KissYour4Head’s BodyBlog

so I’m finally leaving my self-inflicted pity party.  3 weeks ago I injured my knee and two weeks later (after 2 Kaiser visits including one to the ER) it was finally determined that I tore my meniscus and fractured the fibula.  I wont get into how bad it hurts and the fact that I cant put weight on my knee, but know its painful and a sound night’s sleep has been out of the question.  Surgery is scheduled for 2 weeks, and I’ve been just wallowing in pity and frustration.  (I believe injuries can lead into depression, if you let it) Anyway, I’m forcing myself back in the gym at 3am tomorrow to work on anything that wont cause pain in my knee.  Why 3am, because I dont want folks to ask me any questions regarding the brace and crutches.  Its my time to focus.  Wish me luck.

This morning I had an awesome workout. It was Bi/Tri day!  So I completed the following:

Tricep pulldowns (rope) 60

Bicep Curls (Cable) 90

Tricep pressdown V-Bar (cable)  60

Bicep Curls (DB) 20

Bicep Curls (BB) 55

Preacher Curls (slowwww) 25 to exhaustion

Tricep extensions 65

Skullcrushers (DB) 45

30 min elliptical (before and after workout)

For some reason, I’m not tired or sore!!!

I dont think the wgts were heavy enough… got an idea…I WILL GO BACK THIS EVENING!!!! (Dont want to cheat myself)

.. is was so afraid to eat too much, I hardly ate at all.  Sweet foods were all over the office yesterday. (All I ate for the day was a turkey roll up, oatmeal, and 2 cups of coffee)  Then, when I left work,  I came home, I immediately jumped into bed to sleep away all other temptation.  This is so NOT me! This is telling me that I am not in control.  This is definitely something I need to evaluate.

 All in all, the workouts have been consistant (other than that nagging back pain from bad advise) Tomorrow is spin class for cardio, and I’ll work my legs as well.

…I’ve gotta get into the blogging habit.  So this is what I’m going to do… I’m goin to blog everything here on BB.com and stop keeping a food journal and a workout journal.  It seems like I spend more time writing about my day than living my day. So I’ll consolidate. Sound like a good idea? 

Anyway, I’ve been proud of myself only taking one day off from the gym last week. Unfortunately, that day off was due to me being an idiot by listening to a guy at the gym tell me to to do twists with a 25lb weight to work my obliques.  From that day, I’m having crazy pain in my lower back (scary because I’ve had a disc removed) but I’m working around it.  Not going to quit… it isn’t an option. 

Ok, so its Sunday, and I find in my email, a message from BB.com reminding me to blog.  I thank them for that.  I have journaling down, I use the workout tracker, and I write down all of my aweful eating habits. Ok so I will make it my mission to use Sundays as my blog day.  Back after my workout to sum up my week…..

..but a wonderful thing happened to me.  The Sunday before New Years, I woke to the voice of Bishop T.D. Jakes. (I must have fallen asleep with the TV left on from the previous nite (something I rarely do) Anyway, upon waking I remember hearing the Bishop saying that we should not be celebrating a new year, but we should be celebrating  receiving "a new mind" for 2008. I’m paraphrasing, but he advised that we can’t go into 2008 expecting change while using a 2007 mentality.  WOW! Did THAT sink in.  (Maybe because I wasn’t fully awake and my defenses were down) Anyway, I dont remember all that he said but what DID stick was the fact that I needed to celebrate that I will have a different mindset this year and I will be successful in the areas I commit myself to.  I really needed to hear that because things weren’t really starting out the way I wanted them too. 

So, this 2008, I’ve decided to take care of myself physically, emotionally and spiritually.  I’m journaling like crazy, checking myself on the regular and staying light-hearted.

In regarding to working out, I’m challenging myself more and increasing the weight that I’ve been lifting.  Today, I did just that, and I’m so pleased with myself.  I actually didn’t think I’d finish my workout but I did. 

Now, I’m on a mission.  As I’ve been singing to myself, "I was like a song, so out of key, now my mind has blossomed into a MELODY"

Ok….though I haven’t been blogging, I HAVE been working out.  I now believe that logging my workout (journaling) is helpful and this will help me keep me in check. Wish me luck!!!