no April Fools.

My stomach and I are still at odds. Not nearly as bad as yesterday but it is still there. I should be a testment to clean eating and what it can do to change your life and eating habits. It just surprises me the difference in my energy levels, skin, and overall well-being. I sleep better. Emotionally I am balanced. I have a feeling that this is slowly going to be transferring to my family. Not intentionally but I will work to buy more organic and whole grain items. I think it will be helpful to the whole family.

My workout last night was fine. Not the high energy ones that I really like and feel better on. But I made it in there and I did it. I bought a recovery drink that is well nasty. I don’t care for it at all. I may try to cut the dose a bit to see if that helps. Chugging does not seem to help the gag reflex.

I have not written in a few days. I had Friday off so my routine was a little off. I did get all of my workouts in for the week. I am really proud of my progress. I may need to think of doing something on Sundays. I had the worst insomnia last night. Of course having a cheat dinner (oh the agony) did not help matters in the least.

Have you ever been afraid of your clothes? I mean have you looked at your favorite pair of jeans and worried that they would not fit? I have. Or at least I did before starting this program. I was paranoid of the clothing that was a hair too tight or too short. Waist bands that cinched at the waist. Well more and more I don’t have that fear. Clothes are fitting a whole lot better - even loose. Tops that fit and cover well. I am really seeing some great things through this transformation. I do really need to add in cardio and jump things up a bit. But it is good.

Ugh. The cheat meals have really killed me these past couple of weeks. Last night I was up all night with a horrid stomach ache. That lead to a glorious bout of insomnia. I really cannot decide which was worse. They both sucked. Tonight I will be very tight on my eating and get in a good HARD workout. Then (I hope) sleep like a baby.

I am almost brave enough to put up a photo. I am kind of waiting until my waistline is less than a yard. Only two inches to go.