Krocadillah’s BodyBlog

43 days until my flight for Vegas, and I’ve had to change my goal up a bit.  I’m toying with these 3-4 pounds every few days, I can’t seem to get out of the higher 330’s.  I’m not sure if it’s a mental thing?  So I thought my original goal of being at 300 for the O at this point might not be attainable and at the same time me lose the remainder of my goal safely.  So I’ve decided to use my first progress picture as my next goal, I was 318 in that one.  So my new goal I’m setting for that, by my flight on the 23rd.  So 43 some odd days.  When I reach 318 it will be the lowest I’ve been since September ‘03 when that picture was taken.  I’m still going hard at my cardio, using what Chris Aceto suggested once of 4 days a week at 40 minutes with high intensity.  I thought about dropping my carbs extremely low for a few days maybe to kick out of this slump I’m in.  Any suggestions?

Finished up my second morning back in the gym, lost some hours over the last month due to sales being down at work and helping a friend coach a little league team, (which was much more time consuming than I first thought.)  Anyways, got my membership money saved up so that I could go back.  I’ve stayed pretty much with the same diet, but I did hit a bit of a sticking point.  Luckilly being out of the gym didn’t hurt me on the scale as much as I was afraid it would, I weighed in at 342 last night.  So things are back in order now, trying to get under 300 for the Olympia trip I’m hopefully going to get to take.  I changed my meal plan up, a bit.

One:

40-50 gram shake, with 1/2 cup dry oatmeal blended;

Two:

8 oz. chicken breast, and a small apple

Three:

12 oz. tilapia, small baked potato

Four:

Shake, and banana

Five:

12 oz. tilapia, smaller potato (if at all.)

 My trainer suggested upping my tilapia from 8 to 12 oz. as it is a lighter P than chicken or steak.  He thinks using it twice a day will help me to kick through the next 10-15 pounds so I can get on a roll again.  I’m going to weigh next Wednesday and see where I’m at, but more importantly just focus on the mirror for a while.  My 48’s are getting looser, so hopefully by the end of the month I’ll be down another pant size.  We’ll see.  Thanks for those who checked up on me.

Got on the scale today at the gym and was at 336 1/2.  I didn’t realize until I got home to update my weight on here that I’m exactly halfway to 300 since I started, my first weight on here was 373.  So I was pretty pumped when I saw that.  I’m also officially out of 3x shirts down to 2x, and my pant size has dropped from 50 to 48.    Had to cut a new hole into my belt, too.  Everything’s going good.

I finally broke out of the 340’s today.  This last ten pounds has given me fits for some reason.  My first twenty fell off.  I’m not sure if maybe it was a mental block, since it had been so long since I’d been down that much or not.  It feels really good to be at 339.  My first long term goal when I started in Feb. was to be under 300 by the Olympia.  That’s 40 lbs. away, today.  I haven’t seen 299 since 11th grade, and that was 2002.  I feel like if I can ever get under three hundred pounds, I will never let myself get there again.  My next small goal is to get to 325, which was the heaviest I played football at.  The first picture I loaded (green shirt, shaved head) was at 318 my senior year.  I keep that shirt and that picture hanging in my room so that I have to see it every day.  It’s an extra large.  All of my shirts right now are 3X and are starting to fit very loosely.  This is probably the most excited I’ve been so far to be so much closer to my goal.  Thank you to everyone who has added me as a friend here and has accepted my friend requests and keep me going when I stumble.

Since I haven’t posted what I’ve been eating, I decided to today so that if there are any suggestions to help kick me through any sticking points you folks would know what I’m working with.

Meal One:

3-4 egg whites, one yolk per three eggs.

1/2 cup of oatmeal

8 oz. orange juice

AM Snack:

30-40 gram shake, or can of chicken

apple

Lunch:

8 oz. sirloin, chicken breast, or tilapia

1 small baked potato, plain

1 cup of greens

PM Snack:

Shake or can of chicken

banana

Supper:

8 oz. sirloin, chicken or tilapia

1 small baked potato (skipping this if after training.)

Before bed:

1 tsp. peanut butter

Anyhow, this is what I’ve been eating since the first of Feb.  I’m down 31 pounds, to 342 as of this week.  The last ten pounds have been wreaking havoc on me, I can’t seem to get past the 340’s, for whatever reason I can’t figure out.  If anyone has any suggestions, please feel free to throw one out.

Today is Sunday, March 8th, 2009.  As of today I have dropped from 373 to 350 pounds.  I have made several improvements, but the road ahead is still going to be a very long and difficult one to travel.  I haven’t really had the desire to cheat, as I get one meal every five days, and when they’re used I don’t go all out and blow my entire day away.  My new way of eating hasn’t become tiring yet, as it would with any other "fad diet".  This is truly a new way of living.  I don’t want to use the word ‘diet’ anymore, because this is my life now.  I feel like you will only have success when you see it this way.  Everyone will eventually come off of a diet.  I don’t plan on stopping this.  The eggs and oatmeal each morning are getting harder to swallow, but seeing the weight continue to drop on each Friday morning is well worth the trouble.  I have several goals, first and foremost would be how I see myself in pictures.  When you look in a mirror, or in a picture, you might think you don’t really look that way.  Maybe it was the lighting, or the angle.  But after I realized that, no, it isn’t just the lighting, that it was an actual moment in time frozen, and that was exactly who I was, at that very moment; that it was time to change.  I have two sets of pictures taken in 2005 at the Arnold Classic and at the Olympia.  These were times I want to remember forever, as I met many of my idols.  They all looked exactly how they did in the books and magazines, and I looked disgusting to myself.  A fat and out of shape fellow running around an expo filled with people who paid their dues and earned their keep stuck out harshly.  Probably the moment that changed my outlook, was when I met Roland Kickinger.  He looked at me, and slapped me on the back, and said "Ahh, you are a powerlifter?"  I grinned, because at the time that’s what training style I was using.  To be recognized as having that build, then, made the grueling workouts worth every drop of sweat.  It wasn’t enough, though.  I’ve had a love for bodybuilding for a very long time now.  Being so out of shape, though, made me think that there would never be any chance of actually stepping onstage myself.  Alot of this negative thinking was actually undone when I first saw an episode of The Biggest Loser.  It’s been on for several seasons, now, but I just started watching over the last week or two.  It’s inspiring to see people that stick with their goals, even after they’ve been voted off of the show.  And in the same way, when I see famous bodybuilders, I used to think that was unattainable.  But it isn’t.  Every one of those contestants on the show, who’ve gone on to fulfill their goals, and for every bodybuilder who made it on stage, all it took was that first step.  They took the chance, and ran with it.  I have made up my mind whole heartedly that this will be the last time I ever lose weight, again.  I know that there is a life awaiting me that brings much more happiness than the one I’m living now, and it will only come through continued dedication to my eating habits and my lifting.  When I’m done losing, I’m not sure where I’ll be.  Maybe I’ll be a good-sized 220-230 pound guy, or maybe I’ll get below 200.  I don’t know yet.  But what I do know, is that I WILL make it on stage, in the next two years.  My first goal, is to be able to take pictures with my role model and hero, Jay Cutler, at the Olympia, and be proud of how I look, and the second will be competing at the Battle of Biloxi, next summer.  Thank you to everyone who has added me so far, and offered words of encouragement.  They really mean a lot to me.

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