In the mind of a FREEK

What annoys the hell out of me..

I’m at the gym, fired up to blow the sh*t out of my arms, focused and determined. Did my warm up, watched my favorite bb youtube clip on my ipod as usual, needed a bench press station, and WHAT DO I SEE…… Some guy who sits on the bench typing away on his text messages wearing a fancy, bright red and white, expensive-ass underarmour thats too tight for his skinny, out of shape, beer belly ass…

Everyone else whos on benches are workin their ass off, so I’d be more than happy to wait, but this fool….. and then right after he finished texting his freakin essay, he adds on 5 pounds to his 100 pound bench… THEN HE ENGAGES IN A CONVERSATION WITH ANOTHER LAZY IDIOT… Laughing hella loud like retards about the cheeseburger they ate for breakfast…. UNBELIEVABLE…. So I just stared at his ass with my "are you effin seroius" look… Looks at me, and looks away as if he’s scared..

So I wait another minute or two.. He does one set of like, 4 reps…. groaning and moaning like he’s benching 300.. Gets up, walks to another station WITHOUT PUTTING AWAY HIS WEIGHTS…… Oh my…. I looked at his ass with disgust… Then went on with my workout… I just wanted to rip his stupid underarmour into bits of peices like paper.

And when I was getting pumped up, bout to close-grip press 230, I had to get into my mindset you know? I "whoo’d" a couple times with my spotter, and the guy n his friend look at me like I’m Ronnie… I was so uncomfortable… after that though, it was all business and awesome balls-to-the-wall workout!!

So the moral of the story.. Do not be like this guy.. You are at the gym to WORK, not PLAY… You can text, talk about cheeseburgers, laugh like a retard, and wear your fancy clothes outside the gym, but if your ass is in the gym, "Shut the F*** up and train" - Animal.. lol =]

Work hard everyone! God bless!!

So today, I started workout late because had to take my brother to some elite college prep seminar which made me wanna jump off a roof lol. But I guess it was better cus when I came back home everything I ordered on bb.com had arrived!! My first Animal Pak, Optimum Casien, and some more Superpump! So I ate something small, popped a pak, which was crazy cus I never had to take 11 pills at once, especially ones that HUGE!… But I managed. Then an hour later I took some new Superpump tropical punch (which is realllyyy gooood!) and turned from gentle Jin to Animal Jin lolll.

Arms day. I went up poundage in lying tri extension up to 95 lbs x8!! Felt like a monsterrr. Overhead db extension, stayed at 105 x6. Got looks from people like I was a freakkk! Loved it. V-bar pressdowns!! I did the whole rack PLUS 35lb’s placed on it for 8 times. I almost failed at 7, but I freaked it out! I felt invincible muahaha!!

BICEPS! I curled 105’s 6 times!!! My first time!! Of course I cheated a little cus my workout was "cheat bb curls" but I tried to use as less body language as I possibly could which worked my biceps harddd.. and the rest went smoothly with some added cardio of basketball which I’m HORRIBLE at…. lol but it was fun!!

I realized that my view of bodybuilding has changed drastically over this month. After starting my proper diet, all of my friends been freaking out on me and telling me I’m freaking huge and whatnot. But I realize that I don’t want to look good in the eyes of people.. I’m not doing this to impress anyone. I’m doing this to better me and become the best that I can, something that average people can’t achieve.. I just wanna be a FREAK. not just a "buff" dude. a FREAK of nature. when i walk past people anywhere i go, i want them to give me that wierd look like "o.O"… and then right when i walk past em… i go…. RAAAHH!!!! and they run for their damn lives like a freaks about to eat them. yeah.. that kind of freak.. LOL!!!

 But yeah.. I love it. This is my LIFE! What’s your life of bb like?? I would like to know if there are any other freaks like me or people who want to be envied, or just model status! I realize in bodybuilding there is NO room for humility whatsoever, so be as cocky as you freakin want when you comment!! ;]

Take care, keep liftin hard, and GOD BLESS YOU!!

-JIN-

Oh my goodness… How do i start off about today’s workout.. One word, FAILURE.. Well sorry for ranting off again, you really dont have to read this, but if you do, please share some words of encouragement! It would mean a LOT for me… I’ll try to make it as short as possible =]

But anyways, I started off with 5 min of bike warmup. I was watching my fav bb youtube vid on my ipod and I got SO pumped up like no other, I felt so excited to just go balls-to-the-wall workout chest today! So I start off db bench 80’s for 12 reps. Easy. I felt like a monster. So I went to fillup my shaker with h2o to drink, and excited to do 85’s for 10 reps, I threw it in my bag as usual. So 2nd set, done, went to get the shaker, and realized MY WHOLE GYM BAG IS SOAKED…. I didn’t close the top properly!!!! OMG!! How horrible!! My workout log, cell phone, towel, gloves, and deodorant got soaked!!!! My deodorant leaked making evrything disgusting, and my cell phone when I talk to anybody, they cant hear me well…. crap.. I was so pissed off, but I just said F*** it, this can’t stop me from having a good workout.

I was so wreckless and energized, my last set was supposed to be 100 lb db press going up from 95’s for 2 weeks. But me and my stupidness I thought I was going up from 90 to 95’s, being oblivious to my workout schedule and pumped 95’s 6 times. Felt real light for some reason, I just shrugged it off and went to the next workout.. Then I found out… Sh*t… I was so pissed off I was about to just do 100’s, but it was too late, I was already in 2nd set of my 2nd workout, so i doubted I had the strength and mental capacity to do it…. So I was so freakin angry I couldn’t focus on my 2nd workout, and failed to do my last set completely…… I felt like seroius crap..

So after chest, was shoulders. Someone was occupying the smith machine, so i just did freeweight bb press. 2nd set, I realized I FORGOT MY LAST CHEST WORKOUT…… CRAP! I couldnt go back now so I just finished up the shoulder press which felt impossible cus of my frustration and lack of focus…. So after the wokrout, I went into my last chest workout i forgot stupidly, with soggy gym bag and all.. And once again, it felt impossible! I was so pissed off!!

Redemption… Last 2 shoulder workouts, went real heavy with an angry mindset. Worked out pretty well my anger feuled my strength haha…

So I guess that was one of my most horrible workout ever.. Spilled water and soaked my bag.. Forgot to go up in weights like I was supposed to.. And forgot a workout which threw the schedule off.. I hope it didn’t jeapordize my chest/shoulders from getting a proper workout, which i think it did… And this was the last chest/shoulder workout of my phase 1 of my HUGE program.. next week I will start phase 2 which I’m really lookin forward to, but I was also lookin forward to having an awesome finish, but was a complete train wreck…. SIGHHHhh…….. O well..

 SO i guess the moral of the story is, even tho you’re really pumped up and excited to beast your workout, don’t be so stupid and oblivious to little things…. And I also learned that nothing can be perfect in life, am I right? Except God of course… lol…

Well, has anyone else had sucha failure of a workout like this? Please share your story! Thanks for reading, please leave an encouraging comment so I can get out of this discouraged mood… God bless!

-Jin-

Hey everyone!

 Haven’t updated my blogs in a bit. I guess it’s cus there’s not much to update! =] But i’ve been really consistent with training and diet thanks to my fellow bs members who’ve graciously helped me with diet a lot! =] Every workout, I’m always beastin it, thanks to SUPERPUMP250! I really love that product, it gets more potent as i’m using it more and more. And I’ve increased weight in many of my workouts! I get hella looks especially from asian dudes. I was genetically blessed with mass, something that most asians are cursed with not having.. I know it’s mean and cocky lol but I love to intimidate fellow gym goers! It makes me feel good and flattered that they’re watching me dumbbell press 105’s with looks of envy. Muahahaha!! (Dr. Evil’s laugh) And I love to see other bb’s that are massive pressing weight that are 3 times heavier than what i can do. It motivates me to push harder! But anyways, I’m almost done with phase 1 of my HUGE program! I’m hella excited for the 2nd phase!! It’ll be the most important where I must produce as much raw strength as I can for 6 weeks and it has all of my favorite workouts. =]

 Thanks to my diet, I’ve gotten a lot leaner as well. Everyones been realizing it! The only thing is that it’s real tough organizing and planning out everything as well as counting everything but I’m successfully eating about 8 times a day! Plus it costs a lot of money to be a bodybuilder lol.. However, the urge to eat cheat foods grow larger and larger each day haha. And when I do I feel like crappp!

I am still having a real tough time on squats though. I’ve been trying to increase weight by changing up reps, weight, etc. but my legs are being stubborn.. A friend of mine suggested I work on legs 2 days per week instead of 1 and switch up workouts. What you guys think? I seriously need advice on increasing poundage. HELP!

Hows everyone else doing? Hope you guys are staying motivated. The funny thing is, I see about half the amount of people who started out for New Years Resolutions.. I guess it’s the time of "Survival of the fittest" loll.. But I respect them to keep committed cus thats sucha hard thing to do. Even my gf’s having a hard time.. But I’m pushin her!! =] But anyways time to eat!! Yumm…

God Bless

-Jin-

Whoa… I never thought that this would happen to me!!! However I finally reached a freakin plateau…. I finally realized, "huh… how come it doesn’t look like I’m getting bigger???…. OH NO I STOPPED GROWING…" I kinda freaked out and was discouraged and panicking.. My parents n gf even said I look the same as I did a couple months ago, EVEN tho I’m lifting heavier in all my workouts..

But that also helped me realize a lot of other things too, such as my poor diet.. I’ve been a lot less than I should be.. I thought that I didn’t need to eat as much cus I already have quite an amount of bodyfat.. But I guess I’m wrong???

I didn’t really followup on a specific diet plan and just ate whatever was in the kitchen, but I realize that without proper diet, protein, carbs, fats, calories, etc. I’ll stop growing one way or another… So thankfully a bodyspace brotha is helpin me out with it, but I still need a lot of help.

I don’t understand how you can count grams of protein/carbs/fats you eat?! How do you count grams of protein in a chicken breast? How about a cup of brown rice? or a cup of walnuts/almonds?? Gahh I don’t really understand.. And I really need to start a proper strict diet and be a more mature bb…

So please help!!! I need any help I can get!!! What are some good ideas for in-between-meal snacks? Or tips on counting calories and grams of nutrients, what to take pre/post workouts (if not just protein shakes).. The help would be so greatly appreciated my friends!!

Thanks and God bless..

-JIN-

Today’s workout was okay, just a bit irritated.. I respect everyone’s decision to come out for New Years and try to dedicate themselves for another year of trying to get in shape.. However, they need to come out knowing what they’re doing! You dont have to hear me rant about this, but I’m just taking note of today.. lol.

Well coming out, the whole parking lot was packed like no other.. My gym is one of the biggest if not THE biggest 24 Hour Fit. in the Bay Area, but I could not find any parking.. and PEOPLE DONT KNOW HOW TO PARK.. They park in 2 freakin spots, how the hell are other ppl supposed to park and do their daily workouts?? PLEASE learn how to PARK and be sensitive for other ppl!! So I parked about what seemed like half a mile away from the gym.. 

Second, there were so many ppl occupying benches without knowing what the heck they are doing.. There are ppl who need benches that know what theyre doing, that have been doing what theyre doing, and are irritated when they are waiting for someone who dont know what theyre doing who take so long!! What also amazed me, was that people who started off the New Year, who are really out of shape, are wearing tight underarmour, and trying to push weight that are wayyyy too advanced for them, even a bit hard for me!! Horrible form, grunting like crazy, trying to "show off", and sitting there looking like a fool checkin out other women’s asses who are there to actually WORK… sighh how annoying..

AND LASTLY… What pissed me off the most.. I was working my heart out today, and I get looks from these white guys, disgusted looks… Never seen any of them before cus they just started for New Years, but they were lookin at me like I was a piece of shit or sumthing… I was able to read their minds very clearly however. It said "Wow, I can’t believe this asian is bigger than me…" Gave me the worst feeling.. Whatever.. Don’t hate cus I’ve been dedicated and you havent! I think it only feuls me, motivates me, and gives me strength to push harder and harder.

HOWEVER, there was an UPside! =] I just got Gaspari Superpumped250 in the mail from bb.com, and started using it today. I did arms, and the pump was amazing!! I felt like my skin was gunna tear from the vascularity and pump! I felt a lot stronger too. I was able to do 100LBS overhead dumbbell ext. for 8 perfect reps! Curled 100LB Barbell for 6 reps!! NEver did that before! Amazing I’m loving Superpumped250 so far. We’ll see how it works for other workouts next week. =]

Talk to ya later! =]

Hey guys. Had my first workout of the New Year! Leg day after not working them out for 2 weeks… Ugh I have such a bittersweet relationship with my legs.. lol. Awesome feeling to pump hard during workouts as well as sweating like a freakin waterfall, but it takes a LOT out of me to push hard plus when they’re sore, its up to the point where I can’t even walk so it drains my energy fasstt..

Today I killed my quads like no other. Squats, Leg presses, and Hack Squats and Extensions. Right after the workout, I could hardly walk down the gym stairs lol. And soon after I got home, I couldn’t even walk up my front door steps which are like only a few inches tall… oh my I’m definitely going to feel them tomorrow and the next few days…

I desperately need ADVICEE!! Sadly, I believe my legs are my weakest set of bodyparts. I squat the same pounds as my bench, which really should NOT be.. My legs should be able to press at least half the amount more than my bench.. Why is that??? How can I increase MORE poundage to my squats?? Help meee pleeaassee!

-Jin-