I have just completed Day 1 of Jamie Eason's 12 week transformation program.  Exercises were simple and did not take too long.  My muscles are feeling a little warm and fat, so I expect to be a tad sore tomorrow.  Was expecting that though.

Someone once gave me quote that I love - HARD WORK = HARD BODY.

If I don't work, I don't get, right?

I have had a couple of years of inconsistency but finally seem to be on the right track.  Have spent the last couple of weeks getting in the habit of getting up at 4am to go to the gym, aiming for my 3 l of water every day and making a conscious decision about my food choices (sometimes at every meal and every snack - trying to pick the better option).

This week my goal is meal planning and preparation in advance.  Wish me success

I am now at Day 4 and feeling good about things.  Every day I am feeling more confident about my eating.  I am looking forward to improving my eating.  I am not feeling worried about "dieting" or going without.  I view my changed eating as a lifestyle change not a diet and I think this helps me focus on getting better every day as I gain more knowledge.  I don't focus on when this horrid "diet" will end.

My family are all getting fitter and healthier and have started a support group on Facebook.  It is working a treat so far.  Keeps me enthused to write how my day went, we get reminders to drink water and are cheering each other along.

I love that I have made it to Day 4 and I look forward to getting healthier every day.

Today I start Day 1 - yet again.  Not a great track record.  In fact, I have gained 12kg since joining BB.com back in 2009.

I have lost track of the number of Day 1s I have had.

Trying things a little differently this time:

• No more dieting - healthy clean eating only - check
  
• Support group set up on Facebook - check
  
• Re-invigorate my BB.com profile - check
  
• Set realistic goals - check
  
• Have family support - check
  
• Have goal clothing picked out - check
  

Still to do:

• Take before pics
  
• Organise my food / exercise diary
  
• Get my measurements
  
• Schedule in exercise in my calendar
  

Here is to success this time.

Kim x

Today is Day 1... again.  Since my last day 1 I have gained about 8kgs.  Each time I start again, I seem to end up bigger.  I am almost too scared to start as I don't want to end up even fatter. 

Not quite sure why I am having such difficulty.  I know all the rules, I know how good I feel when I eat healthy.  I just can't get excited anymore.  I struggle with motivation and I honestly feel like s*#t.

My self confidence is at an all time low.  I am visualising failure already and I know that is soooo the wrong thing to do.  I am not quite sure how to pick myself up and get excited.

Anyway....one step at a time.  Hoping I get to love it and it become easier.

Kim

Somedays this all seems like such a delicate balancing act.

Eat this many calories, with this ratio of protein, carbs and fats, drink this much water, do this type of exercise at this kind of intensity, no carbs after this time.

Everyday I seem to drop the ball on something.  Either I eat every meal and don't drink enough water or I eat the right amount of calories but my ratio is out.  You get the picture.  It all seems to take such a huge amount of headspace just to get through one day.

What I have learned is - don't sweat the small stuff.  There is no such thing as perfect.  I have learned that consistently heading in the right direction is what I need to do.

I need to remember to feel a little pride - I have not slipped back to any of my old habits, I haven't had any crappy food for weeks, I feel fabulous and my body is changing so rapidly I can hardly believe it.  So forget the minute details. They don't matter at this stage.  Enjoy the process.

I recently started a dedicated transformation journey and have started to have some great visible results quite quickly.

Only thing is that I am now feeling a little impatient.  I want to see changes quickly.  I want to see these great muscles I know I am building (I can feel them under the fat layer )

Have been madly reading BB.com and think now is the time to start upping the anti. Just have to remember - slow and steady wins the race (pity I think I am a racehorse )  Might just sneak in a little cardio.....

I have just joined the gym and am trying to get together a training plan - OMG.  So hard.  I have been scouring my magazines (dog-eared from reading, never implemented and websites for training programs. There are millions of options.  I just want one good one that will set me in the right direction as a starting point for competition training later in the year.  This is doing my head in.  I think I had better find a personal trainer.  Not feeling confident I can design a program on my own.

I am back.  I have mustered up all my courage to face everyone and admit that I failed miserably.  I avoided this site altogether, but have really missed all the support - so I am back.  Look forward to good stuff.....

OMG.  I have been listening to a hypnosis CD by Paul McKenna called Instant Confidence.... absolutely fantastic!!  I feel so energetic (which is scary because I already never sleep) and so darn happy. This has been all week now.  Not a single down day.  I have not missed an exercise day because I can't wait to get there.

Whoo hoo!!!  Kim is going to be the dreamy queen of hotness with the spectacularly fabulous bum   Thanks Mr McKenna...

At work, I am an individualist.  At home, I am my own boss.  I always live by my own rules (thanks to a supportive husband).

If I am my own boss, why do I let myself walk all over me. Why can't I make me stand up to my subconscious and say enough is enough? At work, I would be leading.  Message to self. Set an action plan and deliver it. Work with your team (in this case myself) to achieve.  I would never allow the kind of negative talk I hear from my subconscious.  We would work through the issues.

I need to become boss of myself.

 

OK, OK.  I confess.  I am a recovering resolutionist.  Every year I make my New Year's resolutions and then I fall of the wagon.  This past one was no different.  I have been steadily trying to lose the weight, but unfortunately most of it has been in my head - not on the treadmill....

I did it again this year, I got myself all pumped up and motivated.  I hired a trainer, I got my exercise equipment together, I got a gym membership close to my work and I truly thought - this time.....

We are now only a month in and I can say with a little shame and a lot of remorse - I am a resolutionist.  I am one of those people who turn up at the gym and take up all the equipment and then quit.

HOWEVER... and this is a big however,  I am getting back on the horse this time which I have never done before.  Normally I allow my excusitis to persist for the rest of the year.

I still have the comp in my sights and this is driving me on. 2010 - I know you will be a great year for me.

Today I am back (she sheepishly admits) from my hiatus (that is excusitis language meaning slackness ).  Missed everyone majorly.

I have not gained any weight, but I have lost 2 weeks opportunity of transformation.  Anyway, no point kicking myself.  Get back onto BB.com, look at my pics, reread my goals, look at my inspiration pics of what I want to look like, surf the net and look at those great competition suits and most importantly - START TRAINING

One great outcome though - no self sabotage this time.  No binges, no alcohol, no dairy.  That is progress I think.

Good morning all,  it is hot here and I am feeling sooky.

Here is where I call on my friends to say - get off your lazy butt and get moving.  I did no cardio at all yesterday.  Just slugged on the lounge.  My husband cooked dinner and I watched Pearl Harbour (the movie).  I have not watched a movie in months, but felt really annoyed at myself for being slothful.

May have to do the stair challenge again today

It is over 100 degrees today (39 C) and I feel like a slug....

Well, week 1 is now officially over - only 11 weeks to go of my first 12 week personal challenge.  My trainer Rose has upped my cardio which will be great.  I was really enjoying it and I was thinking of squeezing in a couple of extra last week but not sure if it would sabotage my success, so I kept my faith in Rose and stuck to the program (except for the stair climb episodes... shhh don't tell Rose

Today I start week 2, with even more enthusiasm.  I posted my yucky progress pics and it serves as even more inspiration. If I want to compete, I have a LONG way to go, but my trainer (and my friends) say I can do it.... so ready, steady.... GO!!! See you at the top!