Can’t do the panty pic…. (rant)
I almost feel like a failure… I do it, I feel shallow, don’t do it, I feel like something is wrong with me and I’m just over reacting.
So I’ve been working hard on my legs these last couple of weeks really pushing the weights and wanted to get some good pictures of my legs and booty. I have some swim bottoms that are okay but I really wanted more like a string bikini type because my old ones from "fat me" made my butt look big in the back now cuz they don’t fit me any more. I don’t own a string bikini. Haven’t looked good enough to be seen in one. So anyway, I’m at Wal-mart and I see some cute panties. I don’t do thongs, god knows my husband wishes I liked them, lol but I can’t stand the things. I’ve TRIED to like them, like I’ve TRIED to like tuna but I just don’t. I can’t stand feeling like I have a wedgie all day… I don’t know how girls do it. So that’s kind of always made me feel a little less sexy but not so much… I’m okay with it. So I find some undies at Wal-mart that have a string around the sides and are full butt coverage. Perfect. At least I’ve given up the Granny panties okay?? Hubby is thankful for that… (poor guy) So I buy them and get to thinking when I get home that maybe I could use them to take my legs/hams/booty pics in for my progress pics. Fine, I take the pictures. I find some that are good and I post them. These really aren’t nasty panties or anything, just had some peace signs on the front and stripes on the back. No lace or peek-a-boos. (dear god!) Just freakin’ panties.. Like a swim suit but smaller. Okay?
I get them up and feel really nervous about it. I only put them in my progress section because I don’t want "comments" about them. Just want the progress pics. Still didn’t feel good about it. I felt/feel nasty and shallow. I want to have a nice body and show off a nice body and be proud of it but I just can’t do the PANTY PIC. LOL! TONS of women/girls on here do it. FAR more than I would ever think about doing it and that’s fine, they don’t have "issues" with it obviously. I want to be respectful with my transformation and I guess I just don’t feel respectful. I showed them to my husband. He didn’t mind but "I" minded so I took them down today. I even took down the picture of me in my swimsuit I bought at the beginning of summer. Didn’t feel good about that one either because I was trying to look all "sexy". I guess with transformations, there is a lot to deal with and think about.
So what’s up with all that?? Maybe I’m just getting used to being in new skin so to speak…. I just don’t like feeling SHALLOW. :::hmph::::!
August 15, 2008 at 7:00 pm
Your pictures all look very tasteful to me but what I think is really important is what is comfortable for you. You definitely look good enough to be in panties or a bathing suit! (:
August 15, 2008 at 7:13 pm
Who cares about the panty pic! If you don’t want to post one, it’s your choice… besides you look fab!
August 15, 2008 at 7:25 pm
i’m all for having some sort of modesty and respect for my body! I’m proud to show mine off, but I don’t need to be half naked in a skimpy thong to show my progress and neither should you! Good on you for having some morals!!!
August 15, 2008 at 7:42 pm
You look fabulous. There is something to be said for elegance. Be you, and everything else will take care of itself.
August 15, 2008 at 8:41 pm
Kymn,
I believe being healthy and fit not only relates to physically, but also encompasses other aspects of life. We don’t have to live up to the expectations of, or follow others. Create and live in your own comfort zone. You should feel good and be comfortable with yourself. I look forward to seeing any progress pictures you decide to share. Best wishes to you with your training and goal accomplishments.
August 16, 2008 at 6:02 am
Wow K. Us shallow people everywhere are offended. I love spending my life wallowing in all that is shallow–George Michael reunion tours, french pedicures for men, disparaging and insulting my friends and co-workers to elevate my own self-worth, I mean c’mon! Shallow Dave is hurt by your implication!
August 16, 2008 at 6:10 am
Your reaction is not uncommon. I went thru it big time. (not the panty thing, mind you….LOL) Getting used to & accustomed to one’s new body/look/etc is not all happy happy joy joy looky looky. Some serious head games go on. I’ve read posts in the Forum on it. It really screwed with my head for a while. Its 100% natural to be very unsure in one’s MUCH better looking skin.
August 16, 2008 at 8:16 am
I understand also. Back in 2006 I was on here and posted body pics and the comments where enourmously sexual. Took most of them down. Just left one boob pic for the heck of it! I feel ya.
August 17, 2008 at 12:33 pm
You have worked hard to look as good as you do. Just because you have achieved great results doest mean your duty bound to show us the results of your endeavours.
Heck, if you’re happy with your bum and from the sounds of it both you and your hubby are pleased, then that’s fantastic.
Some results are for sharing and others are for sitting on.
August 18, 2008 at 11:52 am
It is hard getting out of that "fat me" mentality huh? Personally, there are a lot of pictures that I think are over the top…from both male and female. You know, I can appreciate how hard people work to get into shape, but if I wanted to see everyones…er…stuff, I would subscribe to Playboy. Doesn’t make me a prude or a member of the moral police, just means it is not my thing. Your hard work is showing and you do whatever it is makes you comfortable.