This is my first post since forever: I just wanted to include this webcast link to my page. I really enjoyed this webcast Fitshow Episode 48 with Gina Aliotti. I did not have any other way to download the webcast to my page.. I think other Figure competitors will get motivated by watching this~Enjoy!!
http://webcast.bodybuilding.com/fitshow/fitshow/episode48/fsi_syntrax.htm
First let me tell you a little about me. I had started being consistant with my workouts and eating in October of 2006. I had a goal in mind, I knew I wanted to compete but still had not set any dates for a show until January 2007. By this time, I knew I was ready to get serious and start putting a 110% into my mind and body. I was so focused and dedicated. I had this drive in me, I knew what I wanted to do, and knew what I wanted my body to look like. Mid-March I hired a coach to help me with my diet, and was focusing on doing the NPC MID USA Competition in town. This worked out wonderfully. I went from 130lbs (BF% ??) to 118lbs and 14% bodyfat. This was the lowest weight I had been in a very long time. I had never felt better. Even though I was dieting so hard and low on energy, I felt so good. Healthy and balanced. The OCB SW Naturals were coming up also, but it was earlier than I thought I would be ready for.. My coach said I should try it just to get my feet wet and know what to expect at the NPC. So I did it. Unfortunately, I did not enter the Open division since I was not really familiar with what divisions to enter? I ended up taking 1st place Novice and
1st Place
Overall. I had people from the audience coming up to me telling me I should always enter the Open, no matter what! They said I had a really good chance at getting a high placing if I would have entered the Open. ~Now, I know better~. Following the two competitions I had done in June ‘07. I had completely let my mind games get the best of me. I had no willpower, after depleting so drastically. My thoughts were, I would take a week off, and then continue to eat clean during the week, and have one cheat meal a week while I try to increase my calories just a bit to work on gaining some muscle. That didn’t happen. Instead, I went crazy, eating things, I would not normally eat even before I was dieting..
My body was freaking out because I had completely gained all the weight back that I had lost and then some. I stopped going to the gym consistantly, embarassed as to what people would say after coming up to me and telling me how great I was looking and then totally turning into a PIG. I had lost my desire and drive to get back in the groove. I seemed to not have any control over the cravings for sweets. This took its toll on my body and my mind. During this time that I was going through this downfall, I broke up with my boyfriend, and lost my grandfather. This just added to the pain and I felt like there was a weight just pulling me down, further and further.
It’s been too long since my last competition, and well, Im sick of feeling like I have no control. I miss feeling GOOD and in Control. I miss having that DRIVE!! I have been looking for it the last month or so..and still have not empowered myself completely YET… but I know it will come once I start hitting the gym consistantly again. I just want to get within 10lbs of my comp weight. I am sure I’ve gained a some muscle from the heavy workouts I have been doing during this time of inconsistancy. I know I can do it.. I just have to get to it!
My mission is to get back into competition shape, and this time keep track of my diet and my training here, and be a transformation success story. I don’t know if there are many women who fall off the wagon, just to start all over again, but I AM going to do it. This time, the right way. My goal is to stay consistant after the competition and stay within 7-10lbs from competition weight. Lord knows, it’s not going to be an easy task to do what I did the last time. Especially since I weigh 16 lbs more than I did back then. “My mind is strong, and my body will follow what I visualize my body doing”.. I know I will do this, and hope you will join me on this journey. * I will be posting my before ;0( and after photos as soon as I get them downloaded.*
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