Kymn’s BodyBlog

Getting back to a more balanced life instead of just sleeping, drinking and eating working out, I’m also getting back into what I used to do before body building and that’s a relaxing meditation or review of my day at night before I go to bed.  

I not only want a better body but I want a better mind and just want to be a better person all around.

So the idea of the daily review that I learned through esoteric spiritual studies is that you sit quietly and go through your day in an attempt to review your behavior and how you might have been able to change a situation.  Not what someone else did, or how can I change them, but in MY role of the dance, what could I have done differently to make the situation better or how can "I" change.  This isn’t to judge myself either but an attempt at being an accepting/loving observer of the moment in review.

My mind was drawn to lunchtime at Subway.  There were 2 girls ahead of me.  Very overweight, both getting footlongs, the first girl getting ranch dressing and the second literally saying "smother it in mayo".   SMOTHER it in mayo. 

Well, I guess since I eat better now and I just get a 6" with no cheese or dressing when I go, I must feel somewhat superior to those that don’t eat what I do.  If they don’t eat the same then there’s plenty of good room for my ego to judge and feel justified in doing so. I’m constantly looking at "bodies" and comparing.  Is that all there is to someone?

In my review I could see that it didn’t do me (or them) any good to have my judgements about them for not living a healthier life.  The best thing I can do for everyone is just to accept them where they are and "allow"  them to live the life they choose to live.  I think it’s the only way I can allow myself the same so that I can be at peace as well.

One thing I can do though if I really want to create change and that is to be the example AND the potential and that’s what I intend to do.

Kymn~

Well, I got mine delivered today!  My husband has been seeing amazing results with NoXplode and Kre-Alkalyn so no need to fix what isn’t broken but I’m not really feeling it so I decided to try the SizeOn.  There’s a lot of hype about it.  I’m hoping to gain some size from it and maybe a little veiny.  Not too much. LOL!  But a little.  I’m going to take measurements Monday morning and just see what this stuff can do and post my results.   Anyone have decent results??  Women especially.   I’m a bit nervous to take it and if I should take the full scoop??  I hate feeling like I’m taking drugs or something… I know, it’s a head thing…

Had a good work-out today.  Chest and tri’s.  Then did a 15 minute treadmil on a high incline walking fast to get my shins good.  That was nice.

I almost feel like a failure…  I do it, I feel shallow, don’t do it, I feel like something is wrong with me and I’m just over reacting.   

So I’ve been working hard on my legs these last couple of weeks really pushing the weights and wanted to get some good pictures of my legs and booty.  I have some swim bottoms that are okay but I really wanted more like a string bikini type because my old ones from "fat me" made my butt look big in the back now cuz they don’t fit me any more.  I don’t own a string bikini.  Haven’t  looked good enough to be seen in one.  So anyway, I’m at Wal-mart and I see some cute panties.  I don’t do thongs,  god knows my husband wishes I liked them, lol but I can’t stand the things.  I’ve TRIED to like them, like I’ve TRIED to like tuna but I just don’t.   I can’t stand feeling like I have a wedgie all day… I don’t know how girls do it.  So that’s kind of always made me feel a little less sexy but not so much… I’m okay with it.  So I find some undies at Wal-mart that have a string around the sides and are full butt coverage.  Perfect.  At least I’ve given up the Granny panties okay??  Hubby is thankful for that… (poor guy)   So I buy them and get to thinking when I get home that maybe I could use them to take my legs/hams/booty pics in for my progress pics.  Fine, I take the pictures. I find some that are good and I post them.  These really aren’t nasty panties or anything, just had some peace signs on the front and stripes on the back.  No lace or peek-a-boos. (dear god!) Just freakin’ panties..  Like a swim suit but smaller.  Okay?

I get them up and feel really nervous about it.  I only put them in my progress section because I don’t want "comments" about them.  Just want the progress pics.  Still didn’t feel good about it.   I felt/feel nasty and shallow.   I want to have a nice body and show off a nice body and be proud of it but I just can’t do the PANTY PIC. LOL!   TONS of women/girls on here do it.  FAR more than I would ever think about doing it and that’s fine, they don’t have "issues" with it obviously.   I want to be respectful with my transformation and I guess I just don’t feel respectful.  I showed them to my husband.  He didn’t mind but "I" minded so I took them down today.  I even took down the picture of me in my swimsuit I bought at the beginning of summer.  Didn’t feel good about that one either because I was trying to look all "sexy".   I guess with transformations,  there is a lot to deal with and think about.  

So what’s up with all that?? Maybe I’m just getting used to being in new skin so to speak…. I just don’t like feeling SHALLOW.  :::hmph::::!

So my daughter comes over yesterday and she said she heard this guy on Oprah say that if you put fish oil on your face it would work like botox, so of course if someone on Oprah says it’s good then the whole world must try it!! So she tried and wanted me to try it.  She’s always doing stuff like this and then wanting me to try.. she’s 22 and definately doesn’t need any face help but she continues to tell me it’s a little smelly.  I tell her I’ll try it tomorrow.. maybe…

So today I get cleaned up and I have the house to myself and thought I would give it a try.  What the hell.  I open the gel pill and put it on my face.  It is smelly…..  About an hour later I forget about it, I’m walking around the house cleaning and doing my thing.  It took the thought to come twice before I caught it but I thought, Man…..  I gotta get rid of that smell in this house… so I clean some more and then the 2nd time the thought comes I realize that it’s not my house, it’s my freakin’ smelly fish face! LOL!  I washed me face… I’m much better now.  I don’t think I noticed any difference… oh well…

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It’s kicking my butt!  Seriously works my back too!  Thought I would share.  

When I first started getting more serious about building a better body I did a lot of searching for what suppliments to take and ran across a female body builder that listed the suppliments she takes.  One of them was ISO-OPC. (snipped from article> An isotonic antioxidant that when taken first thing in the morning on an empty stomach enters the bloodstream within 20 minutes and attacks the body’s free radicals for up to 72 hours. More quickly and readily absorbed than capsules or tablets, it contains extracts from red wine, pine bark, and grape seed as well as bilberry extract and Vitamins C and E. Customers continually report relief from a full array of afflictions including chronic fatigue that our bodies go through on a daily basis from body building.  So I’ve been taking it ever since.  I’m skeptical about stuff but I really believe everyone, especially body builders should be on some kind of antioxidant.  

One thing I have witnessed is that when I have those first signs of a cold,(usually slight sore throat and a bit of a stuffy nose) I drop a tablet of Airborne (purchased at Wal-mart) with 2 heaping scoops of ISO as soon as I detect it and then 2 more times during the day it has kicked that cold right out.  I’m lucky that my immune system is pretty good anyway.  I hate colds and pretty much refuse to get them!  But this has really helped.  I’m not so lucky all the time but more so than not. 

Lots of good info about ISO-OPC on the internet if you are interested.  I just look for the cheapest price and purchase mine off of eBay.  PM me if you want links or more info. 

Aside from the green tea extract pills and my green tea with lemon that I drink during the day thats what I take.  I’d like to hear what you take as an antioxidant!  Please share your thoughts!

Kymn~

I decided to play with a meals on fitday.com to see if I could get a diet laid out for me that fit the calories I was looking for and my macros.  It was pretty easy and fun.  I’m going to try and stick with 2300 calories keeping my macros at 20/30/50.  I don’t know if it will work but I’m gonna try it for a while and see what happens!  If I could get one down then it will be pretty easy let go of calories when I’m ready to get serious about cutting the fat.  Right now I’m trying to build up my leg muscles so I need the extra calories.   I also made a new catagory called “Meal plan” so if someone wants to know what I’m currently eating then it will be easy to find. I think I’m going to do the same with my training plan.  It sure feels good to have it laid out and easy to tweek if necessary!  Give it a try!

Upon waking
ON Whey 1 scoop

I’ve been at the yo-yo thing for at least 5-6-7 years?  I haven’t let myself get over my limit which was 160 thank goodness but it’s still been a struggle for me.  I think I’m like everyone else that wants that great body but what a challenge to overcome your own mind!   I have always been able to eat whatever I wanted which allowed me to eat anything until my 3rd child in my 30’s.  I didn’t lose the weight so fast.  So, I would get into exercise for a while and then fall back to eating poorly.  

It just takes time to break habits or an iron will.  Slowly I have changed my eating habits and exercise.  I think what really helped is that I love to travel.  In 2005 I traveled to Russia with a group.  A few of the women were very over weight and were unable to go some of the places because they were just too wore out.  I was wore out too and only 10 or so pounds over weight.  No biggie, but it IS a biggie if I don’t exercise.  It was really frustrating to feel winded doing what I’ve wanted to do.  It helped me to see that I never want to be hindered by my body.  I want to climb, run and have some FUN!  I don’t want to be hindered.  So, that has been my inspiration. OH!  And to dance like Tina Turner when I’m 65! LOL!

Thank goodness my husband feels the same way.  My soulmate of 13 years.  Loves me thick or thin.  Never said a word when I’d call him asking for one of my "C’s"..  Coors, Cookies, Chocolate or Chips.  The C’s to live by! He has always accepted me unconditionally.  I don’t even know how lucky I am.    We have one child together.  She’s 11 now.  I have 2 of my own that are grown.  22 and 19.  Plus 1 grand daughter.  She’ll be 3 in a couple of weeks.

So, we workout together.  I research everything as much as I can and tell him what suppliments to take.  He researches a lot of exercises and helps me like a trainer would. 

I’m fortunate that I also get to stay home and be the artist that I have always wanted to be since I was in 1st grade.  I have no excuses when it comes to working out.  I have all the time I need to come up with a good routine.

As for this website and helping others,  I consider myself to be a motivational person and encouraging others to meet their goals.  I’m blessed to have what I do that in my life and certainly through this website.  I’ve really enjoyed talking with others who have similar goals.

Right now I’m working on a “balance”.   I have become a work out nut and need the other things in my life.  Painting, spirituality and a clean house. LOL!  (he never complains about me slacking on the housework either… how amazing is he….) 

My daughter has started school today so time to create some more goals and get busy on the house and back to painting.  I have a show at the end of the month!! 

I wanted to do this “About me” because it seems like when I read things about other people I can’t quite get a feel of who they are when I’d like to know more.   It’s just too weird asking someone for their biography.  LOL!  So there it is.  I also have my own website and myspace page.  Please feel free to share yours!  I’m here to help, share ideas and make friends!  Let’s get ripped together!!

 http://www.myspace.com/kimlaird

http://www.kimlaird.com/

I haven’t done any cardio in over a month and have missed doing it.  I just don’t feel healthy if I’m not exercising my heart as well as the rest of me.   So now that I feel like I’m getting in enough good calories I got on our eliptical this morning.  Felt good to get on it.  Drank 10gr of protein, 4 green tea extracts to wake me up and then drank Xtend during.   I did a 20 minute HIIT and then a 5 min cool down.  It was pretty good.  I was dying by the end. LOL!  That’s what it’s supposed to do though right?   My endurance has certainly gone down and I could feel the soreness in my legs that I hadn’t felt in a while so it’s good that I get back doing it again 2 to 3 times a week.   I’m glad we have the eliptical here at the house.  Saves a lot of drive time and I don’t have to starve on the way to the gym. 

Weighed in at 146.6  better than 144 at least!  I think I’m getting enough food finally.

I’m still trying to eat as much as I can.  Average 2100 - 2300.  It’s hard for me to eat much more than that.  Hard to believe but true.  I just want to stay as clean as possible.  I’ve been reading a lot about how many women have regretted bulking up.  I’ve been concerned about it myself and have decided that I’m not going to gain much more than I am now.  Maybe 5-7 pounds at the most.  Just enough to keep giving my body enough to put some muscle on my legs.  I have muscle but I really feel like I want a bit more before getting rid of the rest of fat.  At my height I have a concern of being too skinny.   So for now that’s the plan.  I’m glad the extra fat doesn’t bother me, maybe it’s easier since we will be moving into fall soon.    I do miss the cardio.  I’m going to start that back up next week.  At least twice a week and see how it goes. For me it’s about being healthy too and exercising my heart as well.  I haven’t been able to lately because I was losing too much but I think I have my calories under control now.  Trial and error right? : )