Prepare Yourself!! (42 Days Left)
Wow, I’m surprised that I’ve found some time to blog back to back days. I always have the intention to do so, but next thing I know the 24th hour of the day is upon…. This has been what my days have felt like ever since I finished competing this season. It’s a wonder how I got through those weeks of training…. Some things in my life were definitely neglected! So, I’m finding the time at 7:30 AM this morning since I got up to have meal #1 and put our weeks worth of chicken breast in the oven to start cooking. I’m heading to the gym for 8:30 AM, so I have some time.
Anyhoo, speaking about intentions…. Yesterday, I had every intention to make it a clean eating day. I went to a BBQ that was organized by my hubby, his brothers and cousin. From the top of the week, I told myself that because of this new goal I am working towards, I can not afford to cheat on the Saturday. I had every intention…..Even yesterday morning, I was so proud with the progress I’d made shedding 5 lbs during the week. I had a look of leanness when I woke up in the morning and I generally felt ‘light’. So, my intention was to keep with that momentum and make it through the day sticking to my meals.
Somewhere during the day, something happened. I don’t know what that defining moment was, but suddenly the battle in my head began. It went something like this; Man, gurl it’s the last BBQ of the summer, how can you pack your food to bring. Man, gurl you’ve still got another 6 weeks (42 days) to hit your goal. Man, gurl it’s not going to set you back that much. It’s not like you’re going to gain back the 5 lbs. The best one was… ‘People might find you rude and ‘too good for the food’ if you pack your stuff and bring. So, I’m unfortunately blogging today with the news that the inner voice won out! I did not go there with any food packed but rather with every intention to eat what was there. Oh, the kicker is my inner voice said; ‘Don’t worry Nke, we’re just watch the portions and make sure to stay away from the carbs and just focus on the chicken and greens.’
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HA – I’m killing myself with laughter right now….. Can I say JOKES!!! I got there, and started off good. I had a small plate that consisted of two pieces of chicken and salad. That was it, and I felt ‘OK’ when I finished it. My mindset was to eat before all the people arrived so I can help with the sharing of food when the food requests started coming in.This all but worked for a couple of hours. Then I just could not resist the site of the BBQ jerk chicken, curry goat, potato salad and even the dinner rolls. So, what did I do… I made up a ‘small’ plate for myself, and then another, and then made a small sandwich using the roll and some chicken … and then another…. I almost understand the mindset of people that struggle to lose weight now… there comes a point when ur eating and you figure, well I’ve already indulged so I might as well just continue… so you go for it, and go all out! That’s what pretty much happened to me last night. Funny thing tho’, it happened over a period of hours so I never felt full… which is why I always felt I had room for more….Ugh!
Then, I got home and while I was getting ready for bed, I looked in the mirror and OHHHH BOYYYY …. I was so not ready for how I looked. Can I say ‘distended belly’!!! My gosh!!! I could not believe the transformation in just a period of 24 hours. I am not stepping on a scale for the next 3 days, coz’ I’m pretty sure that I not only gained back the 5lbs, but an additional 2-3 lbs on top of that. My water retention is bad! I believe I’ve blogged about that before. I’m not sure why it’s so bad for me… I’ve never been able to figure that one out. You know what it comes down to… and hence my choice of subject… I was not PREPARED for the aftermath of listening to my inner voice. So, it a lesson learned for me. When I’m making those type of decision… I need to also think ahead to the results and be prepared for the outcome…. Either way. So, now it’s too late to turn back time so I just have to be responsible & accountable for my choice and forge forward. I’m back on my train today and I’m putting some serious thought into going 2 straight weeks without a cheat so I can ‘get ahead’. Better yet, going to take it one day at a time and use yesterday as a lesson to myself about my intentions having to be matched with my prepardness. Have a blessed Sunday!
Cheers, Nke
